KALOKOHAN

John joe's cap

Rb, tambay sa eskenita

New shades! Were going to

GAMEWORKS to have a shoot for IAGT

Hindi na ko pinauwi ni nanay dahil gabi na.. Ayun.. Ako lang pala ang babae na matitira dito sa office.. Akala ko naman, iinom kame.. Ehehe.. Sayang! Feel ko pa naman ang uminom.. Tsk tsk.. Hehehe.. ^_^

~out~

MAAGA AKO NGAYON


I just got here in the office.. Ang aga ko grabe! Buti kahit puyat, nakatulog naman ako sa byahe.. Hmm... Umuwi ako sa bahay namen kasi I had to bring new clothes for tonight but I think hindi ako makakapag sleep over here kasi pinapauwi ako ni nanay. Anyway, ayun.. Kahapon, our first stop was at Greenbelt 3 (People's Place) where AXE CLICK launching was held there. I saw Ate Mau there (sister of Ap, a Comm Arts tropa). Cool! Nagsama sama ang mga taga La Salle! Haha!! Then there were some discussion about Scents and Perfumes of a person ang how you could know that it is "bagay" to him/her.. Gets??.. Ang host for that event was DJ Mo Twister.. Hmmm.. what can I say about him..... Hmm.. he's simple.. Relax lang..

After that, I went ahead to IBM to have my resignation cleared.. Well, ayun, buti andun yung TL namen.. Andun dun si Jarvey! Tapos ngayon pa lang ako naka kuha ng clearance. POCHA! Akala ko pa naman naipasa na ng tao na yun sa HR yung letter of immediate resignation ko eh wala pa! Ayun.. Hay!

Sabay kame nakauwi na Jarvey. I missed that guy.. IMPERNEZZZZ... haha! Ayun, kwentuhan... Then nagpalibre pa ang bruho! Hahaha!!!I am excited to be cleared para makakuha ng BACK PAY! Wahaha!!!!! Its almost 10k daw sabi ni Jarvey. hehehe.. Nice!

Last night...

Marthy (my ex) went to our house.. wala lang.. tumawag kasi siya.. Eh gusto raw niya kong makita. hehe.. Ayus! Ayun, tamang yosi lang.. Tapos kwentuhan..

Ewan ko ba kung bakit ba lagi na lang yun bumabalik sa ki pag wala na siyang girlfriend.. Well, pareho kame ng status at ng months na wala nang girl/boyfriend.... 4 going on 5 months.. Ayun.. Hmmm.. my comment???....... Hmmm................. Actually, ayoko pa talagang mag boyfriend ulit. Now I realized what Pyar means about "not yet ready for a commitment"..... Well although I knew about it before pero alam mo yun??.... Basta! Parang natatakot akong pumasok na naman sa isang relasyon lalo na pag kilala mo yung sarili mo when it comes to LOVE..."is this love, is this love, is this love, is this love that I'm feeling"... haha!! May kanta pang kasama eh noh?.. Ahaha! ^_^

ENJOY KA LANG DAHIL SINGLE KA

For me, nag eenjoy ako sa pagiging Single... 5 months na nga diba.... Well, minsan lang talaga nakakaramdam ako ng pagkalungkot. lalo na kapag nababalewala ako ng taong mahal ko.. Mga taong importante sa kin pero parang hindi ako importante sa kanila. Pero naiintindihan ko naman yun eh. Wala naman ako magagawa kasi may kanya kanya kameng buhay.

Nagagawa ko mga bagay na gusto ko.. Walang kumokontra or nagagalit kapag nakikipag usap ako sa ibang lalake, may ka text akong ibang lalake.. Alam mo yun??.. Pero minsan, nakakamiss yung mga away na yun.. Kasi maiintindihan mo na nagseselos siya kasi HE DOESN'T WANT TO LOSE YOU.... That's it!

Hay.... pero nakakmiss din yung.. May ka text ka lage.. Alam mo yun??.. Yung laging may nag iinspire sayo..... Hay! Kaka inggit yung ibang tao na lage siyang naka smile whenever may nagttext sa kanya. heheh.. Ayoko namang gayahin na ngingiti sa cellphone ko ng wala naman akong natanggap na text, mukha kong sira ulo nun! Hahaha!!! =)

O siya siya...... Time to go now! Bubye!!!!

~out~

AT THE CUISINE

Call Time is 10 pm but we went to THE FORT at 11 pm. John Joe, Bubbles, Ketchup and Borgy with his girlfriend were all there already. We were there to have a shoot for John Joe' s segment which is GIRL TALK .

Well, we all had a San Mig Light ordered by Borgy. I got to see Sarah Chistoffer, the dancing model for MAXX candy and Richard Gutierrez.. Some people might be models in the place.

Well, very tiring coz we got here in the office at 3 am . Cool right??...

This is a great experience having my OJT at Ideal Minds... Haha.. Not to mention the celebrities that I could meet every production days! haha!!!

I wanna thank Ella and Kuya Jeff for taking care of me. hehehe.. Ako lang kasi ang practitioner tonight. Ayun..

Well.. This is what you call LIFE WITHOUT WORRYING....... hahaha!!!Yeah I'm enjoying my life right now. Unlike when I used to work in a call center.. NAME IT! Grrrrr..... lahat na ata nang depression naramdaman ko na! hahaha!!!!!!!

Cool John Joe.. Marunong siya talaga magdala ng segment... Yeah.. I am starting to like this guy.. hahah!! mwah!!! A VERY SWEET KISS FOR YOU JOHN JOE! hehehe.... mmmmwaaaaahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time to go to bed now. I am still here in the office. Got to wake up at 9 in the morning! ^_^ We have to prepare for our shoot at 11 am. Good luck! hahaha!!!

see yah guys! More stories after this.. hehehe.. ^_^ mwah!

PLANS:

• Gotta have a picture with Ketchup, Bubbles and Borgy
• Gotta go to IBM after the first production

~out~

WALANG TAYTOL

Eto ang madalas namin gawin pag walang production sa IMC.. Hay! Mga sunog baga! hahah!!

yosi pa tayo Dude! Astig!

With Jay and Arvie sa labas ng building

With Kuya Yong sa Conference Room

Where will I start??... Umm.. 6 am na kame nakatulog.. My phone alarmed at 8:30 am but Ella wake me up at 9 :30 am. Haha!! One hour ang na adjust para lang mapasarap ang tulog. Ayun.. Monday ngayon so may meeting ang staff with the Big Bosses.. Ang dami naming mga interns as in! Nagsama sama kame dito! Hahaha!!

Kagabe

"Len, maghanap ka naman ng magandang girl na pwedeng isama sa OBB naten".. Sabi ni Kuya Jeff..

"Ehem.. Ehem! "

"Ah, yun ba yon? Nagpaparinig?"..

Tinawagan ko si Sis.. Sabi ko sana siya na lang ang isama .. kaso may pasok siya eh! Sayang..

"O siya Len, ikaw na lang ang isasama." .....

"Talaga!?!... Sige ba!"..

KANINA

Natutulog ako.. zzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

"Len, halika na! Baba na tayo. Mag shoot na tayo para sa OBB"..

"Ha? Kasama ako?"

"Oo, kelangan ka na sa baba."

Haha!!! Ayus ba?.. Kulit noh!?! Actually, hindi yan talaga ang napag usapan namen, pero almost un na rin ang sinabi ni kuya Jeff nung nag uusap kame. heheh..

Ayun, pagdating ko sa baba, nag park si John Joe nang car ni Kuya Jay5.. Ayun. Bale para sa OBB ng Christmas Episode for 3rd Season ng Its a Guy Thing.

Pinaupo ako sa loob ng auto.. Tapos ayun, si Ketchup ang makakasama ko... Cool nga eh. Pagka pasok niya sa car...

KETCHUP: "Hi......Ketchup" (inabot niya ang kamay ko).. Totoo ba ito??..

"Sensya na ah, amoy pawis na ko.. nagbilad kame sa araw kanina eh".. pahabol niya.

Parang,.... owkhey.. si Ketchup, nakipag shake hands sa kin?.. Waa!!! hahaha! Astig!

Tapos ang sequence, nasa loob kame ng car. Tapos yung window nakasara.. Makikita dun yung reflection nila John Joe, Bubbles and Borgy. Tapos bababa yung window. Pagkababa, parang dudungaw si Ketchup tapos mayamaya after 4 seconds, I'll pull him paloob na naman. Ayun...

AFTER TAKE ONE.

BORGY: "Give him a kiss..."

ME: "Huh? Kiss?"

BORGY: "Come on, only on the cheek."

TAKE TWO...

DIREK: "Okay, after 3 seconds, hilahin mo si Ketchup but after that, kiss mo siya sa cheek."

No way! haha!!! Di ko ginawa noh. Tska sinabi ko kay Ketchup yun, sabi niya hilahin ko na lang raw siya..

Ang kulit nga eh.. Naka four takes kame ata.. Yung huli ang kulit ni Ketchup. mmm.... He almost hugged me pero lokohan lang.. then later after that take..

KETCHUP: "Uy, sensya na dun ah, lokohan lang yun.."

Like hello KETCHUP! OKAY LANG! hahaha!! Sana totoo na lang! wahaha.. ^_^ kidding..

Ayun.. mga kalokohan lang namen.. haha!!! At least, na expose ako! weheh.. Sayang nga lang, wala kame picture ni Ketchup inside the car. Sana na post ko dito. Tsk..... Pero madami pang times na makikita namen siya, si Borgy at si Bubbles. Si John Joe lage andito yun! Kakasawa! Hahaha!! Pero ayus lang, nagkaka usap na naman kame. Simple lang siya.. Tamang chill lang. Hehe.. Buti nga hindi siya yung tulad ng ibang celebrity na maarte.... May food budget kasi kame. Tapos sa McDo kame kumain last night.. wala siyang reklamo.. Hindi tulad ng iba na gusto pa sa mamahaling resto. . . .

