my IBM wave 8 Family

How I miss these people so much!! They were my first family in this industry... They were the one who pampered me a lot! haha! Ako ang baby ng mga to eh. ^_^


I'm missing Carlo, my "kuya" in the house...Siya yung lagi kong kasama sa labas kapag sabay kame ng break.. He sings para sa kin pang trip lang kasabay ng mp3 niya sa phone.. He has a great voice..


Mga tropa like Cindy, Macor, Ana, Czar, Butch,Ghing, ate pam, ate phat.. and the boys Bien, Christian, Murks.... PARE!! miss ko na kayong lahat!!


To my close friends Aiza, May, mommy Mitch, Gail... uh-0h I forgot the other lady in the corner..

And also to my very best beltbagbaby buddy, Pete aka Pedro.... S*hit man!!! Miss na kita!!! The advices, yung yosi breaks.... all the bonding moments that we had!! I'm missing that so much!!


I remembered when Pedro noticed my flowerful sweater.. haha!! kalalaking tao, nagandahan sa sweater kong puro flowers.. and actually, I'm wearing it right now. hehe.. ^_^


I also miss other people in IBM.. TEAM MONSTERS!!! Go Go Go!!


JARVEY!


TL INA!!!


my team mates!! Si Mike na laging nakikigaya ng astig na expression namen ni Pedro! haha!! SI Kuya Jesse, na napaka kulit!!! Mahilig sa babae!! Wahaha!!


Para sa mga trainers like Nadj for our VA Training, Sachin for our Prod. Training, and Kuya Lao and Kuya Macoy for our Nesting!! ^_^ Whoohoo!! two thumbs up!!!!!!!!! I miss you all!!!! Thanks to you because you made me like this!! ^_^ at nag ggrow na! ^_^


Hay..... I'll be posting something naman dito about my other wave here in Convergys.. I just have to save pictures.. hehe.. unfortunately hindi ako makapag save dito eh. hmmm....


So, see yah then guys!

Hope you liked my posts. hehe..




~out~

"GLOBE CUSTOMER SERVICE SUCKS!!!"

I may be too harsh saying that GLOBE's cust care service suck..

Lagi mo na lang maririnig sa kanila na

"I do apologize for the inconvenience.."

" we are having slow response from our system"

WTF!!!! So what's the point having IT in your office F*CKERS!!!! It's so annoying to hear representatives in globe cust serv saying these shits!

If you are having slow response, then why update it!?!?!!!! shit! nakakairita! Pinapaasa nila ang mga valued customers na from the very start eh mga GLOBE subscribers.... just like MOI!

My bestfriend texted me and she was complaining about her registration for unlimited text.. her load was deducted twice or thrice.. and she wasted for P60.00 already yet she doesnt have unlimited text... then she reported it already... Due to my concern, siyempre I called globe cust care din.. siyempre were are talking MONEY here...

I understand that its not the agent's fault... but saying these freakin SPIELS that their system is having a slow response???? ITS NOT A VALID REASON!!!

Me, myself is an agent for like 7 months already.. Been to IBM eBay account for 5 months and here in Convergys for 2 months... but we never tell the customers that were having diffulties in the system because it would make them IRATE... GETS??

So why these people keep telling us that SHIT!

Before, I encountered that also na na deduct yung load ko.. Its only P20 but the thing is, mahirap pa rin ang pera at big amount na rin yun! pera rin yun na binibigay natin sa GLOBE!

BULL*HIT!!!!

Pero nakaganti na rin naman ako eh.. I am really one of the IRATE callers in GLOBE FYI..haha!!! lagi ko sila inaaway dahil nakakairita sila!!! bwahaha!!!! nakaganti na rin ako dahil from P20 ata to P60.00, yung load ko, binigay nila sa kin, naging P100+!! astig diba?? haha!!

O sige na guys! GTG!!! my friend's calling me to get some sleep na.. dito kame office eh.. CIAO!!

~out~

HUNNYBUN!!!!!!!! CORNFLAKES!!!

Weee!!!!!! post ako about my sister's post sa blog niya.. haha!!! natatawa ko kapag tinatawag niya kong hunnybun.. pero ang KORNY!!! MARUNONG! hahaha!!!! hay... may nagsabi kasi sa kanya na dapat maging corny ka para maparamdam mong mahal mo yung isang tao.. well, like what I have told her, siguro in some ways you have to be KORNY.. pero I prefer BADUY rather than saying corny.... right???

yan tuloy, dahil sa may nagsabi sa kanya that she has to be so korny, aba ang bestfriend ko, naging over super KORNY to the MAX!!!!!! tawagin daw ba kong hunnybun cornflakes and EVERYTHING!! grabe ka naman sister!!! hahaha!!!

