That's LIFE!!!!!

How can we say that we are having a great life????

Have you asked yourself about it??

Bakit kelangan may mga taong hindi pa rin alam ang kahalagahan ng buhay?

Bakit lagi na lang may mga naghihirap?

Bakit may mga taong sagana sa saya.. sagana sa yaman..

Hanggang sa may makita kang mga tao na patuloy na naghihirap at nagdudusa...

I have watched I WITNESS last MondayFeb.19... Its about a family living with a weird kind of status in life. Basta.. ang weird dahil lahat sila, parang walang patutunguhan.... kawawa ang batang si EKANG... na isa sa pinaka bata sa pamilya..

Sana sa mga makakabasa neto, please see to it na pinapahalagahan niyo ang buhay niyo. gawin niyong makabuluhan....

wag niyong aksayahin ang bawat oras ...

gawin niyong masaya... dahil masarap mabuhay.. di natin alam kung hanggang saan na lang tayo..

~out~

THANKS!!!!!

Hey Im back guys! At last, all of my worries are gone now! I just finished my final requirement for my OJT yesterday. I would like to thank Mark for helping me with it! You're so great! I love you! ^_^

I wanna say thank you to all the people who inspired me getting all these things done. Mark, thank you for being there for me. I know you still doubt my love for you.. But I'm telling the truth. Yeah I have hurt you so many times but please forget those stupid things Ive done. Just please give me more time to freshen up and change my attitude.. Pero please, makibagay ka rin naman sa kin.. Dont tease me or anything that would hurt my feelings please!!!!! Yan, nabubugbog tuloy kita.

Weird reasons why I still wanna stay friends with you:
1. Weve been together for like 2 years
2. You know all about me
3. Youve been my bestfriend, brother and a father to me
4. You know how to make me laugh
5. You know how to make me feel sad and angry
6. You were the first guy I cried so hard when we broke up
7. You were the first guy I almost die whenever we fought
8. You know how to make me fall asleep while I sit on your lap and bend on your shoulder
9. We both know how much food we can eat
10. God knows how much I love you..................................................................


Mark, I know weve been through a lot of pain... But things change, so are we.. But my feelings for will never fade. Yup I know I am so selfish.. I only think for my own sake. Pero kahit nagkaron tayo ng gap, my feelings never fade. I swear! Hay! I do wish na maniwala ka sa kin. I miss you so much... And I am so happy that weve spent the whole night together making "lambing lambing"... Hay! Thanks sa lahat lahat ng sacrifice mo para sa kin. Lahat na napatunayan mo na sa kin.. Hay... Just give me space para maging maayos na ako.. I promise I'll marry you kapag wala ka ang girlfriend.

I love you....

OKAY BA????

formal shot ko of my graduation picture

pinanindigang Indian talaga

Partida, yung formal shot ko, umiyak pa ko bago nagpa picture. haha!!!!

Hi guys! Andito ako sa dasma. Nagbayad ako kahapon ng tuition fee ko eh.. heheh.. Tapos ngayon nagpasukat na ko ng toga! Nice! hehe.. astig! feel na feel ko nga eh.. hehehe!! ^_^ umm nagkita rin pala kame ni Joey sa Apt. nagpunta kasi ako dun, tapos sabay kame nag lunch din.. Takaw nga namen eh.. Medyo hindi kame nakapag usap kasi may "ilang" effect sa min. Ewan ko ba. Totoo lang, I still love him.. Hindi ko naman agad makakalimutan yung napagsamahan namen eh. Tska 10 months ko na siyang mahal. Waa! Pero eto, bigo pa rin.. wala naman ako magagawa kung hanggang dun na lang kame. Pero eto lang masasabi ko, Love ko pa rin si Pyar.. Yun lang. Hay!

Hirap nang ganito.. Pretending to be fine pero sa loob loob ko, wala na, bagsak na.. Hirap talaga...

At eto pa, namimiss ko rin si mark.. Pero wala na, hanggang dun na lang din talaga kame.. Mahirap kung pareho namen issacrifice yung relationship kasi lagi kameng nagaaway..

Buhay nga naman! Reality bites.. Hay nako...

