YOU!!!YEAH YOU!!!!!!

Do I have to write this all over again?? like writing the pain I feel for everything that had happened??... I just read almost all the blog entries I had before.. And I was dissapointed that its happening again.. Yeah.. like Lala said, the never ending dramatic entries...

I'm so full of this shit! I tried to be nice, cool and making myself strong.... pero this guy, texted me saying fucking shit and accusing me that i'm fooling him daw... hell you! i never did anything bad to you! you were mad because I sent you a blank page?? what the! I pitty you so much..

you know what, thanks for making me feel that FEELING again... sayang, wala na si PYAR.. haha!!! gusto mong magkasakitan tayo ha! sige, sakitan na to...

sayang! dahil minahal pa rin kita.. kahit magkasama kame ni joey, ikaw pa rin ang iniisip ko! dahil may feelings pa rin ako sayo... alam mo, siguro kung hindi ko hinayaang mahalin pa rin kita, malamang masaya pa rin ako.. hindi na ko nasaktan ulit. sabi nga niya, bakit pa ko bumalik sa past ko.. alam ko ganun din ang mga sinasabi nila sayo na bakit mo pa ko binalikan.. sana pinakinggan na lang natin sila noh.. pero wala eh.. nagpakatanga pa rin tayo.. hinayaan nating magsama na naman tayo knowing na magssuffer na naman tayo...

I hate the feeling of hating you, you know that?????..... but youre forcing me to....

after 3 years, still we ended badly.. I thought I can make friends with you.. I thought were okay.. but yeah, were not...

i dont know what will happen next...

thanks for ruining my day.. you just accused me without seeing the time when you received the text... mas nauna akong magtext sayo! we had a 10minute break non then nagyoyosi ako... nagpapansin lang ako sayo.. kaya I sent you a blankpage... and so what if you texted me a blank page then i replied you the same??.... does it matter?? huh?? wala namang masama dun ah! you know what, gumawa ka lang nang ikagagalit mo eh.. tama bang sabihin mo sa kin na tinatarantado lang kita dahil akala mo gumanti ako ng pagsend ko ng blank page?? eh mas nauna nga ako eh!!!! naintindihan mo ba yon????!!!!!!!!!!!!!ako ang naunang magtext! at wala ka namang dahilan para magalit eh! dahil walang kwentang issue if I texted you a blank page!

nakakurat ka! tangina talaga.. muntik na nga ako mamatay twice yesterday! first was the jeepney we were riding had a flat tire..... buti na lang nasa gilid kame ng road... kung hindi, malamang nabangga na kame.. at siguro nasa hospital na ko ngayon... suffering.... siguro if nangyari yun, hindi mo ko magaganto... hindi mo ko masasaktan.. wala ka sigurong magagawang dahilan para awayin ako ng walang kakwenta kwentang text! second was i was about to get off the jeepney then nasa gilid din kame ng road non dahil bababa nga ako... then this freakin fx, nakabuntot pa rin sa likod ng jeepney....pagkababa ko, as in ilang metro na lang ang natitira....eh mabilis pa naman ang pagpatakbo niya.. oh diba, what a day!!???!!!!!!!! shit happens... muntik na ko mamatay noh?? haha!!! 7 lives left.. (ano ko, pusa?) ^_^

geeezzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!what a nice day....

well.. to end this shit, i just wanna thank Lala, my bestfriend Maggie, Louie and Rey-my officemates, Jen, Kevin-my bestfriend's bf.... and to those people who cares about me...

I miss my old life... in IBM.. Jarvey was right.. what we have in eBay was the easiest job in all call centers........shit! I regret that I resigned there... But hopefully, i can still be with that company.. and I miss my previous wavemates....

~out~

LALA..

thanks for reading my entries... this is the only time that someone stranger reading my blog.. haha.. well, thanks for the advices.. this would be so hard for me facing my new life ALONE.... i know there are still people who loves me... like my friends and family... but the thing is... PILAY NA ANG BUHAY KO....