The funny thing happened last night was when the coverage was done, we were walking na diba??.. pupunta na kame sa McDo nun.. May humabol na mga girls na magpapa picture sa kanya eh nasa Parking lot na kame tapat ng TEATRINO.. Kakatuwa lang kay John Joe na hindi siya suplado. Talagang hinintay namin yung mga girls then yung Segment Producer namen ang nag take pa ng picture! Haha! Nice noh??... Kulit! Ang dami nila kayang girls.. Parang mga nag celeb hunt ata yung mga yun dahil awards night nga sa Cinema 1..... Hahah!! Wala lang... share lang..

NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN

BITTER....

I have talked to Sir Gary, one of the head writers of IMC.. We are close now kaya we always talk and share things about life.. shitty stories of mine.. haha!!!

He told me to move on... Get another guy to love or to pay attention with.. Well, its easy to do .. But the thing is.. YOU ALL KNOW HOW I COMMIT MYSELF WHENEVER I FALL IN LOVE.

Wala naman talaga sa kin yun eh.

Yeah, time to move on.. Things have changed already.. Shitty things had happened while we did not see each other.. Dont get me wrong about the term I used. What I meant was shitty things.. like stupidity.... you know.... Ayun..

But I still wanna say THANK YOU.. you know who you are.. THANKS for being there with me whenever I needed someone.. lalo na nung mga times na sobrang depressed ako dahil sa metrics ko sa CSAT sa work. Tsk. Thanks talaga ah..

Thanks din to Arvie, Jay and Sir Gary dahil you opened my mind about those issues... You really helped me a lot guys! Haha!!

O siya, time to go now. Later na lang ako ulit mag bblog! hehehe.. ^_^

~out~

STAR STRUCK at the Awards Night of Cinema 1

OMG!!!!!

Eto ang pinaka unang pre production na nakasama ako.. Dito pa sa Awards Night! wahah!! I saw Iyah, Zanjo, Mark Gil, Jackylin Jose, Meryl Soriano, Miko Palanca with Bea Alonzo, Piolo Pascual, Bianca Gonzales, Geoff Eigennman and his mother, Empress and Denise, etc. And!!!!! OF COURSE! Si John Joe na kasama namen. haha!!! Sa labas lang kame nag shoot para sa 3rd season ng Its A Guy Thing.. Dun lang kame kasi yun lang ang part na kukuhanan namen, plus yung mga celebrity! OMG! Kasama pa kame sa extras.... Weh! Watch out for it on December. hehehehe.. Napa extra pa kame. That's why I love Ideal Minds. Hindi nila nalilimutan i-extra ang mga interns. hahaha!!!!!

Kinapalan ko na mukha ko!

Nilapitan ko si Iyah while she's outside talking with her colleagues. Tapos si Zanjo (correct ba spelling?).... Then I had this feeling na nainis talaga ako. When I saw Mylene Dizon with her hubby na papasok, kinausap pa nga kame eh, tapos ayun, sabi ko after "umm, pwede po picture??" Then she just nodded but never looked at my camera.. GEEZZ!!!!!!! I used to like her pa naman. FORGIVE ME! I hate her now.. She's pretty, yeah... But the fact na alam kong celeb ka nga pero youre snob pala.. THEN GO! sana hindi mo na lang ako totally pinansin. hahah!! I am so mean.. WTF!

~PICTURES~

With John Joe Joseph

With Iyah, so pretty...

Zanjo, my new boyfriend! haha!!

Na star struck sa kin.. haha!!

TAKE IT EASY

Reality Bites... yun lang ang masasabi ko.. Yeah, lahat naman tayo yun ang sinasabi..

Bakit?

-Dahil kahit anong pilit mong makuha ang isang bagay, may mga hindi maiiwasang pangyayari na hindi mo talaga makukuha.. Gets nyo?

-Dahil sa tuwing may gusto kayo, hindi mapa sa inyo..

-Dahil lagi na lang tayong nasasaktan dahil sa mga bagay na katangahan lang..

-Dahil hindi natin matanggap ang katotohanan....

Kaya eto, nagpapaka senti na lang lage.. Hay. Medyo tanga lang siguro ako..

Ah! Baka sabihin masyado lang kasi akong nagmamadali.. Hindi kaya! .... Kala niyo lang yun..

Ayoko pa rin naman ng commitment mga peepz... Ang sa kin lang, masyado lang akong nagmahal.. Alam naman ng lahat yun eh. Kaso di ko lang talaga ma control ang sarili ko .. Kaya eto, sakit.. hehehe.. Pero ayus lang.. Basta stay tropa naman kame eh.. Diba?? Yung friendship lang naman ang habol ko eh.... sa ngayon.. at sa darating na mga araw pa..

Nagpapaka busy na lang ako sa OJT ko para walang hassle.. heheh.. Pero wala pa rin naman kasing masyadong ginagawa eh.. Kaya ayun.. Mamaya may shoot daw kame.. Goodluck sa kin.. dito ako matutulog. Di ko pa alam kung sino mga kasama ko.. May dalawang dumating dito pero di ko sila kilala...

Isang Segment Producer ng Its A Guy Thing at yung isa eh sa La Salle din nag aaral.. Hmmm.. Mukhang suplada eh. Pero wa pake.. Maganda ako.. hahaha!!!

Eto na si Mike, nasa MRT na.. tunog ng tunog ang cellphone ko... ayoko na magreply.. nakakawala ng gana mag post pag ganun eh. hehehe.. sensya na friend.. Bilisan mo na! Para yosi bonding na tayo. heheh.. Kasi naman bakla ayaw mo pa mag overnight dito eh. Tsk..

Balik tayo sa aking kwento ng buhay..

Hay.. Lapit na ako maka graduate. Nampucha, di ko alam kung pano na naman ako magttrabaho.. Parang pag naiisip ko yung mga training namen sa previous work ko, ayoko na! Tsk.. nakakatamad.. Plus, very tiring.. heheh..

Do you like my blog, guys!

Hahah!! THANKS GEORGE SA "complement" mo.. hehe.. TEACHER ka dyan. heheh.. ^_^

Till here! I love MIGGY!!!!!Woohooo!!!!

~out~

Its a Guy Thing

I had my first OJT schedule for Ideal Minds Corporations last Monday and its not that tiring.. Actually, we had nothing to do but to sit and watch TV in the office.. hehehe.. Pero we saw Ketchup, Borgie Manotoc and John Joe.. I didnt see Bubbles eh.. Ayun..

I met Rb, Tony was also there, si Lory and Jhay.. They are all Comm students.. good thing eh puro taga la salle dasma kame.. we often see each other sa corridor.. heheh.. ayun..

Anyways, for my second day, eto medyo haggard sa paghithit ng yosi.. heheh.. may nagawa na rin ako for the first time!!!! aaaahhhh!!!! inutusan ako makipag coordinate sa mga schools for schedules sa mga interviews for MTV Homecoming.. ayun...

i miss you

I am missing this guy so much right now... Whenever I see our pictures on my phone, for sure, a tear will fall.. I really miss this guy so much that I wanted to hug him so tight when I'll see him again.. Ugh!!!!!

I know that you are not into commiting for a relationship right now.. Yeah, me too... But for now, I just hope that nothing will change.. Nothing will fade....

I still love you and I will always do..

~out~

wahahahaha....

seeing myself alone

I'm here alone sa ICT shop.. wala lang.. Pyar just went home na. He left me na. heheh.. ayus lang.. Nagkasama naman kame ng mejo matagal kaya ayus lang. Ayun.. mmm..... Naisip ko, 21 na ko.. Single and happy.. Yup, I'm happy.. contented.. pero parang may kulang yung kasiyahan na yun.. Pero naisip ko rin na okay pa rin maging single. Bakit? Kasi like kagabi, I went out with Tonie, no one cares, no one dares to get mad or anything that I'll get worried na may magagalit sa kin dahil I went out with a guy. Si Pyar, tinanong lang kung sino kasama ko pero wala lang yun, he just asked me about it. Nothing more..

Naisip ko kagabi, I'm a bit confused. I don't know why. I am in love with a guy (you know who he is) ... Pero a bit confused .. Ewan ko ba kung bakit pa ko kelangan ma confuse eh alam ko naman kung hanggang san lang kame.. Hay! Pero ayun... sabi naman niya, masaya naman siya nang ganito kame... which ako rin, masaya.. Pero syempre, hindi mo pa rin maiiwasan na magtanim ng onting tampo, diba?? Kasi parang naka hang ang relationship namen. Pero I'm not saying that I want to be his girlfriend or what... Siyempre, hindi mo pa rin maiiwas sa kin na umasa.. which napaka mali nun..

Seeing myself alone..... no one loves me.... no one wants to be with me.. alam mo yung feeling nang ganon?? na parang ma fe feel mo na parang napaka panget ko ba?? para walang magkagusto??... ayun.. ganun ang nafe feel ko talaga minsan eh.. wala lang... ganito na talaga ako.. hehehe....

Right now, I'm alone here nga.. waiting for nobody... wala lang.. enjoy ko lang tong mag isa na nag co computer.. Listening to BURIED A LIE- Senses Fail... I am missing now my Pyar.. hay!

Umm... na miss ko si Joey... hehehe.. wala lang. ummm... sana nga na miss mo nga ako! HMP! Kagigil! hehehe..... miss ko na rin si Nay! waaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love you Nay!!!!!!

mwah! I love you Pyar!!!!