~out~

KALOKOHAN

John joe's cap

Rb, tambay sa eskenita

New shades! Were going to

GAMEWORKS to have a shoot for IAGT

Hindi na ko pinauwi ni nanay dahil gabi na.. Ayun.. Ako lang pala ang babae na matitira dito sa office.. Akala ko naman, iinom kame.. Ehehe.. Sayang! Feel ko pa naman ang uminom.. Tsk tsk.. Hehehe.. ^_^

~out~

MAAGA AKO NGAYON


I just got here in the office.. Ang aga ko grabe! Buti kahit puyat, nakatulog naman ako sa byahe.. Hmm... Umuwi ako sa bahay namen kasi I had to bring new clothes for tonight but I think hindi ako makakapag sleep over here kasi pinapauwi ako ni nanay. Anyway, ayun.. Kahapon, our first stop was at Greenbelt 3 (People's Place) where AXE CLICK launching was held there. I saw Ate Mau there (sister of Ap, a Comm Arts tropa). Cool! Nagsama sama ang mga taga La Salle! Haha!! Then there were some discussion about Scents and Perfumes of a person ang how you could know that it is "bagay" to him/her.. Gets??.. Ang host for that event was DJ Mo Twister.. Hmmm.. what can I say about him..... Hmm.. he's simple.. Relax lang..

After that, I went ahead to IBM to have my resignation cleared.. Well, ayun, buti andun yung TL namen.. Andun dun si Jarvey! Tapos ngayon pa lang ako naka kuha ng clearance. POCHA! Akala ko pa naman naipasa na ng tao na yun sa HR yung letter of immediate resignation ko eh wala pa! Ayun.. Hay!

Sabay kame nakauwi na Jarvey. I missed that guy.. IMPERNEZZZZ... haha! Ayun, kwentuhan... Then nagpalibre pa ang bruho! Hahaha!!!I am excited to be cleared para makakuha ng BACK PAY! Wahaha!!!!! Its almost 10k daw sabi ni Jarvey. hehehe.. Nice!

Last night...

Marthy (my ex) went to our house.. wala lang.. tumawag kasi siya.. Eh gusto raw niya kong makita. hehe.. Ayus! Ayun, tamang yosi lang.. Tapos kwentuhan..

Ewan ko ba kung bakit ba lagi na lang yun bumabalik sa ki pag wala na siyang girlfriend.. Well, pareho kame ng status at ng months na wala nang girl/boyfriend.... 4 going on 5 months.. Ayun.. Hmmm.. my comment???....... Hmmm................. Actually, ayoko pa talagang mag boyfriend ulit. Now I realized what Pyar means about "not yet ready for a commitment"..... Well although I knew about it before pero alam mo yun??.... Basta! Parang natatakot akong pumasok na naman sa isang relasyon lalo na pag kilala mo yung sarili mo when it comes to LOVE..."is this love, is this love, is this love, is this love that I'm feeling"... haha!! May kanta pang kasama eh noh?.. Ahaha! ^_^

ENJOY KA LANG DAHIL SINGLE KA

For me, nag eenjoy ako sa pagiging Single... 5 months na nga diba.... Well, minsan lang talaga nakakaramdam ako ng pagkalungkot. lalo na kapag nababalewala ako ng taong mahal ko.. Mga taong importante sa kin pero parang hindi ako importante sa kanila. Pero naiintindihan ko naman yun eh. Wala naman ako magagawa kasi may kanya kanya kameng buhay.

Nagagawa ko mga bagay na gusto ko.. Walang kumokontra or nagagalit kapag nakikipag usap ako sa ibang lalake, may ka text akong ibang lalake.. Alam mo yun??.. Pero minsan, nakakamiss yung mga away na yun.. Kasi maiintindihan mo na nagseselos siya kasi HE DOESN'T WANT TO LOSE YOU.... That's it!

Hay.... pero nakakmiss din yung.. May ka text ka lage.. Alam mo yun??.. Yung laging may nag iinspire sayo..... Hay! Kaka inggit yung ibang tao na lage siyang naka smile whenever may nagttext sa kanya. heheh.. Ayoko namang gayahin na ngingiti sa cellphone ko ng wala naman akong natanggap na text, mukha kong sira ulo nun! Hahaha!!! =)

O siya siya...... Time to go now! Bubye!!!!

