okay.... i think i really have these feelings for ..... EHERM.... basta.... i wanna see him pero he doesnt go to the canteen.. mmm... sayang.. and im in the stall na parati kasi i have to control my YOSI habit.. EEUUWWW......

napasaya ko si Abbie and Andrew kagabi kasi i was immitating how Andrew walks.. and I was jumping and running like a litle kid .. reminded abbie the moment when Alex and I were still .. EHERM.... hmm.... im hapy for Alex and Jem .... mabuti na yung mag move on kesa naman sa pahirapan ko pa sarili ko rty??... sino bang maaapektuhan??...

GUYS!!!!
grabe! naka shoot ako ng ball yesterday!! the ring was on my back and i just threw the ball up then ka shoot na siya!!!! YEHEY!!!!! we screamed like hell kasi we got 2 points for it.. HEHEHEH..... PROUD~~~~

grabe guys.. nakakahiya ako ngayong araw na to.. heheheh.. sumthin happened in my dorm(room cr ko).. tapos kanina naman sa canteen, when i sat, shocks.. my butt was wet! eeww.. its not my pee okay??! may basa lang talaga sa chair.. tapos kanina sa may kainan namin, may cute guy akong nakita tapos hindi ko alam, kinakausap na pala ako.. nanghihiram siya ng pepper tapos hindi ko siya pinapansin.. ang baho kasi!! and i was like.... "what the!! ang baho!!" with my face na nakaka irita.. kahiya talaga sa guy.. natawa pa nga siya sa kin eh.......

~out~

teka...

i think... im ... in .... CRUSH!! ^_^

TIRED
Linda Barcelo


I’m tired of wearing masks,
I’m tired of being patient,
I’m tired of dreaming of you,
I’m a little stupid so don’t ask.

I’m tired of hiding,
I’m tired of thinking,
Still don’t know how to say my feelings,
All I’ve wanted is for you to feel the same thing.

I’m tired of watching,
I’m tired of smiling,
I’m tired of sitting,
The heck, but I’m still waiting!

It’s tiring to say, “I’m okay”,
I’m tired being okay.
Of course you know that I am not,
Come on, you also feel I’m not al right.

I’m tired being jealous
But I’m tired being too serious.
I’m tired being just your friend,
After all that you’ve said.

I’m tired of being blind,
And I still want to fight.
I’ll try again and give my best,
Just to show you what I meant.

my reed exam was very easy! ewan ko ba kung bakit pa ko nag kandahirap na mag review.. heheheh.. pero ayos lang.. kayang kaya naman eh..


pagkauwi ko dito sa dorm, i worked with my take home exam in Litt then after that, i slept for 1 1/2 hr! then i ate with my room mates.. aah.. nakaka miss sila.. ang saya nga eh! para talaga kaming magkakapatid.. parang hindi nakakasawang kausapin sila kasi laging tumatawa.. tska madami akong bagong nalalaman about sa buhay nila.. how i wish na magtuloy tuloy ang pag do dorm nila.. sana nga.. :D

i have to study later in Art App! buysit talaga yun.. baka hindi na ko umabot ng buhay bukas pag nag take kami ng exam!! (exagge)..

goodluck na lang sa inyong lahat ah!

hi everyone.. just got here from my house.. uhh, miss ko na Bhebiko.. nakikipaglaro pa ko sa kanya kanina sa garden.. uhh.. :(

advance happy valentine's na lang .....

jan.30,2004 (09:45pm) house

im here at my room finishing my report for Comm Theory. Hope i'll report it nicely tomorrow! :)

aahh.. miss ko na Bhebi Ko.. kaya nung nakita ko agad siya sa may gate ng bahay namin, binuhat ko agad siya! ang cute cute talaga ng puppy ko!! tapos ang bango pa ng breath niya..amoy milk pa rin. ngayon nga nasa labas na siya ng house, nag iingay kasi kaya he's with my other dogs outside. He's name is Cuddly.. cute noh? ang true name niya( according to the real owner) Daomingsui raw.

last week, grabe, dami kong binitbit na kakainis na pangyayari! eewww!!!!'

first, monday, i saw my ex. well, im not saying na siya yung eeww, pero yung point that i saw my ex though were friends irita pa rin ako.sama ko noh? ewan ko kung bakit ayaw ko siyang makita.

second, wednesday, i saw my "faceparty" friend named Gary or Chris or Christopher or WHATEVER !!! eeww!! siya talaga ang eeww!! as in! i thought he was cute!! kaya nga maraming naaaksidente sa AKALA eh! putik, he's 27 years old! damn! sana alam ko diba? well, he's nice naman.. lahat naman tayo nice to everybody diba? pero hindi ko siya nagustuhan..

third, i saw alex with his friend at the canteen finding some one around also inside the place. tapos mayamaya, i saw him na with group of friends at nakita ko si Jan and so maybe Jem was there with Alex na! eewww... =) heheheh.. oi, hindi na ko affected huh! inis pa rin siguro ako talaga!! ;(

yun lang po....

wala lang.. just researching for my report....

Ben came and they are at Ed's place.. ayoko lang namang mag pa ka plastic so i went out na.. its boring there... they all know that(BORING)...

i talked to "chris" from my faceparty friend then we settled a date on wed! yehey! at last, im gonna have a date! shocks! well, his voice sounds nice thats why i was kinda kilig when were talking.. ope he's cute.. :)

about today, i reported VICTOR HUGO on my WORLD LITT.. heheheh, my prof's funny.. we had fun!! :D with my report.. WORD!

then... wala na!! nothing happened on this day..