Nieko was a great help changing my life.. before, I feel that I am unwanted.. unpretty.. but when he came into my life, it started to change... pero siyempre, were not perfect... nagbabago rin lahat... maybe now, we are destined to separate muna.. magkaron ng space... i'm the one actually who asked him about it.. though its so hard for me to break up with him, i have to do it.. we both suffer from each others behavior... we both need some space.. to breathe new air... refresh.. unwind...

on July 28, 3rd anniversary na sana namen.. quite tough para iwan nalang basta yun diba??

kanina magkatext kame.. actually, una muna akong nagtext before I sleep.. umaga na ako nauwi from work eh.. I texted him like I was saying that I am still here for him.. that I still want him back.. or basta ayoko siyang mawala sa buhay ko.. kahit friends lang muna.. and then pagkagising ko, eto... bumungad sa kin ang napaka worst na text.. he said na we should break our communication at wala nang pakialamanan.. hindi niya alam yung sakit na nararamdaman ko everytime he says that stupid words! it makes me feel more na wala akong kwentang tao.. I cried... cried.. cried.. and cried.. at ngayon.. VWALA!!!!!! ang ganda ng eyes ko!!! namamaga!!!! pakshet...

pero in the end, naging maayos na rin... sa ngayon, though I still care for him, nandito na yung feeling na STOP MUNA TAYO AS FRIENDS.. DAHIL MAKAKATULONG SA TIN TO...

we have a lot of differences.. Cancer siya, ako Virgo.. which never been a COMPATIBLE partners in terms of relationship.. pero kahit ganun.. minahal pa rin namen ang isat isa... siyempre, love is ACCEPTING ONES FLAW....

Love... mahirap na masarap.... pero kapag kelangan na ni KUPIDO na magpahinga... kelangan na ring magpahinga ng puso namen... pakshet ang baduy ko! ......

but to tell you the truth, ayoko siyang mawala sa buhay ko... basta yun na yun.. maging kame man o hindi in the end, basta, ayokong mawala siya sa buhay ko..

~out~

nandito ako ngayon sa office.. napahatid ako sa bestfriend ko at sa bf niya..

nagpunta sila sa bahay dahil sa isang rason..

rason kung bakit ako umiiyak tuwing gabi..

rason kung bakit ako walang gana sa training..

rason kung bakit hindi na ko makapag isip ng tama sa lahat ng bagay..

rason kung bakit ang tingin ko sa sarili ko eh napaka walang kuwenta ko..

.......


hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko..

basta ang alam ko, nagmahal lang ako.
hindi mo naman ako kelangan pahirapan eh..
just tell me kung ano na ba ang gusto mo..
yung huling pagkikita natin nun, planado ko talagang magpunta sa inyo para lang makita kita.. napaiyak ako sa sobrang lungkot at pagka miss sayo.. tapos nakulitan ka lang sa kin sa text, ganun mo na lang ako kung murahin??..

ano na ba ang nangyari sayo?? ano na ba ang meron bakit mo ko ginaganito??

may nagtulak ba sayo para gawin lahat to??

sabihin mo lang, please naman..

kung sa tingin mo nahihirapan ka na,

eh ano pa kaya ang nararamdaman ko..

hindi ko na alam kung ano na ba tayo..

basta alam ko,

mahal kita kaya ganito ako..

pero please lang sabihin mo kung ano na ang gusto mo...

para alam ko kung ano na ang susunod kong gagawin..

mahal kita..

~out~

GUYS!!!! good news!! Im getting off MAKATI and moving to Alabang on Monday!! haha!! I got 86% as my final grade in CCT Training!! GOOD JOB!! ^_^

I gotta lot of things to say but.. I'll just summarize it..

First, I'm missing my Nieko... All the things I am doing is for him.. and also for my family.

ISOLATING MYSELF...

Guys.. hindi ko alam bakit ako nagiging ganito.. whenever I am in a group, at first, masaya ako... jolly, cheerful.. basta all happy!!!! pero kapag matagal na... wala na.. parang ina isolate ko ang sarili ko dahil parang na fee feel kong kakaiba ako sa kanila.... kaya nilalayo ko sarili ko.. parang ayokong masyadong mag stick at ma bond masyado ako sa kanila... Yeah, I am weird... pero ganun eh.. siguro nasanay lang kasi ako na kasama ko si Mark, my boyfriend na mas komportable akong kasama... na halos lahat na eh alam na namin anong meron sa isat isa...

I miss my Nieko... I love you asawa ko!!

~out~

TODAY IS NOT MY DAY!!!!