~out~

AT THE CUISINE

Call Time is 10 pm but we went to THE FORT at 11 pm. John Joe, Bubbles, Ketchup and Borgy with his girlfriend were all there already. We were there to have a shoot for John Joe' s segment which is GIRL TALK .

Well, we all had a San Mig Light ordered by Borgy. I got to see Sarah Chistoffer, the dancing model for MAXX candy and Richard Gutierrez.. Some people might be models in the place.

Well, very tiring coz we got here in the office at 3 am . Cool right??...

This is a great experience having my OJT at Ideal Minds... Haha.. Not to mention the celebrities that I could meet every production days! haha!!!

I wanna thank Ella and Kuya Jeff for taking care of me. hehehe.. Ako lang kasi ang practitioner tonight. Ayun..

Well.. This is what you call LIFE WITHOUT WORRYING....... hahaha!!!Yeah I'm enjoying my life right now. Unlike when I used to work in a call center.. NAME IT! Grrrrr..... lahat na ata nang depression naramdaman ko na! hahaha!!!!!!!

Cool John Joe.. Marunong siya talaga magdala ng segment... Yeah.. I am starting to like this guy.. hahah!! mwah!!! A VERY SWEET KISS FOR YOU JOHN JOE! hehehe.... mmmmwaaaaahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time to go to bed now. I am still here in the office. Got to wake up at 9 in the morning! ^_^ We have to prepare for our shoot at 11 am. Good luck! hahaha!!!

see yah guys! More stories after this.. hehehe.. ^_^ mwah!

PLANS:

• Gotta have a picture with Ketchup, Bubbles and Borgy
• Gotta go to IBM after the first production

~out~

WALANG TAYTOL

Eto ang madalas namin gawin pag walang production sa IMC.. Hay! Mga sunog baga! hahah!!

yosi pa tayo Dude! Astig!

With Jay and Arvie sa labas ng building

With Kuya Yong sa Conference Room

Where will I start??... Umm.. 6 am na kame nakatulog.. My phone alarmed at 8:30 am but Ella wake me up at 9 :30 am. Haha!! One hour ang na adjust para lang mapasarap ang tulog. Ayun.. Monday ngayon so may meeting ang staff with the Big Bosses.. Ang dami naming mga interns as in! Nagsama sama kame dito! Hahaha!!

Kagabe

"Len, maghanap ka naman ng magandang girl na pwedeng isama sa OBB naten".. Sabi ni Kuya Jeff..

"Ehem.. Ehem! "

"Ah, yun ba yon? Nagpaparinig?"..

Tinawagan ko si Sis.. Sabi ko sana siya na lang ang isama .. kaso may pasok siya eh! Sayang..

"O siya Len, ikaw na lang ang isasama." .....

"Talaga!?!... Sige ba!"..

KANINA

Natutulog ako.. zzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

"Len, halika na! Baba na tayo. Mag shoot na tayo para sa OBB"..

"Ha? Kasama ako?"

"Oo, kelangan ka na sa baba."

Haha!!! Ayus ba?.. Kulit noh!?! Actually, hindi yan talaga ang napag usapan namen, pero almost un na rin ang sinabi ni kuya Jeff nung nag uusap kame. heheh..

Ayun, pagdating ko sa baba, nag park si John Joe nang car ni Kuya Jay5.. Ayun. Bale para sa OBB ng Christmas Episode for 3rd Season ng Its a Guy Thing.

Pinaupo ako sa loob ng auto.. Tapos ayun, si Ketchup ang makakasama ko... Cool nga eh. Pagka pasok niya sa car...

KETCHUP: "Hi......Ketchup" (inabot niya ang kamay ko).. Totoo ba ito??..

"Sensya na ah, amoy pawis na ko.. nagbilad kame sa araw kanina eh".. pahabol niya.

Parang,.... owkhey.. si Ketchup, nakipag shake hands sa kin?.. Waa!!! hahaha! Astig!

Tapos ang sequence, nasa loob kame ng car. Tapos yung window nakasara.. Makikita dun yung reflection nila John Joe, Bubbles and Borgy. Tapos bababa yung window. Pagkababa, parang dudungaw si Ketchup tapos mayamaya after 4 seconds, I'll pull him paloob na naman. Ayun...

AFTER TAKE ONE.

BORGY: "Give him a kiss..."

ME: "Huh? Kiss?"

