i wanna say sorry to those people last night sa pagiging suplada ko. medyo nagka problem kasi ako, pero alam ko, magiging okay na yon. george, thanks for the talk... alam kong naiintindihan mo ako, and i am so glad knowing that you care.

i wasnt able to come with you sa tagaytay dahil wala na akong pera.. another reason, walang kasama sa dorm si cez, at naguguluhan pa ako till now..

hope you enjoy it! i know you will.........................

take carez .............

guys.. i just realize that i still have to go on with my life. kahit wala na yung taong dating pinaka importante sayo, you have to get up and show everybody that you can live with out any one(GUY LOVER). ako, masaya na ako, at least, i experienced love and to be loved, than never love at all(cliche)..... nalaman ko na siguro kaya niya nakita yung gurl kahit nasa kin pa siya kasi siya talaga ang para sa gurl na yon.. tanggap na ko na na hindi pa talaga ako dapat tumanggap ng lalake.. pero siyempre, hindi ko maiwasang maghanap at mainip. mainggit kapag may nakikitang sweet na lovers. napapailing na lang ako pag naaalala ko yung isang taong iniwan ko though i know that he's really in love with me.. iniwan ko yung guy na yon para sa last guy na super minahal ko na hindi ko aakalaing iiwan din ako. katangahan ko, pinagpalit kong lahat basta matanggap lang siya nang lahat..

pero okay na rin ako ngayon... IM BETTER OFF ALONE...

Don't Stay
Sometimes I
Need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I
Need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I'm
In disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I
Need you to go

Sometimes I
Feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I
Just feel like screaming at myself
Somestimes I'm
In Disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I
Need to be alone

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
[Just give me myself back and]
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
[Just give me myself back and]
Don't Stay

I don't need you anymore
I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day
Of you wasting me away

With no apologies

Notes:Mike and Brad's original guitar parts for this song had a reggae-style vibe. After numerous transformations (probably five or six different guitar variations), Brad developed the final recorded version. Under the working title "Sick", this song was one of the first tracks finished for this album... notably, Joe recorded the opening scratch solo on the first take.

ERASING THE PAST


"love your self before you love the others"................ whoah! how am i gonna ove myself if im always LONELY??.... i feel ugly you know! why is there such word as LOVE when i dont even know how to love myself and what's the meaning of it?!the heck!

hi guys.. wala lang.. i think im okay now. i talked to cez na eh. but len still has that kinda "ilang" sakin..

today, i saw Alex at the canteen with his new look..hay..wala lang, memories............. well, man, i gotta move on! how will i grow up if i cant move on! there are plenty of FISHES in the sea! he's not the only one, ayt?? but still, i kinda have that "ilang and kaba" whenever i see him.. parang dati kay ben..mmmmmmmm.......

guys, ingatz as always.. birthday na ni karl tomorrow!

guys... bakit na lang parating ganito?? parang lagi na lang, pag uuwi ako sa dorm, parati na lang ba akong magiging "invisible" sa mga room mates ko. i didnt eat dinner with the tropa for me to talk to my room mates tapos biglang may lakad pala sila! while i told them earlier that i'll be eating dinner with them after my class.

siguro im not that "good enough" for them. kainis kasi eh. every time na pupunta ako sa kwarto, parating sila lang magkausap na parang hindi nila ako kilala or parang hindi nila ako nakita. ako palagi ang nag uumpisa nang usap para kahit papano, may maisingit man lang ako sa usap nila.. i missed them so much but every time i try to be close with them, why are they so "cold"???????

sana may power na lang ako na "mag tanggal nang mga taong ayaw ko sa harap ko" para naman mawala na lang silang lahat sa tabi ko.. tutal naman they dont care bout me.. but i will erase first the MAN I REALLY HATE..

finally i posted na...............

were not yet "journ" pa raw sabi ni kuya lance till we finished our clearance for us to be cleared at our former department.. hay, lots of stuff to do! grrr... thats why i have no time of posting coz of this..

love.............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................gosh.. when will i ever get a perfect and a true love??? hope i can get it after 2 yrs.. what do you think huh??

maybe, God has so many plans for me...... i guess...