My gawd! Is it wrong to say that I was an agent before on that company when I contacted them??? I became irate because that agent just suddenly transferred me to her supervisor after saying that I should give her my contact information.

Then, Christian texted me telling "HEY, BAKIT KA NAGCHACHAT??".... Gawd.. eh I lost my password and username eh!!! Tsaka I was only proud to say that I am a former agent of that said account... F**K!

Then Christian said that I was the "topic" on the floor... WHAT THE HELL!!! I wasnt doing anything!! I just want to have my password and thats it!!! She dont have to transfer me!!??!!! RIGHT???!!!!!Thats why I became irate!! F**K!

Well, thanks Christian for informing me what happened....
I dont have any plans again of getting back to that company..

Anyways, lets change topic...

Im beginning to feel this illness everyday... I dont know why... I just dont feel fine as day goes by..

ewan ko....

Basta pipigilan ko na lang maging hot headed.. Im trying to be nice but i dont know why I am doing this to my life... Pero ewan ko...... PRANING........ sheesh!!!

We had this oral presentation a while ago and well, I can say that I wasnt prepared.. really... I have mistakes but not that much.. I had 3 pronunciation errors... Not bad.. but I have to improve it more...

I only had problems with the "at" and "on" making it sandwiched in one phrase... cant explain it here eh.. basta! the note is in my bag and kinda tired to get it... heheh...

out

GETTING USED TO IT...
You will often meet people who's friendly, frank, rude and ... "plastic".....
But me, being the baby of the family, I am more of pampering myself, making cracky jokes just to make papansin and all...
Here, in this profession, we should know how to mingle with other people who's as different as you are...
Yeah, I can be as friendly as you want..I can be frank and honest...But never.. NEVER WILL I BE RUDE with people whom I know that would make things worst...
Yeah, were not perfect...So to people whom I am not having the good vibes, "if you want to make my day rude, just dont say anything.... If you want to say things against me, tell it TO MY FACE"........
I am the pa tweetums...I love making myself being recognized as a jolly person..So dont ever, ever RUIN MY DAY!!!!!
If that's your "goal" each time we see each other, You may want to shit out of the room and be gone for decades!!!
I am so maldita.... Yeah, I can consider myself as a WAR FREAK...But hey, I am working on it..And trying to hide this urge of confronting people...
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I LOVE NIEKO....


N- never will I leave this man
I- I am deeply in love with him
E- Enough to tell everybody that I wanna spend the rest of my life with him
K- Kissable !! (yeah!)
O- Over protective... that makes me feel so secure... ^_^

I am listening to WILL YOU EVER LEARN by Typecast right now..

I can relate to this song..

"I did it all, all for you.. hoping you could see.."



"but you.. you think about yourself... only bout yourself..."


"unlonely nights, romantic moments... the love, the love, what about them.. throw it all away.."

I feel like crying...

I want to faint..

Im so cold...

I want him to show me how much he loves me..

how much he appreciates me..

---

Ang mahirap lang, Im still trying to give time for him though I am busy....

But he's not appreciating it....

What must I do??

Where else should I go???

Parang wala kang GF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lahat na ginagawa ko... pinipilit kong ma text ka kapag nakakatakas ng pag text mula dito sa kinauupuan ko! Pero ikaw?? May effort ka bang ginagawa???..........

Nahihirapan na ko sa ginagawa mo..

Im here in the office.. having our free time to surf other internet browser....

WHile listening to this song.. eto papatak na ang luha ko.....

hindi ko na kaya...

~Out~

falling in love

Falling in love is hard...
For love conquers all...
You have to give up on everything that you have
Just to be with the person you want/love..

It wont take you for like 1 day to realize
that he's the person you want
to be with for the rest of your life..

I, myself....
Honestly speaking,
Had a hard time to realize
that THIS PERSON IM WITH RIGHT NOW
Is worth having my heart..

Heartaches,
sleepless nights,
All of us of course have gone through with these..

But to tell you all,
I would sacrifice everything..
As in EVERYTHING
Just for my NIEKO...

I may not be the most beautiful girl,
I may not be the smartest,
but ....
I CAN BE HIS EVERYTHING for THE REST OF HIS LIFE......

My love for him is priceless...
His my PRECIOUS...