BORGY: "Come on, only on the cheek."

TAKE TWO...

DIREK: "Okay, after 3 seconds, hilahin mo si Ketchup but after that, kiss mo siya sa cheek."

No way! haha!!! Di ko ginawa noh. Tska sinabi ko kay Ketchup yun, sabi niya hilahin ko na lang raw siya..

Ang kulit nga eh.. Naka four takes kame ata.. Yung huli ang kulit ni Ketchup. mmm.... He almost hugged me pero lokohan lang.. then later after that take..

KETCHUP: "Uy, sensya na dun ah, lokohan lang yun.."

Like hello KETCHUP! OKAY LANG! hahaha!! Sana totoo na lang! wahaha.. ^_^ kidding..

Ayun.. mga kalokohan lang namen.. haha!!! At least, na expose ako! weheh.. Sayang nga lang, wala kame picture ni Ketchup inside the car. Sana na post ko dito. Tsk..... Pero madami pang times na makikita namen siya, si Borgy at si Bubbles. Si John Joe lage andito yun! Kakasawa! Hahaha!! Pero ayus lang, nagkaka usap na naman kame. Simple lang siya.. Tamang chill lang. Hehe.. Buti nga hindi siya yung tulad ng ibang celebrity na maarte.... May food budget kasi kame. Tapos sa McDo kame kumain last night.. wala siyang reklamo.. Hindi tulad ng iba na gusto pa sa mamahaling resto. . . .

The funny thing happened last night was when the coverage was done, we were walking na diba??.. pupunta na kame sa McDo nun.. May humabol na mga girls na magpapa picture sa kanya eh nasa Parking lot na kame tapat ng TEATRINO.. Kakatuwa lang kay John Joe na hindi siya suplado. Talagang hinintay namin yung mga girls then yung Segment Producer namen ang nag take pa ng picture! Haha! Nice noh??... Kulit! Ang dami nila kayang girls.. Parang mga nag celeb hunt ata yung mga yun dahil awards night nga sa Cinema 1..... Hahah!! Wala lang... share lang..

NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN

BITTER....

I have talked to Sir Gary, one of the head writers of IMC.. We are close now kaya we always talk and share things about life.. shitty stories of mine.. haha!!!

He told me to move on... Get another guy to love or to pay attention with.. Well, its easy to do .. But the thing is.. YOU ALL KNOW HOW I COMMIT MYSELF WHENEVER I FALL IN LOVE.

Wala naman talaga sa kin yun eh.

Yeah, time to move on.. Things have changed already.. Shitty things had happened while we did not see each other.. Dont get me wrong about the term I used. What I meant was shitty things.. like stupidity.... you know.... Ayun..

But I still wanna say THANK YOU.. you know who you are.. THANKS for being there with me whenever I needed someone.. lalo na nung mga times na sobrang depressed ako dahil sa metrics ko sa CSAT sa work. Tsk. Thanks talaga ah..

Thanks din to Arvie, Jay and Sir Gary dahil you opened my mind about those issues... You really helped me a lot guys! Haha!!

O siya, time to go now. Later na lang ako ulit mag bblog! hehehe.. ^_^

~out~

STAR STRUCK at the Awards Night of Cinema 1

OMG!!!!!

Eto ang pinaka unang pre production na nakasama ako.. Dito pa sa Awards Night! wahah!! I saw Iyah, Zanjo, Mark Gil, Jackylin Jose, Meryl Soriano, Miko Palanca with Bea Alonzo, Piolo Pascual, Bianca Gonzales, Geoff Eigennman and his mother, Empress and Denise, etc. And!!!!! OF COURSE! Si John Joe na kasama namen. haha!!! Sa labas lang kame nag shoot para sa 3rd season ng Its A Guy Thing.. Dun lang kame kasi yun lang ang part na kukuhanan namen, plus yung mga celebrity! OMG! Kasama pa kame sa extras.... Weh! Watch out for it on December. hehehehe.. Napa extra pa kame. That's why I love Ideal Minds. Hindi nila nalilimutan i-extra ang mga interns. hahaha!!!!!

Kinapalan ko na mukha ko!