~out~

Time to move on

Dito ko sa office... just filed my immediate resignation.. hehehe... tigas ko nga kasi andito pa ko sa office eh wala naman akong pasok, off ko kasi eh.. hehehe.... umm.,. im just waiting for Tonie- my former soon to be boyfriend dapat way back 4 years ago. hehehe.. ayun.. kaso mamaya pa ata sya. pero hatid naman daw nya ko kaya ayus lang..

Time to move on dahil eto, tapos na ang madalas kong sabihin sa Pyar ko.. na naffrustrate na ko sa trabaho ko.. MOving on .. eheh.. matatapos na rin ang paghihirap ko sa kakaisip ko sa mga metrics ko.. nakakapagod din noh.. eh ayun..

masaya na rin ako dahil OJT na ko....

ITS A GUY THING

Please watch for it guys every Friday at Studio 23 - 9 pm. ^_^

Joey, sa Ideal Minds ako mag OOJT .. ayan na, sinagot ko na tanong mo kung saan ako mag OJT ah.. Hindi pa kasi sure yun eh kaya di ko pa masagot.. eto,surprise! sa IMC nga ako.. kala ko sa Homecoming ako. sayang nga eh.. pero ayus lang! ^_^ si John Joe ang kasama namin.. hay!

Oh sige! Till here! ^_^

~out~

Damn so tired of my life right now.

I have learned my lessons.. Never ever do anything that will make you more suffer.. Dealing with people whom cannot appreciate your efforts for them. Its so unfair that even if you wanted to help them, I just can't. Why do I have to suffer!?! I want to resign now. Its making me feel worst!

DAMN SO IN LOVE...

Krrr...... Hmm..... I just talked to Pyar sa phone when I got home.. Yep, I only had 4 hours sleep but its fine with me. Siyempre, I got time to talk to my Pyar.. He made me feel happy naman kanina.. Ayun.. I was texting this other guy, whom I have loved before.. Well, yes, he's my ex bf.. Ayun, we had an argument about my past.. That has to be erased! Pero he still brought it up just because of my damn question! Hay.. Why do these things have to happen?? Siguro God still have better plans for me.. I went out on a relationship that did not work and I have my Pyar right now whom really makes feel special.. And I am satisfied..

I'm happy he came into my life.. I love him so much.. Not to mention the things we have shared.. He's my man.. well, sort of.. dahil hindi pa kame.. hopefully in the future. We still have to know more about each other. We have a lot of things in common, but still, may mga difference pa rin. But the more I spend my time, my day with him really brings my life brighter wanting to spend my entire life with this guy.. hehehe.. drama..

He's now my reason for living.. One of my streghts.. It just happened na we both had a bad relationship before kaya parang we still have to move on with that. Kaya eto, still waiting for the right time. Pero I'm still not sure about it.. Dahil marami siyang makikilala for sure that is greater than me. Haha, great ba ko?? ^_^

I love you..
I have a lot of reasons why..
The way you dress,
They way you smile,
The way you stare....
Everything about you!

Reality bites...
I have to face the truth..
Nothing else can compare the great love youve had with her, I know that.
But I know, someday, somehow, I can give you the very best that I have.

Thanks for being there for me. I am so in love! With you..
My life will never be like this if you're not here. I would just like to thank you for accepting me for who I am, and who I was.. Love you! mwah!

Salamat din kasi andyan ka to support me.. mwah!

~out~

Blooming!!!!

heheh.. Eto ang sabi ng mga kasama ko sa work.. mmmm... I just told them .. "wala eh.. in love".. Hehehe.. Ewan ko ba.. Iba talaga nagagawa ng Ponds.. heheh.. Nag endorse daw ba..

Umm... Ano ba masasabi ko..

Yun! Medyo nagkaron ng gap again sa bahay.. I was about to cry when that happened. Ewan ko if i should tell it here pero sawang sawa na talaga ako.. Gusto ko na umalis dito.. Dito sa bahay, sa trabaho.. Everywhere na makikita ko ang tatay ko.. I don't really hate him.. Pero he's one of my "fear" na parang everytime na may nagagawa ako, lalo pa niyang pinapalaki.. lalo pa niya ko dino down.. kaya eto, ganto na ko lumaki.. Kaya masanay na kayo na ganto ang ugali ko na masyado kong negative sa sarili ko kung mag isip..Hay! Sabi ko nga, si Pyar lang ang nakakapag palakas ngayon sa kin.. Hay!

Yeah.. I am in love! heheh... Is this love, is this love, is this love, is this love that I'm feeling!!! hehehe...... Eto yung kanta ko sa kanya nung Summer Class pa.. hehehe.. I heard this song sa shop when I was thinking of him.. Eto yung song na na-i play dun.. mmmmmm.. I was with Gela then... Hay! Miss ko na rin yung bruha na yun!

Speaking of friendship.. Hay, miss ko na rin ang besftriend ko! Maggie!!!! waaaa!!!!!! hindi na natin na icontinue yung November Routine natin na manood nang Scary shows!!! I hate it!!! mmmm..... Pero ayus lang.. Bawi na lang tayo some other time.. hehehe..

You can say that I am addicted to love with Pyar right now....

I am so happy being with this guy. Although just spent the whole friendship for like 6 months.. But knowing that I have him.. I have a friend like him beside me will never gonna make me ask for more !

I love you Pyar! mwah!

I was with Joey here.. Having our first picture for the day! heheh.. He picked me up at work.. And to tell you the truth, it's so kilig on my side! My gawd! hehehe...

Things bothered us alot...

Yeah, I like him...

I love him...

Not knowing what is the status of our relationship for now.

Well, yeah.. I still don't want to have a commitment.

Just like what he's telling me always.

I still want to enjoy my 4 months being Single! ^_^

hay.. bakit ba ganito?? I am so happy whenever I see him, whenever I 'm hugging him... whenever I'm kissing him.. Hay! He's now my REASON to survive! hahah!! I know.. I have said this before to my ex that he's my strenght.. everything.. ow mah gawd! that was before..

and now, this is my present love story.. and I hope that it would be my forever love story.. I wish this will never end.

Hay! I was so happy talaga nung thursday! hahah... kakakilig! kahit sobrang hindi na ko nakatulog that day, dahil I was with him, ayun, okay lang.. mmm..... Tapos ayun, nainggit ata yun lalake na yun, gusto rin magka shirt ng BJ shirt.. ayun, eh dalawa yung ganun ko, binigay ko yung isa.. yung akin talaga.. mmmm.... tapos tumawad pa! gusto may pabango pa yung shirt! heheh.. astig! uuuuyy! gusto niya ko lagi maamoy! heheh...

pyar! may bago na kong amoy! mmm... sana magustuhan mo!^_^ heheh..

I miss you po! I love you Pyar!

~out~

Just got done with my shift.. hay. dito pa rin ako sa room.. wala lang.. maya pa ko uwi sa dasma.. kasi baka masyado ko mapa aga... ayun..

Nagtext nga pala si Mark sa kin.. wala lang. Basta.. hindi ko na alam kung pano pa dapat magreact sa mga nangyayari sa buhay namen.. pero I think the best way for us is to stay as friends... kelangan ko pa mag move on.. kelangan rin niyang magpahinga sa mga pananakit na nagawa ko sa kanya... hay! eto kelangan kong pasayahin ang sarili ko para lang hindi ko maisip na nag iisa ako..

i didnt know that I was hurting you....
kala ko masaya na ang lahat dahil wala ng giyera sa mundo natin.....
ang sa kin lang, hindi naman sa umiiwas.. kailangan ko lang ng panahon para makapag isip isip.
hindi kita iniwan dahil sa hindi na talaga kita mahal..
at hindi ako ang mismong nangiwan, diba?
sumunod lang ako sa gusto mo.. pero iba ang inisip mo, inaway mo pa ko.. inisip mo na pinagpalit kita. eh ikaw? hindi mo ba naisip na PURO SARILI MO LANG INIISIP MO nang iwan mo ko? diba? pero ayus lang.. at least pareho na tayong malaya..

lahat nang tao natutuwa dahil pareho nila tayong nakikitang masaya.. pero kala lang nila yun. may mga panahon na naiisip din naman kita eh.. kaso pinipigilan ko yung feelings ko dahil ayoko muna dahil baka masaktan na naman kita. At ayoko na naman mangyari yun dahil baka mag away na naman tayo.. sana naiintindihan mo ko.. sana alam mo mga pinagsasabi ko.. salamat sa lahat ah.

alam mo naman na hindi pa rin naman kita kayang kalimutan eh.. weve been together for almost 2 years. mahirap kalimutan yun.. lalo na kung madaming nangyari. kaya ngayon, para pareho natin malimutan ang past, please understand na kelangan kong gawin to.. naiintindihan mo naman ako, diba?

alam mo naman na hindi maaalis yung nandito eh.. alam mo yun.. pero hindi lahat ng bagay eh kailangang naka stick sa isat isa... kung hindi talaga magkasundo kahit onting bagay lang, dapat lang na maghiwalay na diba? pero hindi ko sinasabi na forever magkakalimutan na.. hindi naman ako ganun eh. I still make it a point na parte pa rin ng buhay ko yung past ko. naging masaya man o malungkot..

it does not mean that when I say I HAVE MOVED ON, taken for granted ka na.. hindi yun.. ikaw pa... sa masasaya na nangyari sa labas ng Mama Maria Dorm ko.. yung habbulan every night hanggang madaling araw. Yung maghihintay tayo ng 12 am sa labas ng dorm pag monthsary natin.. yung pag alaga mo sa kin pag may sakit ako.. lalo na nung may bulutong ako.. tska yung pag tyaga mo sa kin at sa kalat ko nung nalasing ako at sobrang suka ko... you know what, naging maswerte ako dahil naging part ka nang buhay ko..

sino ba naman ang hindi sasaya sa pagkakaroon ng bf na tulad mo na kahit pagalitan na sa bahay ng mga magulang, nandyan pa rin sa tabi ko, nagpupuyat sa editing house para sa project ko.. Nagttyaga sa mga kagagahan ko.. hay..

teka.. tama na muna ang kadramahan.. nagaalburuto na si Jyx... hehehe... mya na lang..