Para sa kin, baduy ang tawag dun.. pero you shouldnt think na parang "I SHOULD BE BADUY!!! FOR MAKE HIM FEEL THAT I LOVE HIM".. or something... ang akin lang, nangyayari na lang yung pagiging baduy mo diba??.... hindi mo nahahalata na AY BADUY NA PALA AKO....

ang korny tuloy ng bestfriend ko ngayon! uber!!!!! grabe talaga! as in to the highest LEVEL! haha!!! kung ano ano na ang nalabas sa bibig niya! ARE YOU POSSESSED?? hahah!! ^_^ naku!!! sis baka nahawa ka na sa kakornyhan! waaaa!!!!!! isusuka kita sige ka! haha!!


ayun sis! natandaan ko na!! MAXI!! yun yung name nung isa pang cornic na matamis pero masarap!! haha!! ^_^ fave ko din yun!!! hehe.. ^_^ PWEDE DINGDONG?? hehe.. Para ORIG..

natuwa ako sa text ng bestfriend ko kasi we were just talking a while ago about sa pagttext ng friend niya sa bf niya.. eh hindi naman siya ang type ng girl na selosa.... eh ako ang opposite niya.. kahit siguro sa kanya, kapag may iba siyang naging ka close, magseselos ako...

As I was saying, natuwa ako when she told me na kapag magkatext sila ng "ex" ko, tinetext daw sa kanya na magkasama kame, nagtatanong siya ng mga love songs..... siguro yun yung time na bibigyan pa lang niya ko ng CD.. kaka touch naman..... sabi pa ng bestfriend ko na love talaga ako ni Mark.. well, given na yun.. kaso..... sabi ko nga, nadala ako nung dati na nag break kame, yung madami siyang nakakatext, daming nagpapa cute... nanlalandi... eh ayun, parang feeling ko, nilalandi pa rin siya ng mga nagtetext sa kanya... hay.. pero sabi naman niya, kapag may nakita ako na nagtext sa kanya, wag ako mag isip ng kung ano... eh ano ba dapat ang isipin ko?? wala lang?? .... malay ko!!!!

waaa!!! inuubo na ko!!! YOSI PA!!!! haha!!!

Sis!! wala na ko unli! 1 day lang kasi ang ni register ko.. kasi alam ko, nireg lang ni Mark eh for 1 day lang din... Uuuuyy.. hehe.. para pala sa kanya yung pag unli ko.. yeeeeehh!! ^_^

UMANDAR ANG PAGIGING MALDITA

naikuwento ko sa bestfriend ko nung umandar ang pagiging maldita ko .. eh totoong maldita ako eh. haha!!! kasi ganto, nasakay kasi ako sa jeep pag pupunta dito sa office.. eh sabi ko nga, may pagka siga ako at boyish, mataray at suplada pa ang personalities ko..

nung sumakay ako sa jeep, nakakainis yung dispatcher! eh di susuklian na ako.. tapos nakapagtanong na siya sa kin kung may bente ata ako.. basta.. eh nasagot ko na... tinanong pa ulit ako! eh kakainis yung paulit ulit!.. eh di ONE POINT na for being MALDITA... TWO POINTS---- nung sasakay ako na 1k ang pera ko.. eh tinanong ko siya ng maayos kung may pangsukli siya.. aba parang inuutusan ako na ipapalit ko raw. eh wala nga eh! dapat yun ang ipangbabayad ko sa 711, eh wala rin.. HELLO???!!!! ako pa ang magpapapalit eh ako CUSTOMER sa jeep!??!!! ano trabaho niya?? HALER!!!! eh di 2 points na diba?? binara bara ko talaga siya.. ayun, may lalake na pinalitan ng tig 500 yung pera ko.. saka ako nakasakay.. para kasing tanga, ano yun, hindi na ko makakasakay unless may barya ako?? eh pano kung wala talagang barya?? TANGA! at habang naniningil siya, nagpapa cute yung mukhang masculados na lalakeng nagpapalit ng pera ko! IRAPAN KO NGA! TAE! mas macho pa ko sa kanya! wahaha!!!

ika 3 points----- okay na sana eh... pero naalala ako nung gagong dispatcher na yun.. sabi ba naman dun sa driver na nasa labas ng jeep, "ay, ayun yung mataray! naaalala ko na"..... AMPOTZ.. MATARAY PALA HA! sana MALDITA na lang sinabi niya! eh naginit ang dugo ko.. BIONIC EARS to DODONG!!!!!!

sa sobrang inis ko.. haha!! naisip ko, "eh kung matisod kita kaya!"..... AND I DID!! haha!! muntik na siyang tumilapon sa labas! kasi nagmamadali siya nung bumaba.. eh tamang na timing sa paa ko paa niya! hahahah!!! talon sa labas ang mokong! wahaha! tawa pa siya! saka ko natawa pag baba niya. hehehe!! maldita noh?? hehe... ganun ako ka gago sa mga taong gago sa kin! hahah!! GAGUHAN TAYO!!!!