Nilapitan ko si Iyah while she's outside talking with her colleagues. Tapos si Zanjo (correct ba spelling?).... Then I had this feeling na nainis talaga ako. When I saw Mylene Dizon with her hubby na papasok, kinausap pa nga kame eh, tapos ayun, sabi ko after "umm, pwede po picture??" Then she just nodded but never looked at my camera.. GEEZZ!!!!!!! I used to like her pa naman. FORGIVE ME! I hate her now.. She's pretty, yeah... But the fact na alam kong celeb ka nga pero youre snob pala.. THEN GO! sana hindi mo na lang ako totally pinansin. hahah!! I am so mean.. WTF!

~PICTURES~

With John Joe Joseph

With Iyah, so pretty...

Zanjo, my new boyfriend! haha!!

Na star struck sa kin.. haha!!

TAKE IT EASY

Reality Bites... yun lang ang masasabi ko.. Yeah, lahat naman tayo yun ang sinasabi..

Bakit?

-Dahil kahit anong pilit mong makuha ang isang bagay, may mga hindi maiiwasang pangyayari na hindi mo talaga makukuha.. Gets nyo?

-Dahil sa tuwing may gusto kayo, hindi mapa sa inyo..

-Dahil lagi na lang tayong nasasaktan dahil sa mga bagay na katangahan lang..

-Dahil hindi natin matanggap ang katotohanan....

Kaya eto, nagpapaka senti na lang lage.. Hay. Medyo tanga lang siguro ako..

Ah! Baka sabihin masyado lang kasi akong nagmamadali.. Hindi kaya! .... Kala niyo lang yun..

Ayoko pa rin naman ng commitment mga peepz... Ang sa kin lang, masyado lang akong nagmahal.. Alam naman ng lahat yun eh. Kaso di ko lang talaga ma control ang sarili ko .. Kaya eto, sakit.. hehehe.. Pero ayus lang.. Basta stay tropa naman kame eh.. Diba?? Yung friendship lang naman ang habol ko eh.... sa ngayon.. at sa darating na mga araw pa..

Nagpapaka busy na lang ako sa OJT ko para walang hassle.. heheh.. Pero wala pa rin naman kasing masyadong ginagawa eh.. Kaya ayun.. Mamaya may shoot daw kame.. Goodluck sa kin.. dito ako matutulog. Di ko pa alam kung sino mga kasama ko.. May dalawang dumating dito pero di ko sila kilala...

Isang Segment Producer ng Its A Guy Thing at yung isa eh sa La Salle din nag aaral.. Hmmm.. Mukhang suplada eh. Pero wa pake.. Maganda ako.. hahaha!!!

Eto na si Mike, nasa MRT na.. tunog ng tunog ang cellphone ko... ayoko na magreply.. nakakawala ng gana mag post pag ganun eh. hehehe.. sensya na friend.. Bilisan mo na! Para yosi bonding na tayo. heheh.. Kasi naman bakla ayaw mo pa mag overnight dito eh. Tsk..

Balik tayo sa aking kwento ng buhay..

Hay.. Lapit na ako maka graduate. Nampucha, di ko alam kung pano na naman ako magttrabaho.. Parang pag naiisip ko yung mga training namen sa previous work ko, ayoko na! Tsk.. nakakatamad.. Plus, very tiring.. heheh..

Do you like my blog, guys!

Hahah!! THANKS GEORGE SA "complement" mo.. hehe.. TEACHER ka dyan. heheh.. ^_^

Till here! I love MIGGY!!!!!Woohooo!!!!

~out~

Its a Guy Thing

I had my first OJT schedule for Ideal Minds Corporations last Monday and its not that tiring.. Actually, we had nothing to do but to sit and watch TV in the office.. hehehe.. Pero we saw Ketchup, Borgie Manotoc and John Joe.. I didnt see Bubbles eh.. Ayun..

I met Rb, Tony was also there, si Lory and Jhay.. They are all Comm students.. good thing eh puro taga la salle dasma kame.. we often see each other sa corridor.. heheh.. ayun..

Anyways, for my second day, eto medyo haggard sa paghithit ng yosi.. heheh.. may nagawa na rin ako for the first time!!!! aaaahhhh!!!! inutusan ako makipag coordinate sa mga schools for schedules sa mga interviews for MTV Homecoming.. ayun...

i miss you

I am missing this guy so much right now... Whenever I see our pictures on my phone, for sure, a tear will fall.. I really miss this guy so much that I wanted to hug him so tight when I'll see him again.. Ugh!!!!!