~out~

hi there people.. I am having my break now.. last break actually. Listening to Ghost OF You.. So cold in here! S***.. Hay. I was able to chat with Pyar kanina. Then kay kuya Lance din but I think he was doing something kanina.. away from computer daw eh.. mmm. what were you doing KUYA???... :D

Then si Pyar, he was disconnected. Thats so weird that after I texted him that he's still on line (status), it changed suddenly.. Naging Off line.. mmmmmm.....

(Stars- Callalilly) I am listening to this right now.

Today is Sunday na!!!! waaa!!!!! Sobrang bilis ng araw. Hay.. Ano kaya gagawin ko sa off ko?? mmmm... Gusto ko bumili ng stuff ko kaso I have to keep my money.. I just gave my mother P600.00 to buy sack of rice and I also have to give another 600bucks for my phone bill. Gawd! Im so stress sa work.. what more if I am thinking with all of these payments I have to pay! Shoot!!!!! (&&*%$%$ #&)

Nga pala, I almost forgot to tell you guys that I saw my ex bf. He's Joy. Of course he's a HE... He was my boyfriend when I was a bit immature.. hahaha!! that's right! I was only 3rd year high back then.. He was his girlfriend when I saw them going in the van at the terminal. Sakto pa naman that the van they will ride eh same van ko din! Kunwari I was not aware that they were there.. I was just texting Pyar and Maggie when I got in the van.. Tapos konting paeklat na "Oi, ano ginagawa mo dito?" Then he answered "Oi, san ka nagtatrabaho?".. Then I answered it.. Then pinakilala niya ko sa GF niya.. Her name is Rica. .. DONT CARE.. HAHA.. Kidz...

Then ayun, nanlalambot ako that I felt I was melting. Wala lang.. Though they werent doing anything from me pero the fact that you saw your ex with his new one! I do know that you will also feel what I felt, right? Though I dont love anymore... You can still feel that numb feeling running through your veins right? Especially when you see them both happy..

Pero not to mention how happy they were that they didnt care about us inside the van, like they were the only people inside! They were hugging and kssing and..... talking.. hahaha!!! Pero its irritating my ears!!! They talk so loud that I was having the like to kick her big mouth.. hahah.. I am so mean.. what the!

Then ayun, I was texting Maggie.. yah, were sisters talaga.. Kadiri daw sabi niya.. hahah!!!
Then I heard the girl that he was inviting Joy to spend the whole night in their house. Woah! Lakas ah! hahah..... Well, since its been 6 years since we broke up, of course he had meet a lotta gurls, right? He encountered diff. gurls..... And I can say that he had changed.. OH SO CHANGED!

When we were still together, well, I can see to him that he was so conservative.. Never ever said any bad words, too. But from what Ive heard kanina sa usapan nila and the way they treat each other.. Its like........... EEEUUUUUUUUUWWWWWWWWWWWW............ Hahaha!!!!!!!!!!

2 minutes more....

Anyway, change topic...

I miss myself... hahah!! the young LEN..... mmmmmm........ But I never changed naman eh.. ako pa rin si Sweet, baby, bunso LENNY...... heheheh.

1 minute left...

Miss you pyar!

Kuya Lance! Thanks for chatting.. kahit papano.. hehehe.. Miss you so much kuya! When I have a chance to go there, I will search for you!! haha.. makikitira ako! just kidding.. :D

mwah!

~out~

Dito ko sa ICT ngayon.. ayon.. magkatext kame ni pyar ngayon.. nasa labas siya ngayon.. haay..... mmmm.... andito sa may likod ko ang napaka "loving" ex bf ko.. naglalaro ng Flyff...

hay.. la lang. gusto ko magkuwento ng tungkol sa bday ko..

medyo okay lang yung mismong day ng araw ko. medyo badtrip kasi nag away kame ni christian.. pero naging okay na rin naman dahil kinausap kame and okay na nga... ayon.. tapos okay din kasi maganda ang CSAT ko.. naka 100 ako!!! :) after ng napaka tagal kong walang survey, naka 100 na rin ako sa wakas!! wahahaha!!!!

Wednesday, kahapon, ayun, sinundo ako ni Pyar sa IBM.. :) ang saya ko nga eh. :) hehehe.. tapos ayun. ang cute cute mo talaga!!! hehehe.. ang bango pa! i wore the one that he likes me to wear.. oh diba para maging crush na rin niya ko. hehehe.. tapos ayun nung nakadating na kame sa bahay eh tamang kwentuhan lang. hintay ng pagkain.. tapos kain na rin.. pareho kameng inaantok pa.. pero ayun, nakayanan pa rin namen. tamang kwentuhan.. asaran.. heheh.. tukso niya ko ng JOPAY dahil napakalaki ng hita ko. ah wawa.. :( ayun.. mag da diet na talaga ako...

haaaaaayyyy...... kiss niya ko!! heheheh.. pero sa cheek lang.. :) heheheh.. dami tao sa bahay eh, di pede.. :) heheheh....

he gave me a present!!!! CD ng taking back sunday! sweet... pati si Pedro binigyan din ako.. aaaah, you guys are so sweet!!! :) love you all!!! :)

sobrang antok ko at pagkauwi ni Pyar, tulog ako sa room... ayun.. mayamaya ang dami ng tao sa bahay.. etong bestfriend ko, ginulo ako bigla sa room!! kinikiliti ako sobra!!!! haaay.. ayun pagka kain nilang lahat, bili na kame sa 7 11 ng Matador (requested by my sis) .. ayun, 2 ang binili namen.. tapos si Oto, bumili ng kanya , 2 san mig.

grabe! nahilo ako sobra at nalasing!! haaaaaaayyy.... ayun... pagkauwi nilang lahat eh nakatulog na ko sa sala.. ang aga ko nga nagising eh! 6:30.. haaay!!! sakit sa ulo.. at wala na ko matandaan kung ano na ang nangyari kagabi pagkatapos ng inuman. o diba??... ganun pala talaga feeling nun noh.. ayun.. sakit pa rin ng ulo ko grabe.. nasusuka na nga ako eh..

sana dumating si pyar dito. sabi niya kasi uuwi na siya.. :( hay ang sad ko.. haaaaayyy!!!!!!!

nasusuka na talaga ako.. goodluck sa kin mya pag uwi ko. nag text na rin si ate ko eh, sabay kame uwi.. hay nako...

im still waiting for Pyar.. sana dumating pa rin siya.. :(

ang sweet naman netong nasa likod ko.. kainis!

haay.. gusto ko pa mag type dito.. wala lang tumatakbo sa utak ko.. nasakit pa sikmura ko. ang sakit din ng ulo ko. hang over.. good luck din sa kin sa trabaho ko bukas potek!!!!!

haaay.. buti nagustuhan nila nay at ninang yung dala ko na food. :) hehehe..

mukhang hindi na makakadating si pyar ah.. nahihilo na ko. nasusuka pa. hay nako!

kinig lang ako ng MAKEDAMNSURE sa youtube.. hay....

~out~

Hi there! :) bday ko na bukas! hahah!!!! ang tanda ko na.. isip bata pa rin.. hahaha.... :)

mwah!

haay.. kinakabahan ako sa chat ngayon.. kainis.. sana wala akong maging irrate member.. have to go! 8pm na! :)

hi there guys! hahah!!! malapit na bday ko! wahahah!!! ang tanda ko na! hay nako.. ang baba na naman ng Month to date ko na score badtrip! mya i a attach ko yung mga chats ko dito .. :) mwah!

kakakausap ko pa lang kay Pyar kanina.. wala lang. kulitan lang dahil sa weird na email address niya. ang kulit kasi eh, pinapabasa sa kin eh hindi ko naman talaga kayang basahin kasi nakakatuwa! hahahah... :) gagawa rin ako ng weird email address! hmp! :)

hay nako.. sana maging okay ang bday ko.. hay! miss ko na si Maggie, si Nil, si Michelle.. mga bestfriends ko.. Syempre miss ko rin si Jem at Gela... :)

hay......

o xa, gagawa pa ko ng template netong blog! :)

~out~

just get done with my computer set up... I was texting Pyar kanina but he's not replying. Kinda frustrated.. ewan.. well, mark did text me.. hay! maybe when he read this post again, he'll say na PINAGSISIKSIKAN MO NA NAMAN SARILI MO SA KANYA.. what the hell! i aint pushing myself to Joey! I hate it! Is there a law saying that you cannot tell or express your feelings to your special one??

Come on! Just tell me.. youre just jealous!

you know what, I was about to "love" you again.. but then.... you were pushing me too to Joey! Then Joey pushing me to you! THE FUCK! Why are you people like that! Do you have any problems with me? If you dont love me, just tell it to my face then I'll stop bugging you guys!

My birthday is getting nearer... Gawd! Days gone so fast!

I am too old for this kind of stuff! I want to be more mature! You know MORE .. MORE MATURE!!!!!!