And I dont have to be bothered
because we're too far from each other..
Hey! We're still in the Philippines!
Its only 3 rides from his home getting to mine.

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I know this would be CHEESY for me to say but..............

I LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE...........

I love you NIEKO~

~out~

Why do these things have to happen.. Things happening so fast... same as before.....

Bakit may mga tao na hindi marunong makiramdam...

kahit lahat na ginagawa ko para sa kanya..

He's the center of my life...

But then, hindi niya ko mapahalagahan...

bakit sa dinami dami ng taong gagawa nito, yung mahal ko pa...

WHY??

Why do have to this to me?????
I have done everything,
I have given you everything..
But why cant you see me??
Why cant you focus on me??

Lagi ba magiging ganito??
Na ako lagi ang gumagawa ng effort for us to fix things???
Bakit ako lagi ang talo??
Bakit ako na lang lagi ang kailangang mahirapan??

I wanna be with you, not to make my life miserable..
I love you because I want to inspire my everyday life...
I wanted you, because I know you'll love me back..

I'd give up everything just for you..
I'd do anything just to make our relationship work...

Just show my worth...
Just give me signs that could make me feel that
you love me...
that you want me...
that you need me...

Its been 4 days since I started crying..
Started to finish this off..
BUT HELL NO!!!

I would not risk anything that could make us apart..
I love you so much Nieko....

Please show me how much you love me...

~out~

BEING MALDITA

I dont want to be like this...
I wasnt really like this... yah....really...
I didnt know what happened...


I might be like this.. puro hatred... Pero still... deep down inside of me, theres a bit LOVE growing..

alam ko, hindi naman lahat ng tao kaya akong pakibagayan... at para sabihin ko rin sa inyo, hindi lahat, kaya kong pakisamahan...

Oo, mabait ako kung sa mabait.. Pero pare, wag na wag mo ko pilitin na mag burst... dahil wala akong sinasanto.. wala akong pakialam ke anak ka nang presidente! Wala ko pakialam kung sino ka man basta paglalaban ko kung anong dapat meron akong ipaglaban!

At ikaw, akin ka lang! wag na wag ko nang malalaman na kinakausap mo ang kupal na yon dahil papatayin ko yon sa harap mo! tandaan mo yan!

Oo, ganito ako magsalita. bakit?eh sa galit ako eh! pakialam nila??

Cez, salamat pare ah!Hay nako.. salamat at nanjan ka para itext ako at icheck ako kung okay lang ako... hay! kakamiss ka.. ang mga IMC peeps... thanks for being there... grabe.. daming problems.. daming kakainis na mga tao.... daming daat banatan! hay! tara, isama kita...papatay tayo! wahaha!! ng daga! wahaha!!!!!!!!! just kidding...

Maane, pare! salamat sa lahat! sa mga hirit na walang kupas! sa mga payo mo.. hay nako.....alam mo ba na hindi lang ikaw ang nababaliw sa kakasabi na tigilan ko na ang pagiging ganito??.. wahaha!!! hay nako! basta salamat ha! alam ko naman na hindi nyo ko iiwan eh.. no matter what happen, andito lang din ako...

Jem, dude! hoy! hehe.. wala lang. pasensya na sa mga pag ddramang napaka tindi.. hay nako.. alam mo naman ako eh.. tsk... basta... alam ko naman na hindi niyo ko matitiis ni gela eh.. hehe.. kaya nga love na love ko kayo eh.. hay!

Micah, hey little sis ko..... salamat sa mga advices mo ah... hay! alam mo naman na ganto lang talaga ako eh... pero kahit nga ganito ang ugali ko, love ko naman ang kuya mo eh.. hay... kahit ilang beses pa kame mag away, hindi na ko papayag na maghiwalay pa kame.. hay!


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VOTE WISELY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Parang kelan lang nung hulingnakatapak ako ng public school sa may Bayan ng Sta. Rosa.... kung kelan kasama ko mga magulang ko... Na boboto kame sa mga pinili namen na mga politicians... Ngayon, panibago na naman.... Mas nakakatakot... Mas maraming panahon pa dapat ang pag ukulan....