I know that you are not into commiting for a relationship right now.. Yeah, me too... But for now, I just hope that nothing will change.. Nothing will fade....

I still love you and I will always do..

~out~

wahahahaha....

seeing myself alone

I'm here alone sa ICT shop.. wala lang.. Pyar just went home na. He left me na. heheh.. ayus lang.. Nagkasama naman kame ng mejo matagal kaya ayus lang. Ayun.. mmm..... Naisip ko, 21 na ko.. Single and happy.. Yup, I'm happy.. contented.. pero parang may kulang yung kasiyahan na yun.. Pero naisip ko rin na okay pa rin maging single. Bakit? Kasi like kagabi, I went out with Tonie, no one cares, no one dares to get mad or anything that I'll get worried na may magagalit sa kin dahil I went out with a guy. Si Pyar, tinanong lang kung sino kasama ko pero wala lang yun, he just asked me about it. Nothing more..

Naisip ko kagabi, I'm a bit confused. I don't know why. I am in love with a guy (you know who he is) ... Pero a bit confused .. Ewan ko ba kung bakit pa ko kelangan ma confuse eh alam ko naman kung hanggang san lang kame.. Hay! Pero ayun... sabi naman niya, masaya naman siya nang ganito kame... which ako rin, masaya.. Pero syempre, hindi mo pa rin maiiwasan na magtanim ng onting tampo, diba?? Kasi parang naka hang ang relationship namen. Pero I'm not saying that I want to be his girlfriend or what... Siyempre, hindi mo pa rin maiiwas sa kin na umasa.. which napaka mali nun..

Seeing myself alone..... no one loves me.... no one wants to be with me.. alam mo yung feeling nang ganon?? na parang ma fe feel mo na parang napaka panget ko ba?? para walang magkagusto??... ayun.. ganun ang nafe feel ko talaga minsan eh.. wala lang... ganito na talaga ako.. hehehe....

Right now, I'm alone here nga.. waiting for nobody... wala lang.. enjoy ko lang tong mag isa na nag co computer.. Listening to BURIED A LIE- Senses Fail... I am missing now my Pyar.. hay!

Umm... na miss ko si Joey... hehehe.. wala lang. ummm... sana nga na miss mo nga ako! HMP! Kagigil! hehehe..... miss ko na rin si Nay! waaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love you Nay!!!!!!

mwah! I love you Pyar!!!!

~out~

Time to move on

Dito ko sa office... just filed my immediate resignation.. hehehe... tigas ko nga kasi andito pa ko sa office eh wala naman akong pasok, off ko kasi eh.. hehehe.... umm.,. im just waiting for Tonie- my former soon to be boyfriend dapat way back 4 years ago. hehehe.. ayun.. kaso mamaya pa ata sya. pero hatid naman daw nya ko kaya ayus lang..

Time to move on dahil eto, tapos na ang madalas kong sabihin sa Pyar ko.. na naffrustrate na ko sa trabaho ko.. MOving on .. eheh.. matatapos na rin ang paghihirap ko sa kakaisip ko sa mga metrics ko.. nakakapagod din noh.. eh ayun..

masaya na rin ako dahil OJT na ko....

ITS A GUY THING

Please watch for it guys every Friday at Studio 23 - 9 pm. ^_^

Joey, sa Ideal Minds ako mag OOJT .. ayan na, sinagot ko na tanong mo kung saan ako mag OJT ah.. Hindi pa kasi sure yun eh kaya di ko pa masagot.. eto,surprise! sa IMC nga ako.. kala ko sa Homecoming ako. sayang nga eh.. pero ayus lang! ^_^ si John Joe ang kasama namin.. hay!

Oh sige! Till here! ^_^

~out~

Damn so tired of my life right now.

I have learned my lessons.. Never ever do anything that will make you more suffer.. Dealing with people whom cannot appreciate your efforts for them. Its so unfair that even if you wanted to help them, I just can't. Why do I have to suffer!?! I want to resign now. Its making me feel worst!

DAMN SO IN LOVE...