Well, all I can say is...... Yah, I am still in love with Pyar..yah! right!!!! I am ......But not hoping he'll love me back. Yeah, I know..... I'tll never happen.. It'll never be... (BITTER)

Shit! One minute left..

Love yah pyar!

mwah!

~out~

you know what, I am so tired of this life! why should I get this feeling that really irritates me!?! i did nothing to all of you! why do I have to be this way?!!!!

all i know is I have loved and loving you guys in different time!! pero bakit ako nahihirapan ng ganto!

i really hate this! i hate the fact the hindi ko alam if i should feel guilty about this! pero hindi! dahil hindi ko na kayo gusto!

ayoko na ng ganto! nahihirapan na talaga ako! kung bakit pa kasi naimbento ang LOVE na yan! punyeta! nasira ang araw ko tuloy ng dahil jan! pati trabaho ko naapektuhan! kaya nga iniwan ko na yung isa dahil nung una palang, sirang sira na ang trabaho ko... ngayon naman, yunng isa na inaasahan kong makakatulong na ma inspire ako, bigla na lang naglalaho.. hindi na bigla nagpaparamdam! hindi ko alam... kailangan ko bang masaktan eh hindi ko naman alam if he feels the same?? .. nagmumukha na kong tanga! PUTANG INA!!!! bakit ba ko ganito?? ang hirap ng nararamdaman ko! bakit ako kailangan mag suffer eh wala naman akong ginagawa sa inyo kundi ang mahalin lang kayo!!!!!!!!

bwisit!

out!

Hi there!!! I just want to share my chat with you guys!!! :)


8/20/2006 1:24:29 PM
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8/20/2006 1:24:34 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] Hello, thank you for using eBay Live Chat. My name is Linda. How can I help you today?

8/20/2006 1:26:00 PM
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{CUS TEXT} Good Morning. In my current listing. down in the payment section, I listed that the auction would end at 2 pm since the concert is tonite. I would like to put that in the item description area so can people can see it. I am getting questions about the end

8/20/2006 1:26:00 PM
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of auction, so they are not reading the part where it says 2 pm.

8/20/2006 1:26:29 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] May I ask you if you have completed the listing already?

8/20/2006 1:26:40 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] May I have the item number, please?

8/20/2006 1:27:14 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} Yes, the item has been listed and there are bids on the item already.

8/20/2006 1:27:26 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} #170020225237

8/20/2006 1:27:34 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] May I ask you if you have tried to look on the item page?

8/20/2006 1:27:48 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} I am there now

8/20/2006 1:27:49 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] Thank you for providing me your item number. One moment please as I check the item for you.

8/20/2006 1:28:08 PM
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{CUS TEXT} I am on the item page now

8/20/2006 1:28:13 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] May I ask you if you have the same problems your buyers are asking you?

8/20/2006 1:29:16 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} I have received e-mails asking....the auction ends at 11 pm but the show is at 7:30......or if I can end auction early so they can know for sure they have won the ticket

8/20/2006 1:29:43 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] I have seen the item already and yes, there are still item description that you should apply. One moment please as I check for a way for you.

8/20/2006 1:30:14 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} I have it listed as ending at 2pm, but I think they aren't reading the payment instruction part where it says auction ends at 2pm

8/20/2006 1:30:37 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} thanks

8/20/2006 1:31:44 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] You are most welcome.

8/20/2006 1:31:59 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] So you want to revise your listing, is that right?

8/20/2006 1:32:18 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] I have here the link of a page where you can read information about revising your listing.

8/20/2006 1:32:29 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] Here it is:http://pages.ebay.com/help/sell/questions/revise-item.html. Please click the link to load the page.

8/20/2006 1:33:08 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} yes. no changes in the item itself, I just want to end the auction at 2 pm. I think I have rad htis link before, doesn't it only give instrcutions for making changes prior to any bids?

8/20/2006 1:33:46 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} or is there a way I can add "buy it now" optio to the listing?

8/20/2006 1:34:07 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] If you want to revise your listing and it has bids on it, you may try to contact your bidders and tell them that you will need to revise it so you have to end it and re list it again.

8/20/2006 1:34:50 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] May I know if you know already how to end a listing?

8/20/2006 1:35:39 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} Yeah, and pay more fees I guess. If the bidding gets to an amount that is ok with me, I can end the auction?

8/20/2006 1:36:11 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} Not sure on how to end an auction. I'll have to figure that out

8/20/2006 1:36:37 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] I have here the link of a page where you can read information about ending a listing. Here it is:http://pages.ebay.com/help/sell/end_early.html

8/20/2006 1:36:44 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] Please click the link to load the page.

8/20/2006 1:36:58 PM
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{CUS TEXT} ok thanks

8/20/2006 1:37:04 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] You are most welcome.

8/20/2006 1:37:15 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] Is there anything else I can help you?

8/20/2006 1:37:28 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} nope, thanks

8/20/2006 1:37:37 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] is everything okay now?

8/20/2006 1:38:43 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} if there is no way to change the description, I'll e-mail the bidders and let them know it's ending early and tell them a "buy it now" price.

8/20/2006 1:38:58 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] Yes, please.

8/20/2006 1:39:05 PM
Linda B.
{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] Is everything else I can assist you?

8/20/2006 1:39:14 PM
cfh1064
{CUS TEXT} all set, thanks

8/20/2006 1:39:24 PM
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{CSR TEXT} [Linda B.] I’m glad that I was able to help you. Thank you for your time and for using Live Chat. Feel welcome to come back to Live Chat if you have any questions or concerns. It's been a pleasure speaking with you today. Thank you for coming to eBay Live Chat, have

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Astig ba???? Hehehehe... :)
Aba, Very Satisfied ang binigay sakin ng member na yan so kelangan proud ako! hehehe.. :)

Hay.. nakakahiya.. ako na naman ang nauna! hehehe.. ayun.. mm.. katext ko si Pyar kanina.

sorry nga pala Joey ah.. masama lang ang gising ko nun.. ayun! kasi na late ako ng gising. dapat kasi mga 4:30 naliligo na ko nun eh mga 4:25 na ko bumangon. Sakit pa leeg ko. hay! tapos ayun, tinamad na ko pumasok! mmm.. pero ngayon okay na.

Did you like my new template?? hehehe.. kakatawa noh? sorry kung nilagay ko pa picture mo.. wala lang.. para astig! bagay sa template ko, black! heheheh.. mwah!

hay! sana maayos ang chat ko ulit ngayon. sana rin wala ng mag supe call! waaa!!!!

nakakatawa nga pala na nakaka flater nangyari sa kin kanina.
bale may isang guy na sumakay sa jeep, sa unahan siya sumakay, actually di dapat siya sasakay pero kakilala siya ng driver kaya pinilit siya.. ayun, tapos nakilala ko siya bigla, ka school mate ko siya sa Colegio.. ayun.. bale 1 year ahead ata ako or two. tapos ayun, napansin ko tingin ng tingin.. heheh. eh naka one side ako! hehehe.. just like what Pyar loves. heheh.. sorry siya di niya pa ko nakikita in person na as in one side na maayos.. hahahah! kapal ko.. tapos ayun, pansin ko tingin ng tingin sa kin yung batang un (bata talaga eh noh?) .... tapos nung bumaba na yung guy, tingin pa rin siya sa kin, yung lumingon na talaga. kasi nung una sa mirror lang siya nasilip.. tapos nung bumaba na siya, habol tingin pa rin eh! hehehe... okay, what's the point of this thingy.. wala lang.. share ko lang! hehehe....

may napapa tingin pa rin pala sa kin. or siguro namukhaan lang niya ko kaya niya ko tiningnan.. heheh.. ang kapal ko! tama na nga to!

ummm... nung isang araw, may nasuntok pala ko na lalake .. actually hindi naman talaga suntok, tamang dinali ko lang ng kamay ko yung ulo niya. pano kasi mag lalanding yung ulo niya sa kin eh naka ilang bagsak na siya .. pano natutulog! langya! ayun, may binulong bulong pa siya! tapos pinaringgan ko! kala ko uupakan ako pero di pala.. inabangan ko pa nga na bumaba pero di siya bumaba eh.. hehehe.. papa upakan ko pa sana sa mga tropa kong driver sa terminal papuntang Pala pala eh. heheheh...

umm.... ano pa ba sasabihin ko??... umm.. masaya sana ako mamaya! yes! makikita ko ulit si Martin! hehehe.. ano ba yan, crush na naman.. hehehe.. papa cute lang ako, kayo naman.. pagbigyan. minsan lang mangarap! di naman ako lalapit eh.. tamang pa cute lang.. kung mapapansin, eh di masaya lalo! diba? :)

although may love talaga ako.. eh di ko naman alam kung matutuloy yun kasi may crush din siyang iba. malay ko rin kung crush din niya ko noh! ... mahirap umasa eh. pero di pa rin ako mag hahanap ng iba.. i mean siya pa rin ang love ko... iba eh crush na lang yun! heheheh... maghihintay pa rin.. mmm.. kung may dapat bang ipaghintay eh diba??why not.. mmm... sana di maaksaya ang panahon ko nun.. mmmm. pero masaya din naman ako ng single kasi yung mahal ko, pinapakita niya rin naman na special ako.. mmmm....

miss you po Pyar! ingat ka lagi ah! mwah! mmmm.... miss ko na kayo ni Nay at ni ninang.. hay!

mmmm...

o siya, ang haba ng neto! tama na.. :) mwah!

~out~

I am now on my 3rd break.. I am still waiting till it end.. Hay.. kaka antok. I really need to get some sleep..