Sa tingin niyo, lahat ba nang politicians at mga nagttrabaho sa gobyerno ay mga CORRUPT?? alam niyo ba na sa buong mundo ata or buong Asia, PILIPINAS NA ANG NUMBER ONE MOST CORRupT COUNtRY!!!!!!! asa!!!!!!! grabe nakakahiya! Tapos ang dami nilang ina advertise sa ibang bansa na parang napakaganda ng bansa natin... yah alam ko for tourism purposes yon.. Pero hinahayaan ng mga taong nakaupo sa gobyerno na ipahiya mismo ang bansa natin sa pagiging corrupt! Ang LUFEETTTTT NIYOOOOO GRABE!!!!

Sabihin na natin na maganda ang turismo sa bansa natin at madaming pera ang makakapasok dahil dito.... Mga peeps, maganda nga.. Pero tanawin mo ang lansangan sa bandang MAYNILA! ANG SIYUDAD, KAPITAL NG BUONG PILIPINAS!!!!!! ang daming nagkalat na mga taong nakatira sa kalsada!!!!! balikan natin ang napanood ko sa Iwitness kamakailan lang... yung mga taong galing Marinduque... yung mga tira tirang pagkain galing fast food chains na galing na sa basurahan ang kinukuha nila para gawing BATCHOY..... at eto pa, mas pinili nila dito manirahan... dahil sa probinsya nila, puro saging lang ang nahihita nila! Dahil sa siyudad, nakaka palimos sila at eto na ang hanap buhay nila... eh sa probinsya, wala!!!!

Eto na ang sinasabi ko na level ng turismo.. yung kung saan maraming dadayo, doon lang nag fofocus ang mga nakaupong OPISYAL! guys, naramdaman niyo na bang mamuhay ng matagal sa probinsya?? yung as in walang kuryente, wlang tv.... nag iigib lang sa poso.... naranasan ko na yun.. at alam ko kung gaano kahirap mamuhay sa ganitong sitwasyon...

Pero naisip ko na kung eto na naranasan ko eh mahirap, what more pa kaya sa lugar sa bundok na hindi na nadadayo ng mga politicians??.... na may nagiging bayani na doon para lang maging organize ang barangay nila??...maraming bayaning pare, madre at teacher sa mga liblib na bundok na tulad ng sinasabi ko.... na hindi man lang pinakikinggan ng mga OPISYALES.....

Madaming dada lang naman ang mga pulitiko eh.. hanggang sa umpisa lang may pinakikitang gilas.... pero saan ka!?!?!?! ...oo nga at napakaganda ng turismo sa Pinas... marami nman ang naghihirap dahil sa taas ng mga bilihin! marami pang namamalimos! mga walang matirhan! mga taong naghihirap at nagtitiis mamuhay sa kabundukan!... mga batang hindi alam ng gobyerno na sila ay kabilang pala sa dapat marehistro sa bansa!.......

Kaya mga peepz, vote wisely... sabi nga sa commercial.. "SISIGURADUHIN KONG MABIBILANG ANG ISA KONG BOTO...."

~OUT~

POta! nawalan ako nang gana mag post! Tang ina naman talaga!!! nanghihina ako! PUTANG INA TALAGA!!

STARTING A NEW LIFE

Marck 22, 2007- I have finished my degree of Broadcast Journalism at De La Salle University- Dasmariñas.... It was held in PICC at exactly 830am.. great that Abbie was there ^_^

Starting a new life...
New struggles..
New trials...
New people..
New environment..

This is not the end rather a beginning of my new chapter of life...

DREAMING.... the best armor of facing the reality.... Jot down your plans for the future.. And try to achieve it... but dont take things in rush... Just believe in yourself...

Also, I have learned that working and having your salary every 15th and 30th of the month doesnt mean that you are already successful... Money... a sinful thing..

For me, when we say that we are successful, you have your own family, in your own house, filled with love... raising your own career with your goals in life...

Today, I have finished my college life... By April 19- I'll be starting my training in Makati for 2 weeks.... Hope it would be as easy as I had with my former employer...

To all the graduates.. Congrats!!!

Thanks peepz!!!

love you nieko!

~out~

DAMING PROBLEMS PERO DAPAT SMILE PA RIN

Hi guys... ngayon lang ulit ako nakapag post. hmm.. dami akong dapat sabihin... madaming dapat ilagay na hinaing... pero hindi pa ko makapag focus alin ang dapat unahin...

Pero eto na lang....