Krrr...... Hmm..... I just talked to Pyar sa phone when I got home.. Yep, I only had 4 hours sleep but its fine with me. Siyempre, I got time to talk to my Pyar.. He made me feel happy naman kanina.. Ayun.. I was texting this other guy, whom I have loved before.. Well, yes, he's my ex bf.. Ayun, we had an argument about my past.. That has to be erased! Pero he still brought it up just because of my damn question! Hay.. Why do these things have to happen?? Siguro God still have better plans for me.. I went out on a relationship that did not work and I have my Pyar right now whom really makes feel special.. And I am satisfied..

I'm happy he came into my life.. I love him so much.. Not to mention the things we have shared.. He's my man.. well, sort of.. dahil hindi pa kame.. hopefully in the future. We still have to know more about each other. We have a lot of things in common, but still, may mga difference pa rin. But the more I spend my time, my day with him really brings my life brighter wanting to spend my entire life with this guy.. hehehe.. drama..

He's now my reason for living.. One of my streghts.. It just happened na we both had a bad relationship before kaya parang we still have to move on with that. Kaya eto, still waiting for the right time. Pero I'm still not sure about it.. Dahil marami siyang makikilala for sure that is greater than me. Haha, great ba ko?? ^_^

I love you..
I have a lot of reasons why..
The way you dress,
They way you smile,
The way you stare....
Everything about you!

Reality bites...
I have to face the truth..
Nothing else can compare the great love youve had with her, I know that.
But I know, someday, somehow, I can give you the very best that I have.

Thanks for being there for me. I am so in love! With you..
My life will never be like this if you're not here. I would just like to thank you for accepting me for who I am, and who I was.. Love you! mwah!

Salamat din kasi andyan ka to support me.. mwah!

~out~

Blooming!!!!

heheh.. Eto ang sabi ng mga kasama ko sa work.. mmmm... I just told them .. "wala eh.. in love".. Hehehe.. Ewan ko ba.. Iba talaga nagagawa ng Ponds.. heheh.. Nag endorse daw ba..

Umm... Ano ba masasabi ko..

Yun! Medyo nagkaron ng gap again sa bahay.. I was about to cry when that happened. Ewan ko if i should tell it here pero sawang sawa na talaga ako.. Gusto ko na umalis dito.. Dito sa bahay, sa trabaho.. Everywhere na makikita ko ang tatay ko.. I don't really hate him.. Pero he's one of my "fear" na parang everytime na may nagagawa ako, lalo pa niyang pinapalaki.. lalo pa niya ko dino down.. kaya eto, ganto na ko lumaki.. Kaya masanay na kayo na ganto ang ugali ko na masyado kong negative sa sarili ko kung mag isip..Hay! Sabi ko nga, si Pyar lang ang nakakapag palakas ngayon sa kin.. Hay!

Yeah.. I am in love! heheh... Is this love, is this love, is this love, is this love that I'm feeling!!! hehehe...... Eto yung kanta ko sa kanya nung Summer Class pa.. hehehe.. I heard this song sa shop when I was thinking of him.. Eto yung song na na-i play dun.. mmmmmm.. I was with Gela then... Hay! Miss ko na rin yung bruha na yun!

Speaking of friendship.. Hay, miss ko na rin ang besftriend ko! Maggie!!!! waaaa!!!!!! hindi na natin na icontinue yung November Routine natin na manood nang Scary shows!!! I hate it!!! mmmm..... Pero ayus lang.. Bawi na lang tayo some other time.. hehehe..

You can say that I am addicted to love with Pyar right now....

I am so happy being with this guy. Although just spent the whole friendship for like 6 months.. But knowing that I have him.. I have a friend like him beside me will never gonna make me ask for more !

I love you Pyar! mwah!

I was with Joey here.. Having our first picture for the day! heheh.. He picked me up at work.. And to tell you the truth, it's so kilig on my side! My gawd! hehehe...

Things bothered us alot...

Yeah, I like him...

I love him...

Not knowing what is the status of our relationship for now.

Well, yeah.. I still don't want to have a commitment.

Just like what he's telling me always.

I still want to enjoy my 4 months being Single! ^_^

hay.. bakit ba ganito?? I am so happy whenever I see him, whenever I 'm hugging him... whenever I'm kissing him.. Hay! He's now my REASON to survive! hahah!! I know.. I have said this before to my ex that he's my strenght.. everything.. ow mah gawd! that was before..

and now, this is my present love story.. and I hope that it would be my forever love story.. I wish this will never end.