Medyo okay na ang chat ko.. Medyo yung iba hindi pa rin na satisfied. dahil wala na talaga ako magagawa eh.. Yung binigay kong solution eh ayun lang talaga. sana maging maayos pa rin ang csat ko.. hay!

mmm.. Miss ko na si Joey..mmmm... Naka amoy ako ng katulad ng pabango niya. lalo ko lang siya na miss.hay!

Joey!

mmmm....

la lang..

:)

miss lang kita.. :(

hay....

sana makita na kita.. mmm.....

mwah!

sana matapos mo na ang thesis mo para okay na ang time mo. kaso sa second sem, patayan na yan lalo sa pag gawa niyan.. hay! good luck po ah. mwah! Basta lagi mo tandaan, dito lang ako to support you..

mwah!

~out~

hi there. wala lang.. okay ba ang bago kong template?? hehehe.. mmm.. katext ko si Joey ngayon. wala lang. hintay ko lang matapos break ko.. mwah!

miss ko na ikaw Joey! mmm... wala kayo pasok sa monday.. sana mmm..... wala .. ayoko na mag request.. napapahiya lang ako.. heheh..

mmm...... buti pa si nay, naka puerto na agad. mmm... sana magka time din ako. miss ko na si Nay at ninang.. mmmm...

mwah! malapit na matapos break ko.

bye guys!

~out~

mmm... i dont want to start wsaying Hi anymore..halos lahat dito puro Hi na nasabi ko sa simula..hehehe.. eto tapos na gawain naminsa trabaho.. ang lamig! POTEK! antok na antok na ko.. mmmm.. eto para hindi sumama ang pakiramdam ko, tumitingin na lang ako sa picture namin ni Pyar.. as if meron eh noh??....heheheh....

ang lamig talaga! waaaa!!!!!! grabe, first time ko magka supe call, twice pa! ang lupit!

haay..... eto na, lapit na ko magwala sa sobrang lamig.. tapusin ko lang to.. cr ako, retouched and then GO GO na! :)

ei, I have seen the latest issue of FHM! Nay! You've got to see it! hehehe.. nice!!!! though Pops looks like a gay there.. well I do not care about her.. its the articles that matters.. :)

see yah guys! eto na Lead ccs namin! :) yaya na ko uwi..hehehe.....

~out~

Hi people.. Im having my last break now.. mmmm... just saw my pyar's tag today. heheh.. wow! astig ba??hehehe.. mmm. gabi ka na naman nakauwi. mmm... kaw talaga. pano yun, wala ka namang enough sleep niyan. hay. Sana hindi ka na naman ma late later..haay! mmmm...
Just have one irrate member for today. and i am so damn tired.. grabe! ang sakit na ng braso ko! na late pa ko kanina! grabe yun! minumura ko na yungn driver! eh ikaw ba naman, sira pala preno ng sasakyan niya, ibibyahe pa niya! kainis! pati mga pasahero niya,m agrabyado na! bwict talaga! mmmm... ayun! sabi ko sa kanya pag baba ko: "kuya, pwede ba kita sapakin?".. sa sobrang inis ko talaga yun! hay.. buti na lang,anjan si pyar para ma inspired ako.. :) mwah! ayun, tanggap ko na late na nga ako.. .... .... wala na naman magagawa eh. hay!
9 minutes left na lang. mmmmm......
miss you pyar! mwah!
~out~

Hi po .. mmm. kakatapos ko lang mag chat .. ayun.. this is our 2nd day here sa floor production.. mmmmm... tapos na business ko here so may time na ko for this shit. hehehe.. mmmm...

I'll be going to La Salle Dasma to see our Chair dept. ayun.. I just have some questions about my OJT next sem. And also, to see my pyar, my nay Dianne, my Ninang Joyce and some of my friends. I really miss nay so much!! uuuugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I always mention nay to my friends here. heheh.. miss ko na ikaw! mwah!

mmmm.... Please pray for my safety later.. I'll take a bus ride again going to Dasma.. mmmm... Hope I will not get sleepy. kinda dizzy na rin eh.. haaay.....

mmm.. ano pa ba masasabi ko. ah ayun! nagkita na kame ni Eyah dito sa floor. heheheh. magkasabay kame sa mga breaks.. yun nga lang, iba yung shift niya so ayun, mauuna akong umuwi sa kanya.. mmmm.. mwah! to leah!

Oh siya pano na po.. till here na.. naka 51 chats ako ngayon.. I thought its enough na! yun pala dito sa floor, we have to get 75 chats na! fuck! waaa!!!!!!!!!! dami pa!!!!!!!! ngayon lang ako naka abot ng 51.. grabe pa laki ng hahabulin ko! mmmmm....wawa........

ang tagal pa mag 6am.. ang tagal pa gumising ni Joey.. haay... mmmmm....

Right now, I am staring at Pyar's picture.. Actually, it was me who is on the picture.. mmmm... Pinicturean ko sarili ko sa tabi ng monitor na nakalagay dun ang picture ni Joey.. heheheh.. adik.. ayun yung sinasabi ko sayo pyar na hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ka o matatawa! hehehe....adik na ko....

mmmm... so pano na! alis na ko! mwah! to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love you pyar! Im so proud na nanalo kayo! wow! mwah!

~out~

Hi to you guys.. eto.. ang lakas trip ko.. just done with my chat. mmm... hiniram ko yung phone ni Christian at nagpicture picture ako..and guess what kung sino kasama ko sa picture! Si pyar! hehehe.. hulaan niyo na lang kung paano nangyari yun! Ang ganda pa nga ng mga kuha namin eh.. heheh.. bahala na ikaw Joey kung pano yun! heheheh...
mmm.... Wala lang.. hinihintay ko lang si Czar at Christian na matapos kaya eto, blog muna ako.. mmmm.. habang ginagawa ko to, eto, nagpapatugtog ako ng A Promise. :) mmm.... miss ko na si pyar! mwah! love you!
mmm... totoo po pyar, sobrang iyak ko last night.. mmmm... miss you na po! mwah! hindi ko na uulitin yung kakulitan na yun! ayoko po na magalit ka at baka iwan mo pa ko.. ah! wawa ako.. mmmmm.....
magkikita na tayo sa Wed! yes! heheh.. mmmm.. mwah! hug kita sobra at kiss madami! mwah!
Ayan, tapos na si Christian.. Si Czar na lang.. mmmmm.... ayus lang po maghintay, nakakapag net naman ako eh.. heheheh.. Mwah! miss you po pyar! mwah!
mmmm.......... kita ko picture mo sa friendster.. wala lang. pag nahihirapan ako sa chat ko, tinitingnan ko po ang picture mo.. mmmmm.. miss na kita! mwah! love you po! sobra! mwah!
mm.... miss ko na rin si nay at ninang.. hay..
see you po sa Wednesday. nahihirapan nako mag type.. pagod na po ang kamay ko.. mwah!
sige po! sana po makapag text ka agad when you wake up! ingat po! happy monday morning! mwah!
~out~

Hi guys.. kakatapos ko lang sa chat.. ayun.. kakapagod. eto na ang last day namin sa Nesting so hindi na kame "trainee"... yaahoooO!!!!!!!! Tomorrow, may pasok ako 8pm -5am.. pakshet! kainis! well, wednesday and thursday naman ang free day ko so makakapunta ako sa school if I want.. yahoo!!!!!

Ayun.. nag aalisan na mga tao dito.. mmmm.. hay!

Miss you pyar! grabe. ang yabang na naman nung Rj na yun. kainis. puro siya na lang mga sinasabi niya. ewan ba dun! heheh.. Sabi ko nga kay nanay, ayoko na nang maingay. Mga tipo lang ni Pyar gusto ko.. heheh.. "pihikan" daw oh! heheh.. mm.. wala lang.. I find it very fine kung ang kasama ko eh suplado, tahimik... mmmmmm..... wala lang.. mas gusto ko yun eh.. :)

kasi pag suplado kasama ko, hindi siya papansinin at di siya titingin sa ibang gurls.. Is that right? :)

mmm... Miss you guys!

Miss you Pyar! Miss you ninang! Miss you Nay! mwah!

Love you so much Pyarko!

Ingat po lagi ha..

~out~

hay.. dito ko sa ICT.. hahah.. katabi ko si pyar.. mmm.. wala lang.. tinamad na ko maglaro ng counter eh.. ang korny ko kasi.. di na ko marunong.. mm.. kahiya.. hehehe.. ang suplado ni Pyar.. mmmp!!!!

kainis nga pala kasi pinuntahan ko ang department, walang tao. si Mr. Umali lng! bwct kaya yun!heheh.. joke lang. I just dont like him! wala lang.. mmmm.....

tapos nagpunta na ko sa admin. ayun, wala ring tao.. mm..... wala na ko magagawa this day kundi ang UMINOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahahahah!!!!!!!!!!

sa ibm nga din eh, nagyaya sila na uminom, kaso di na ko nagpunta kasi pupuntahan ko nga si Pyar.. mmm.. wala lang.. miss ko na siya! hmpppppp!!!!!!!!!!!kahit katabi ko lang siya ngayon.. mmmmm. kahiya nga ako eh. di pa ko naliligo.. siya ang bango bango.. mmmmmm.

hay! suplado ni Pyar oh! nakatutok lang sa pc.. mmmmm..... sarap kiss!mmmmmmmmmm......

mwah!

haay.. sana makita ko na si nay! mm... miss ko na si nay! .....

ngayon, ang plano ko, ang maligo!!!!!!!! waaaaaaaaa!!!!!Yosi na lang tayo pyar! mwah!

love you pyar!