CHEERS!!!

ANG BABAENG LALAKE

Hahah!! kulit ng mga tropapitz ko sa kabilang wave.. almost guys dun.. pero may mga friends din ako na gurls, iilan lang ang babae sa kanila.. mga inaasar ako, babaeng may lawit daw ako! wahaha!!!! bakit ganun, mostly mga guys ang impression sa kin eh tomboy ako. wahaha!! well, hindi naman, boyish lang... eh kasi nung bata pa ko, ikaw na mahilig maglaro ng toy gun! heheh.. tapos pag nagwiwiwi ako nung bata pa ko, feeling ko lalake ako, nakatayo ako.. hahah!! pero that was before ha!! hindi na ngayon. heheh.. ^_^ kilos lalake lang ako.. yun ang pagtraydor ko sa mga tao.. haha!! para matakot sila sa kin.. siyempre, first impression lasts... diba?? heheh... ^_^ pero I assure you guys! BABAE AKO!!!! My gawd!!!

Hay!!! I havent told you guys that I was late yesterday.. eh nandito na ko sa office para matulog at 10pm! eh hindi ako agad nakatulog. ayun! akala ko 4am pa lang.. humabol pa ko... yun pala 5am na! wa! MARUNONG! Ayun, nageexam pala... nag take na rin ako ng exam. haha! walang pumapasok sa utak ko! weheh..

kanina... walang kwenta ang calls ko.. puro mga tae ang mga naka usap ko.. mga demanding.. well, hopefully mya, ayus ang mga calls ko... PUNYETA! nakaka praning!!!! wahaha! ^_^

YOSI MUNA KO MGA GUYS!!!

~out~

" I HATE HIM FOR MAKING ME CRY..BUT I HATE HIM EVEN MORE FOR NOT MAKING ME HATE HIM AT ALL.. "

What a nice title right?? This isnt mine..

I was texting a friend yesterday.. and we were talking about her relationship with her bf..

wala lang.. I was just giving her advices.. as if I'm having a perfect lovelife! hehe.. basta... ang galing ko magbigay ng advices sa iba pero pag dating sa kin, walang kwenta.. hay!

yung friend ko, TRUST ang nawala.. mmm..... parang OUCH! oo, ganun din ang nangyari sa amin ng ex ko.... nawala ang trust niya sa kin.. at kahit kame pa rin noon, parang wala na ring kwenta.. parang nagiba na yung pakikitungo niya sa kin.. hmmm.....

What I liked about this girl is that she's able to hide what she feels.. unlike me, eto, pag may nararamdaman, laging nagpapa apekto.. eh eto ako eh.. maarte.. emo.. hehe.. dramatic actress ampotz!!

The good news is that they're doing just fine now.. they both are my good friends and I am happy seeing them happy together.. if in any case they would encounter another problem, Im always here to give a hand.. ^_^ that's what friends are for, right?? hehe..

"NAKAKAHIIYA KA! MAY PICTURE KA SA ROOM 10!"

My oh my!! kakahiya nung narinig ko from Paul na may pictures ako sa Insular! Room 10, dun ako nag CCT before!! Shoot!!!! No way! Yung mga pictures na sinabi niyang nakasave dun, its impossible na ako ang mag save dun dahil matagal ng nakasave sa RIPWAY.COM ko yun!!!!! Why should I still save those pictures if I already did save it from a website.. hay! kakahiya! pinagkaguluhan daw! NYAY!!!!

PAUL!!! please naman pare!!!!! burahin mo na yun!! HUHUHUHUH!!!!!!!!

life is too short..

Life... hay!!! ang bilis ng buhay noh??.... Kakalibing lang sa papa ni Mark kaninang umaga.. And oh, I forgot to tell you guys that I went there in Dasmariñas para mag attend sa burial.. last day na yun, buti nakahabol pa ko... Hay! Ang sweet namen ni Mark. haha!! pinakilala pa niya ko sa mga relatives niya.. sweet!! ^_^ Hay! sinubuan pa ko ng brownies.. kulet! hehe.. that made me to feel KILIG noh! ^_^ tinukso pa nga kame ng tito niya. heheh.. ^_^

we had a chance to talk and have our "moment" when we went to their house for me to get some sleep.. haha!!! he's SUPER SWEET!! DAMN! I really miss that guy so much!!!