I MISSED BHEBI KO..... :(

hi guys.. im here at Nebo with our matron(julie).. i went to ed's place with abbie then naabutan namin sila andrew, ed and karl. dman! inggit ako! wish i also have a bf.. umm... :( wawa naman ako.......

"The Last Song"

This may be the last thing that i write for long
Can you hear me smiling when i sing this song, for you and only you

As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now

You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
Is this what you need, how you end up let me know.

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when
I'm gone
This is the last song

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.
Somehow I knew that it would be this way,
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade.
Now i'm gone, just try and stop me now.

You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
Is this what you need, how you end up let me know.

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when
I'm gone
This is the last song

And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow
You want it too, I want it too.

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when
I'm gone
This is the last song

~FUCK THEM ALL~

just hanging around here outside with out any body else .. nagtext si abbie sa kin but i cannot reply kasi wala na akong load.. tapos ngayon.. eto pa.. problema kay kapatid sa dorm.. haaay..... nalulungkot na nga ako, tapos ganun ba ang sumalubong sa kin..

hindi kasi niya ako pinansin nung nagkita kami eh... kaya eto.. i cant take looking at them without her saying a word.. hindi ko nga alam kung may nagawa akong mali eh..

sana nasa mall na lang ako with my tropa.. or sana kausap ko na lang si maggie sa phone ngayon or nasa labas kami para magkuwentuhan.. :( miss ko nang maging masaya..

HI guys!! im gonna sleep here this friday in my dorm.. sad kasi wala akong kasama sa loob and hindi ko rin makikita agad ang parents ko..

si abbie, ayon, still sad..... wala na nga akong maibigay na advice kasi lahat na kaming tropa nagtutulong tulong eh..

tapos ako... eto.. buhay pa rin naman.... bukas, were going to tagaytay.. mag pi picture ulit kami for that dammit PROJECT sa walang kuwentang art app!

~sana lang.....~

hi guys.. im here in cyber with abbie.. were just waiting for the guys coz were going to studio... i dont feel like going bt abbie's the only gurl so i have to be with them..

well.... i cried kanina coz i wasnt able to report my assigned topic.. well, i have it in my hand but the thing was.. i researched on a wrong topic. haaay........

visit my other blogs.. i have posted something about what i feel.....

testing...

hi again guys!! happy 11 month anniversary!! ^_^ saya noh? ang bilis ng taon.. next month 1 year na tyo!! haaay.. at sana this June, dito pa rin ako mag aral sa school..

miss ko na ang tropa kaya nakipag tambayan na ako kanina sa canteen. kaso medyo kinailangan kong umalis agad kasi magpapa credit pa ko sa mga Chairs ng departments. sorry abbie kung umalis na agad ako ha..

guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ciao!

hi guys!! i made this template!! galing ko noh??!!! heheheh..

just worried with my grades.. sana po makagawa ako ng way to make it increase again!!! ill die! i swear!!

i wanna say sorry to those people last night sa pagiging suplada ko. medyo nagka problem kasi ako, pero alam ko, magiging okay na yon. george, thanks for the talk... alam kong naiintindihan mo ako, and i am so glad knowing that you care.

i wasnt able to come with you sa tagaytay dahil wala na akong pera.. another reason, walang kasama sa dorm si cez, at naguguluhan pa ako till now..

hope you enjoy it! i know you will.........................

take carez .............

guys.. i just realize that i still have to go on with my life. kahit wala na yung taong dating pinaka importante sayo, you have to get up and show everybody that you can live with out any one(GUY LOVER). ako, masaya na ako, at least, i experienced love and to be loved, than never love at all(cliche)..... nalaman ko na siguro kaya niya nakita yung gurl kahit nasa kin pa siya kasi siya talaga ang para sa gurl na yon.. tanggap na ko na na hindi pa talaga ako dapat tumanggap ng lalake.. pero siyempre, hindi ko maiwasang maghanap at mainip. mainggit kapag may nakikitang sweet na lovers. napapailing na lang ako pag naaalala ko yung isang taong iniwan ko though i know that he's really in love with me.. iniwan ko yung guy na yon para sa last guy na super minahal ko na hindi ko aakalaing iiwan din ako. katangahan ko, pinagpalit kong lahat basta matanggap lang siya nang lahat..

pero okay na rin ako ngayon... IM BETTER OFF ALONE...

Don't Stay
Sometimes I
Need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I
Need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I'm
In disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I
Need you to go

Sometimes I
Feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I
Just feel like screaming at myself
Somestimes I'm
In Disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I
Need to be alone

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
[Just give me myself back and]
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
[Just give me myself back and]
Don't Stay

I don't need you anymore
I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day
Of you wasting me away

With no apologies

Notes:Mike and Brad's original guitar parts for this song had a reggae-style vibe. After numerous transformations (probably five or six different guitar variations), Brad developed the final recorded version. Under the working title "Sick", this song was one of the first tracks finished for this album... notably, Joe recorded the opening scratch solo on the first take.

ERASING THE PAST


"love your self before you love the others"................ whoah! how am i gonna ove myself if im always LONELY??.... i feel ugly you know! why is there such word as LOVE when i dont even know how to love myself and what's the meaning of it?!the heck!