~out~

Hi guys! heheheh.. ako pa lang dito sa office.. ayon.. mmm. kahapon, sinundo ako ni Pyar dito sa office.. ayon , na late ako nang uwi.. pero ayos lang.. kasama ko naman siya eh. 3 hours lang ang tulog ko pero ayos lang... ang sarap ng feeling na pag gising ko, makikita ko agad yung mahal ko.. :) mwah! love you pyar! mwahmwah! ayon.. mmmm....

ang tagal nila.. san kaya silang lahat.. mmmm....

miss youpyar! yehey! magkikita na tayo nila Nay Dianne sa Saturday!! yehey! inuman blues na to! go go go! heheheh.. ang kulit ko..

mmm.. ano pa ba.. mmmm. sana maayos ang csat ko ngayon (customer satisfaction) ... mmmmm.....


sige! goota go!

miss ou pyar!

main tumse pyar karti hun Joey!

~ouT~

Hi guys.. HI pyar! mwah! Love you!

Main tumse pyar karti hun!

I just finished my chat today. ... mmm.. siguro tulog ka pa Pyar.. mmm.... Sana nakapag review ka kasi madaling araw ka na nagpa alam na matutulog ka na. Nako.. Kelangan perfect mo yan! hmp..

Hay.. sobrang depressed ako kanina kasi akala ko wala na ko pag asa na makapag chat nang ayos. Hay. Pero biglang may naka chat ako na na solve ko naman ang problem niya. actually on the process pa lang. Heheheh... mmmm.... Pero at least hindi na ko ang tanong sa mga nag a assist dito. Heheheh.. mmmm...

Pyar! Gising! waaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sana maaga akong maka recieve ng text from you. Para naman before ako matulog today, maganda po tulog ko. Mwah!

Main tumse pyar karti hun!

Sana po magkita na tayo.. mmmm... I miss you so much! Mwah!

Hay.. Goodluck na lang sa amin ni Christian sa van.. waaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grabe, 30 minutes lang ako nakatulog sa byahe. heheheh.. mmm...

Miss ko na ikaw Pyar!

um... do I have to say who is Pyar??... and what does Pyar means?

mmmmmmmm....................

Pyar is a Hindu term for LOVE......

LOVE means PYAR......................

and LOVE for me is JOEY!

LOVE YOU JOEY!

~out~

hey guys! wow! shit naman oh! pang night shift na ko pakshet! hahaha!!!!

traffic grabe! .. miss ko na si pyar..... aaaaahhhh... mmmmmm....... wala lang...

katext ko siya.. pati si mark.. weheh.. he stold me he lost weight daw.. wow! buti pa siya. hope I could do that too! mmm....

sana magkita na tayo pyar!

main tumse pyar karti hun! mwah!

mwah!

~out~

masaya na malungkot ang araw ko ngayon.. kasi this will going to be our last day with Sachin. But that's fine.. We will still see him naman dito sa IBM eh.. mm.. sobrang thankful ako kasi siya ang naging trainer namen. Sobrang bait talaga.. as in.. wala lang.. maswerte lang talaga siguro kame. Like Nadj before, mabait din.. haaay..
I have something to say nga pala... Im so happy kasi I was with Pyar the other day. wala lang.. galing siyang Taft eh.. Sobrang lakas ng ulan nun, na suspend ang class sa La Salle Taft.. Ayun, dumaan siya sa IBM..hinintay niya ko hanggang 4pm. and then ayun, pinakilala ko siya sa mga officemates ko. And they seemed to be happy for me. Ako rin happy! :)
Salamat sa kanya, may nakasama ako pag uwi dahil sobrang lakas ng ulan na parang hindi ko kakayanin kung ako lang magisa. hay! thank you so much Pyar!
Kahapon nga pala,Mark and I were texting.. wala lang. about sa buhay buhay.. nakatulugan ko na nga siya eh. Kasi natagalan kame sa byahe sa van dahil nahuli kame.. ayun..
Well, okay naman kame.. ayoko lang muna maging seryoso ang usap namen. haay..
Lam mo pyar, mali ka sa iniisip mo.. Hindi na.. diba sinabi ko na sayo na hindi na? kung ikaw kay Jewel, love mo pa pero hindi na tulad ng dati, ako naman, wala lang.. basta! wala na ata.. love na lang as a friend na lang yun... like what youre saying to me always!
Im so happy Pyar! dhanyavaad Pyar!
main tumse pyar karti hun!!!!!
~out~

haay... kagabi, I texted Mark just to say that I'm still here for him. Pero ayun, nagalit.. nagmumura.. kahit wala naman ako ginagawa sa kanya.. yah i know Ive done so many bad things to him. Pero hindi na naman naulit yun diba? dahil ayoko na magalit siya. Pero hanggang ngayon, sinisisi pa rin niya ko. haay.. puro nga ako smiley eh para hindi ako maapektuhan.. Para hindi niya masabi na sad pa rin ako. To tell you the truth, naapektuhan ako nung sinabiniya nung the day we broke up, 2 days na siyang hindi nakakakain.. dahil he was earning money para makapunta sa bahay.. Pero naisip ko, ano yun, pangkonsensiya??.... pero nainis ako.. naguilty.. di ko na alam gagawin ko.. Parang apektado ko sa problema niya.. I cant figure it as pittying him.. Ewan ko.. Nahihirapan ako...

Nag request siya kagabi na wag muna ko matulog.. Well, I did naman eh.. Kahit sobrang hirap na ko sa pagtetext.. Hay. Ako na nga napagalitan ni nanay dahil puyat na ko, namura pa ko ni Mark dahil tinutulugan ko na lang daw siya.. kesyo tangnang trabaho ko daw na to.. Ewan ko.. di niya maintindihan na I'm doing for us.. well that was before... Hindi na ko umaasa pa na magiging maayos kame.. Well, at least I tried to be nice pa rin naman diba?

Sabi ko nga kay Pyar, hindi ako nagpa apekto dahil maiinis lang ako.. haay... mmmm.... mamumulubi na naman ako sa trabaho neto.. Lagi na lang ako malungkot nung mga panahon na lagi kameng nag aaway.. haay... nakakainis. Hay!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sa ngayon, masaya pa rin ako kahit papano.. Kasi there's so much to see in this world.. Pero di naman ako nagsisisi dahil naging kame or dahil nag break kame.. Life must go on.. And so I should move on.. Right??.... heheheh....

Madame pa dapat i explore... Madame pang makikita na tao.. Hindi lang ako, hindi lang siya..

haay... nagiging madrama ako ah..

Ayoko lang masabi na ndi pa ko nakaka move on.. Baka sabihan pa ko na naghahabol pa rin ako.. FYI, hindi na ko umaasa na magiging kame pa ulit. Dahil as of now, I'm busy with my work.. Di ko kelangan ng boyfriend para mabuhay.. Ang mga lalake ang hindi mabubuhay ng wala TAYONG mga babae.. Diba??.. Wahahah!!!!!!!!

HILING

Paramita

Verse 1:Nahihirapan na ang aking isipNauubusan na ng sasabihin sa iyo..

Nanlalamig na ba ang pag-ibig mo sa ‘kin..Giliw..

Verse 2:Nalilito ako, nais kong sagipin ang ating

Nalulunod na pag-ibig

Nguni’t handa akong palayain kaKung ito ang ‘yong hiling

Gaano man kasakit sa akinIbibigay sa yo

Ang tanging pakiusap langWag mo akong kalimutan..

Refrain:Kay rami nang nagdaan

Na pagsubok sa ting pag-ibig

Kakayanin pa kayang mabawi pa

Ang mga nasabi nang masasakit na salita..
Kung ito ang yong hiling

Gaano man kasakit sa akin..

Ibibigay sa yo..

Nanlalamig na bang pag-ibig mo?

~out~

Hallo everybody!

I'm happy ngayon kasi someone texted me and he's so sweet... aaaahhh!!!!!!!!! well, I'm saying this not for "my past" to think that I already have a guy na.. well, I'm moving on.. yun naman ang gusto niya diba? And I'm happy.. Hope he's also happy now.. Now that he's free now to do things he want.. right??...

Well, everyday, hindi ko pa rin naman maiwasan thinking of him.. pero mas madalas ko na maisip ang aking PYAR... well, I love him as a friend for now....

I love the way he say he misses me.. :) we dont see each other often coz he's in Las Pinas.. (oh diba, nang asar pa talaga!).. heheheh... YUP, I'm moving on now! Cool hah! :)

to my PYAR, I miss you so much! Text me after your class! Love you! mwah!

im off na po.. mwah!
~out~

not happy... nor sad............

having a relationship with your loved one really does make your life beautiful. you share happy moments, there's someone whom you can lean on, there's a provider and lastly, a friend.

but not all relationships ends exactly what you wished for.

well, I just wanna share this to you guys..

Mark and I broke up.. yah.. thats so stupid.. letting go of your love even if you still love the person. But what can I do? He wants it.. now he gets it.... right? geez! For 23 months of relationship with him, I could say that though were not the "perfect lovers" in the world, I'm still proud that he'd been a part of my life.

For the past few months, all that we did was fighting... more petty fights. nakakasawa diba? kaya nga nagsawa sa kin at iniwan ako.

Sana mabasa niya to...

You know who you are........

Lam mo, wala kong pinagsisihan na naging parte ka ng buhay ko. Gaya mo, I also dreamed of living my life with you.. having kids... sharing all my treasures with you...

Pero ganyan talaga eh.. wala na tayo magagawa.. Sabi ni Maggie, pag sinabi ng lalake na ayaw na niya sa babae, talagang ayaw na.. Nung unang mga break ups natin, iniiyakan ko yun every night. But now, I'm trying not to think of you, not to cry over you.. But of course, hindi ko pa rin mapigilan. Ang hirap eh. Pero hayaan mo, hindi na kita guguluhin gaya ng inaasahan mo at gaya ng dati kong ginawa sayong pangungulit.