Hay! I was so happy talaga nung thursday! hahah... kakakilig! kahit sobrang hindi na ko nakatulog that day, dahil I was with him, ayun, okay lang.. mmm..... Tapos ayun, nainggit ata yun lalake na yun, gusto rin magka shirt ng BJ shirt.. ayun, eh dalawa yung ganun ko, binigay ko yung isa.. yung akin talaga.. mmmm.... tapos tumawad pa! gusto may pabango pa yung shirt! heheh.. astig! uuuuyy! gusto niya ko lagi maamoy! heheh...

pyar! may bago na kong amoy! mmm... sana magustuhan mo!^_^ heheh..

I miss you po! I love you Pyar!

~out~

Just got done with my shift.. hay. dito pa rin ako sa room.. wala lang.. maya pa ko uwi sa dasma.. kasi baka masyado ko mapa aga... ayun..

Nagtext nga pala si Mark sa kin.. wala lang. Basta.. hindi ko na alam kung pano pa dapat magreact sa mga nangyayari sa buhay namen.. pero I think the best way for us is to stay as friends... kelangan ko pa mag move on.. kelangan rin niyang magpahinga sa mga pananakit na nagawa ko sa kanya... hay! eto kelangan kong pasayahin ang sarili ko para lang hindi ko maisip na nag iisa ako..

i didnt know that I was hurting you....
kala ko masaya na ang lahat dahil wala ng giyera sa mundo natin.....
ang sa kin lang, hindi naman sa umiiwas.. kailangan ko lang ng panahon para makapag isip isip.
hindi kita iniwan dahil sa hindi na talaga kita mahal..
at hindi ako ang mismong nangiwan, diba?
sumunod lang ako sa gusto mo.. pero iba ang inisip mo, inaway mo pa ko.. inisip mo na pinagpalit kita. eh ikaw? hindi mo ba naisip na PURO SARILI MO LANG INIISIP MO nang iwan mo ko? diba? pero ayus lang.. at least pareho na tayong malaya..

lahat nang tao natutuwa dahil pareho nila tayong nakikitang masaya.. pero kala lang nila yun. may mga panahon na naiisip din naman kita eh.. kaso pinipigilan ko yung feelings ko dahil ayoko muna dahil baka masaktan na naman kita. At ayoko na naman mangyari yun dahil baka mag away na naman tayo.. sana naiintindihan mo ko.. sana alam mo mga pinagsasabi ko.. salamat sa lahat ah.

alam mo naman na hindi pa rin naman kita kayang kalimutan eh.. weve been together for almost 2 years. mahirap kalimutan yun.. lalo na kung madaming nangyari. kaya ngayon, para pareho natin malimutan ang past, please understand na kelangan kong gawin to.. naiintindihan mo naman ako, diba?

alam mo naman na hindi maaalis yung nandito eh.. alam mo yun.. pero hindi lahat ng bagay eh kailangang naka stick sa isat isa... kung hindi talaga magkasundo kahit onting bagay lang, dapat lang na maghiwalay na diba? pero hindi ko sinasabi na forever magkakalimutan na.. hindi naman ako ganun eh. I still make it a point na parte pa rin ng buhay ko yung past ko. naging masaya man o malungkot..

it does not mean that when I say I HAVE MOVED ON, taken for granted ka na.. hindi yun.. ikaw pa... sa masasaya na nangyari sa labas ng Mama Maria Dorm ko.. yung habbulan every night hanggang madaling araw. Yung maghihintay tayo ng 12 am sa labas ng dorm pag monthsary natin.. yung pag alaga mo sa kin pag may sakit ako.. lalo na nung may bulutong ako.. tska yung pag tyaga mo sa kin at sa kalat ko nung nalasing ako at sobrang suka ko... you know what, naging maswerte ako dahil naging part ka nang buhay ko..

sino ba naman ang hindi sasaya sa pagkakaroon ng bf na tulad mo na kahit pagalitan na sa bahay ng mga magulang, nandyan pa rin sa tabi ko, nagpupuyat sa editing house para sa project ko.. Nagttyaga sa mga kagagahan ko.. hay..

teka.. tama na muna ang kadramahan.. nagaalburuto na si Jyx... hehehe... mya na lang..

~out~