Kahapon, mass na namen for graduation... I was with my mother, my 3 pamangkins and Mark.. But before that day, sobrang daming nangyari sa bahay.. nandyan na yung away namen ng parents ko dahil sa pagtatalo nang isusuot ko.. Nandyan na yung naisip ko na BAKIT BA KO PINANGANAK SA MAHIRAP NA BUHAY?? Pero later naisip ko, bakit ako magrereklamo eh lahat naman ng to eh pinaghirapan ng magulang ko at paghihirap kong makapagtapos. WIthout my parents, I wouldnt even be here... Kaya gusto ko ring magpasalamat sa kanila.. Though may sama pa rin ako ng loob sa tatay ko. Till now hindi ko pa rin ma feel yung excitement niya sa pag graduate ko. Let's just say na siguro wala lang siyang way para maparamdam yun.. Pero syempre nakakasama pa rin ng loob yun.. Dahil puro gastos, puro labas ng pera.. Alam niyo ba na yung susuutin ko na dress at yung suot ko kahapon eh luma na?? Well, okay lang sana yun.. Pero basta! Madami pang issue about that stuff... Nakakatuwa lang dahil sa pag ddiet ko, masusuot ko pa yung dress na ginamit ko when I had my Junior prom... oh diba COOL???? kasya pa rin sakin! hahah!! dahil sa pag diet....


Gusto ko lang magpasalamat sa mga taong naging part nang buhay ko... mga elementary classmates ko na until now eh may communication pa rin at friends forever pa rin. wahaha, baduy ko! Maane, pare! thanks sa mga advice! sobrang love kita! Two thums up ako sayo kasi youre so strong despite of all the trials youre having right now! Keep it cool man! ^_^


To my bestfriend Maggie, thanks sa lahat! Grabe, kung alam ng lahat yung mga napag daanan natin noh? haha!!! ang dami, as in ang dami! Masaya at hindi maganda... Pero ang mahalaga, nandito pa rin tayo, kahit minsan na lang tayo makapag usap, we still care about each other. Basta! No matter what happens, kaw lang bestfriend ever ko! Mga pare, mare, alam niyo ba na 16 years na kameng mag bestfriend ni Maggie! ^_^ Im so proud to tell that! ^_^

Nieko, malapit na tayong mag 3 years this July... sobrang thankful ako kasi nanjan ka pa rin kahit almost 7 months tayong wala... Thank you sobrang sobra dahil mahal na mahal mo pa rin ako! Mahal na mahal kita! ikaw ang buhay ko! Sobrang walang makakapantay ng love and dedication mo sa kin... as in! Thanks po NIEKO!!!!!!!!!! Lahat lahat gagawin ko para sa future natin! Magsstrive hard ako sobrang sobra para hindi tayo maghirap sa future natin! Im so lucky to have you Nieko! Mahal na mahal kita!

Okay guys... later na lang ako ulit magpopost...... nagtext si Nieko, punta daw kame sa UMC ni Joseph, papakilala kame sa mommy niya! waaaaa!!!!!!!!! kakatakot at the same time kaka excite! waa!! ^_^ mwah! love you all!

ABBIE!!!!! BEFORE I FORGOT!!!!!! HEY! IM SO HAPPY THAT YOU ARE HERE NA FOR OUR GRADUATION! YAHOO!!! BUHAY NA NAMAN ANG FP! I LOVE YOU FOCAL POINT!!!!! MWAH!!!!


~out~

Selfish

I cant explain how to tell you guys how I love Nieko so much.... That I will never let anyone get his attention.. as in no one could take his time, take his attention away from me.. UNDERSTOOD?? So what if you dont care about me you freak.. the hell I care for you, too anyway??!!!! You are just nobody! Got that?? NOBODY!

So dont shit on me coz I aint doing wrong! Dont ever tell me to shut up coz youre just a freak, got that??

3 years na kame ni Mark this July... So I was the first one to have him... NOT YOU! If you have any problems with me, well go ahead! Tell it to my face you dumb pig faced man! Euw!!!!!!!!!

Mark and I will be together in a few months! I swear we will earn money for our future.. This April, I will start my work in Convergys...... Hopefully Mark can get his own work, too...