Alam mo na mahal na mahal kita. Alam mo na kahit anong mangyari, ikaw pa rin ang the best the naging boyfriend ko. Pero wala na eh... hinayaan mo na kong ganito... Iniwan mo na ko..

Alam ko naman na magiging masaya ka eh. Kasi wala ng mambubulyaw sayo, walang mang aaway.. hay! Pero alam ko, mahal mo pa rin ako at namimiss mo pa rin ako. tama ba?

Sana naiisip mo pa rin ako. Pinipigilan kong maging hindi apektado dahil makakasama lang to sa trabaho ko.. lagi akong bumabagsak pag problema natin ag naiisip ko..

So, farewell Nieko..

I love you! and I miss you!

~out~

hi guys! wala lang.. dito na kame sa office.. time for blogging and friendster gallore! wahaha!

nga pala, Mark and I broke up last July 03.. hay.. so sad but I have to let him go kasi nahihirapan na siya.. alam ko marami nakong nagawang mali at lagi ko siya nasasaktan. kaya kahit anong pilit ko pa na magkabalikan kame, kung kame talaga, kame... pero kung hindi, masakit man pero.. ttanggapin ko na lang.

well, pinagkaka abalahan ko na lang ngayon eh ang trabaho ko..

daily routine, pagkadating sa Edsa Central, 1 stick of yosi.. break time, yosi na naman, lunch break, yosi again... pagka 2nd break time, yosi na naman.. pagkauwi, tambay sa may MRT station with my friends tapos uwi na.. hay..

pero at least kahit nagtatrabaho na ko, may time pa din ako mag text sa kanya.. sabihan pa ko na mayabang ako! haler.. come on! you know that I did nothing but to love you!

yah. i still love you.. more than I love my self... huhuhuhuhu........

but like Jun said, life must go on.. yah! like Carlo said, dont make it a big deal .. itll just affect you and your life...

love..... its not LOVE! naaawa lang siya sa kin! waaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

~out~

WAVE 8 eBay Account!

from bottom left part: Macor, Mich, Carlo, Aiza,Ging and Anna ; upper left part: Christian, Che and Murks

we were having our break time here. . picture taking kame.. look at Anna and I.. were cool! wahaha!!

this is the class of eBay wave 8 with our 1st week trainer Nadj! the one with the glasses beside me! :)

the serious class picture.. wahaha!!!!!!

my batchmates: bottom- Bien, Che, Christian, Pete ; from left- Gly, Czar, Aiza, Cindy, Anna, ME!, Nadj, Macor, Booch, May, Ging, Pam(from of Ging), Mich(one with the jacket, Emz, Murks(the guy at their back); Carlo and Ate Fat weren't here coz theyre the one who's taking our pictures!

were still having our break.. Go Ging!

wow! mukha kong ewan! comedy! wahaha! i was the one who leads them with the dance steps coz we had our farewell party for Nadj. this was our last day with her.. mmm.. ugh! sad!

i miss Nieko!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU NIEKO! SOBRA! MWAHMWAH!

i miss blogging.. wala lang.. ive been busy for the whole week.. no updates of posts.. hahaha.. im too busy with my Take 2 subject which is PRINCIPLE OF ECONOMICS WITH LRT! wheeeehhh.. i hate it.. really! but im still trying to cope up.. i havent recovered yet since last sem because of that crazy prof who failed me! waaa!!!!!!!!

i miss my nieko.. i called him up last night.. longing for his voice.. wala lang.. i was watching MMK kasi.. eh i was kinda scared that if thatstory happened to us.. pero hindi yung may sakit ang isa sa min and have to die.. yun bang may hindrances sa relationship.. ayun.. i miss him na! sobra!

i love you NIeko! mwahmwah!

~Out~

i just want to ask you HOW FAR YOU KNOW JESUS AND MARY MAGDALEN??
many says that she was the BAD GIRL of MAGDALA.. whom Jesus washed her feet.. meaning that she was cleansed by the Holy water.

how come that Jesus and Mary Magdalen had this issue that DA VINCI CODE claimed that the two were married?..

i just watched 2 weeks ago about Da Vinci Code from the National Geographic Channel.. and this topic was discussed. but i dont know if i have to believe.. all i know is that Jesus' sacred life is very private and did not have any writings about it in the Holy Bible..

Who was Mary Magdalene?

Question: "Who was Mary Magdalene?"

Answer: Mary Magdalene was a woman from whom Jesus cast out seven demons (Luke 8:2). The name Magdalene likely indicates that she came from Magdala, a city on the southwest coast of the Sea of Galilee. After Jesus cast seven demons from her, she became one of His followers.

Mary Magdalene has been associated with the "woman in the city who was a sinner" (Luke 7:37) who washed Jesus' feet, but there is no scriptural basis for this. The city of Magdala did have a reputation for prostitution. This information, coupled with the fact that Luke first mentions Mary Magdalene immediately following his account of the sinful woman (Luke 7:36-50), has led some to equate the two women. John 11:2, though, identifies the women in Luke 7:36-50 as Mary of Bethany, not Mary Magdalene.

Mary Magdalene is also often associated with the woman whom Jesus saved from stoning after she had been taken in adultery (John 8:1-11) - again an association with no evidence. The movie “The Passion of the Christ” made this connection. This view is possible, but not explicitly taught in the Bible.

Mary Magdalene witnessed most of the events surrounding the crucifixion. She was present at the mock trial of Jesus; she heard Pontius Pilate pronounce the death sentence; and she saw Jesus beaten and humiliated by the crowd. She was one of the women who stood near Jesus during the crucifixion to try to comfort Him. The earliest witness to the resurrection of Jesus, she was sent by Jesus to tell the others (John 20:11-18). Although this is the last mention of her in the Bible, she was probably among the women who gathered with the apostles to await the promised coming of the Holy Spirit (Acts 1:14).

The recent fiction novel “The DaVinci Code” makes the claim that Jesus and Mary Magdalene were married. Some of the non-Biblical early Christian writings (that were considered heresy by the early Christians) hint at a special relationship between Mary Magdalene and Jesus. However, there is no evidence whatsoever to support the belief that Jesus and Mary Magdalene were married. The Bible does not even hint at such an idea.

how to live a new life..

may naranasan na ba kayo na ma feel yung kagaya ng sa akin.. na feeling niyo kahit anong pilit na magabago eh parang may nag sasabi pa rin sa utak niyo na HINDI KA NA MAGBABAGO AT HINDI KA NA MAPAPATAWAD PA! yung feeling na kahit anong kagustuhan mong laging maging mabait, maging mapagkumbaba, hindi mo makaya??... im not saying that I AM SO BAD! what i am saying is that I want to change, but "some" people were like forcing me like they were telling me that i cannot change my life better.. like its too late..

gustong gusto ko ng magbago.. alam ko kung ano ang mga naging kasalanan ko sa sarili ko, sa pamilya ko at sa ibang tao.. pero sana maisip nila, maisip ko na kayang kaya ko pa ring maging maayos.. para sa sarili ko at para sa kapwa ko..

may magsasabi man na hanggang sa pagtanda ko, ganito pa rin ang magiging ugali ko..

naging masama ako sa sarili ko, sa iba, naging mapang abuso ako, naging brutal ako..

pero sana mabura na yun sa isipan ng mga taong nakapaligid sa akin.. yung tipong kalimutan na nila yun..

alam ko sa sarili ko na kahit anong mangyari, nandiyan pa rin Siya para sa akin.. at alam ko na hindi Niya ako papabayaan at kakalimutan kahit anong mangyari.

pero pano ko matatanggap kung talagang nagbago na ako??... kung mismo sa REYALIDAD na to eh may mga tao na nagsasabi na WALA NA AKONG PAGBABAGO..

minsan naisip ko na magpaka layo na lang sa mga tao na to.. pero hindi ko kaya.. dahil ibig sabihin nito, nagpatalo ako sa sarili kong konsensya..

hindi ko na alam kung sino na ba talaga ako eh.. ang daming nagbago.. ang daming nagpabago ng ugali ko.. hindi na nga rin ako kilala ng sarili kong pamilya eh.. nagbago na raw ako simula ng mag kolehiyo ako..

oo, nagbago ako. masama at mabuti.. pero TAO LANG AKO... nagkakamali at sinusubukan kong tumayo sa pagkakadapa...

ngayon, kahit hindi ako lagi nagagabayan ng pamilya ko, sinusubukan kong mamuhay ng independent.. sinusubukan kong matuto ng sarili ko lang.. matutong magkaron ng kaalaman sa mundo ng sarili ko lang ang nagtuturo..

sana kung ano man ang mga nagawa kong kasalanan sa lahat.. sa Kanya.. sana mapatawad pa rin ako.. dahil handang handa na akong magbago..

masama man sabihin pero handa na rin akong mawala sa mundo..

salamat sa lahat lahat..

salamat sa pagbabasa ng nasasaloob ko..

maraming salamat.

LIWANAG

linda barcelo

sa mundong madilim

liwanag ang nais masilip

saan patutungo, saan babaling

kung ang aninong sumusunod

ay isang marahas na halimaw

na pilit kang ipinapain

sa pulang apoy doon sa ilalim.

mainit, maingay, masikip

gustong kumawala dito sa isip.

pusong puro sakit

kapalaran ba dapat ay ganto kapait?

poot at galit

kasamaan ay gustong iwaglit

liwanag sa puso at isip

sana ay mamalagi na lamang

dito sa aking panaginip.

~out~