Getting back with the topic.. Pig faced, dont ever ever tell me to shut up coz the hell I care with you?? Close tayo?? huh?? I was just asking if you were together that night! Dumbfacedpig! GRRR!!!!!!!!!!

~out~

That's LIFE!!!!!

How can we say that we are having a great life????

Have you asked yourself about it??

Bakit kelangan may mga taong hindi pa rin alam ang kahalagahan ng buhay?

Bakit lagi na lang may mga naghihirap?

Bakit may mga taong sagana sa saya.. sagana sa yaman..

Hanggang sa may makita kang mga tao na patuloy na naghihirap at nagdudusa...

I have watched I WITNESS last MondayFeb.19... Its about a family living with a weird kind of status in life. Basta.. ang weird dahil lahat sila, parang walang patutunguhan.... kawawa ang batang si EKANG... na isa sa pinaka bata sa pamilya..

Sana sa mga makakabasa neto, please see to it na pinapahalagahan niyo ang buhay niyo. gawin niyong makabuluhan....

wag niyong aksayahin ang bawat oras ...

gawin niyong masaya... dahil masarap mabuhay.. di natin alam kung hanggang saan na lang tayo..

~out~

THANKS!!!!!

Hey Im back guys! At last, all of my worries are gone now! I just finished my final requirement for my OJT yesterday. I would like to thank Mark for helping me with it! You're so great! I love you! ^_^

I wanna say thank you to all the people who inspired me getting all these things done. Mark, thank you for being there for me. I know you still doubt my love for you.. But I'm telling the truth. Yeah I have hurt you so many times but please forget those stupid things Ive done. Just please give me more time to freshen up and change my attitude.. Pero please, makibagay ka rin naman sa kin.. Dont tease me or anything that would hurt my feelings please!!!!! Yan, nabubugbog tuloy kita.

Weird reasons why I still wanna stay friends with you:
1. Weve been together for like 2 years
2. You know all about me
3. Youve been my bestfriend, brother and a father to me
4. You know how to make me laugh
5. You know how to make me feel sad and angry
6. You were the first guy I cried so hard when we broke up
7. You were the first guy I almost die whenever we fought
8. You know how to make me fall asleep while I sit on your lap and bend on your shoulder
9. We both know how much food we can eat
10. God knows how much I love you..................................................................


Mark, I know weve been through a lot of pain... But things change, so are we.. But my feelings for will never fade. Yup I know I am so selfish.. I only think for my own sake. Pero kahit nagkaron tayo ng gap, my feelings never fade. I swear! Hay! I do wish na maniwala ka sa kin. I miss you so much... And I am so happy that weve spent the whole night together making "lambing lambing"... Hay! Thanks sa lahat lahat ng sacrifice mo para sa kin. Lahat na napatunayan mo na sa kin.. Hay... Just give me space para maging maayos na ako.. I promise I'll marry you kapag wala ka ang girlfriend.

I love you....

OKAY BA????

formal shot ko of my graduation picture

pinanindigang Indian talaga

Partida, yung formal shot ko, umiyak pa ko bago nagpa picture. haha!!!!

Hi guys! Andito ako sa dasma. Nagbayad ako kahapon ng tuition fee ko eh.. heheh.. Tapos ngayon nagpasukat na ko ng toga! Nice! hehe.. astig! feel na feel ko nga eh.. hehehe!! ^_^ umm nagkita rin pala kame ni Joey sa Apt. nagpunta kasi ako dun, tapos sabay kame nag lunch din.. Takaw nga namen eh.. Medyo hindi kame nakapag usap kasi may "ilang" effect sa min. Ewan ko ba. Totoo lang, I still love him.. Hindi ko naman agad makakalimutan yung napagsamahan namen eh. Tska 10 months ko na siyang mahal. Waa! Pero eto, bigo pa rin.. wala naman ako magagawa kung hanggang dun na lang kame. Pero eto lang masasabi ko, Love ko pa rin si Pyar.. Yun lang. Hay!

Hirap nang ganito.. Pretending to be fine pero sa loob loob ko, wala na, bagsak na.. Hirap talaga...

At eto pa, namimiss ko rin si mark.. Pero wala na, hanggang dun na lang din talaga kame.. Mahirap kung pareho namen issacrifice yung relationship kasi lagi kameng nagaaway..

Buhay nga naman! Reality bites.. Hay nako...

~out~