Life is too short.. Like what I wrote as the title of this post, if and only if I have to die today........ ayokong magkaron ako ng REGRET in then end na hindi ko naparamdam sa taong mahal ko na kinalimutan ko siya.. kaya nung magkasama kame, I gave my best to make him feel that I do love him..

pero hindi yung "sweetness" ha... yung ugali ko nung gf pa niya ko.. yung over protective, jealous.. haha!!! nakikita kong hawak niya lage ang phone niya, galit na galit ako non! minumura ko na siya! haha!! SELOS!!! hehe.. damot ako sa atensyon eh. Gusto ko ako lang.... kahit na sino pa man yung katext niya na yun! Dapat ako lang... dahil mahal niya ko diba??.. ^_^

All I can say, oo, I still love him.. Pero it would be better if we can still have time to unwind, chill, be friends..... pero andun pa rin yung hope na magiging kame pa rin in time....

nasa jeep ako kanina and I was thinking about him.. AS ALWAYS.....

sabi ko, sana ligawan naman niya ko... magkaron man lang ng romantic moment for us na magtatanong siya, manunuyo.. para dun yung time na maging KAME.. yung time na may isasagot ako sa tanong niya if we can be together again..

AAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!! kinikilig ako! ^_^ heheh.....

DIFFERENT FACES...

EVERYTHING HAS A PURPOSE

Hindi ko alam kung bakit eto ang naisip kong title... heheh...

PURPOSE??? I dont even know what's my purpose of being here.... still breathing...

I am in pain right now..

Stressed..

Frustrated..

But I still have to go on...

Have to move on..

Sabi nga ng bestfriend ko,

"pano ka mamahalin ng ibang tao kung ang sarili mo, hindi mo magawang mahalin??"

Oo nga naman.... Pero naisip niyo rin ba na.... Pano niyo mararamdaman na dapat niyong mahalin ang sarili niyo kung ang ibang tao, hindi kayo magawang mahalin???

Pano niyo masasabi na dapat nga kayong magmahal muna ng sarili niyo??? eh kung ang ibang tao nga, hindi kayo magawang mahalin?? Diba??

Im trying to be strong......

Holding my tears....

Pero this is life....

And I know whats happening right now has a purpose..

Purpose na dapat kong lawakan ang pang unawa sa sarili ko..

At hanapin kung ano ba talaga ang gusto ko..

~out~

im sorry sa nangyari..

hindi ko pa rin alam kung pano at ano ang dapat kong gawin... sorry mark, sa nangyari.. alam ko ddating sa point na tanggap niyo nang mawawala si papa.. at sana nanjan ako para makiramay.. pero ginusto ko naman magpunta pero ayaw mo nmn..

hay.. bukas bday mo pa naman... hindi ko alam kung dapat ko pang sabihin na Happy Bday... dahil sa nangyari.. hay.. nakakalungkot isipin na parang kelan lang nagkita kame ni papa nung nagpunta ko sa inyo... ang payat na niya.. at nanghihina.. pero alam ko, lumalaban si papa para lang maabutan pa rin niya kahit papano ang bday mo... sayang, hindi man lang ako nakapag paalam sa kanya..

kanina magkatext tayo.. nasaktan ako sa mga sinabi mo... hindi ko na alam kung ano pa ang dapat kong gawin..

gaya nga nang sabi ko sayo kanina sa text....

"sinabi mong hindi mo na ko mahal pero tinanggap ko.... sinabi mong magkalimutan na tayo, kahit hindi ko kaya, tinanggap ko pa rin.. sinabihan mo ko ng kung ano ano, tinanggap ko pa rin.. nagbabakasakali ako na baka mag text ka kapag nag send ako ng blank message sayo dahil akala ko nagpalit ka na ng number. tinext ko si kuya, bow at joseph dahil nagbabaka sakali akong alam nila ang number mo if ever na nagpalit ka... "

totoo lahat to... i even texted Tina para lang kamustahin ka... at hingin number mo if ever may bago nga.. pero she never replied...

masakit sa part ko yung mga nasabi mo.. nag sorry ka.. oo.. sabi mo nga sa kin dati, sa mga nagawa kong kasalanan, napatawad mo na mo... ako rin, pinapatawad na kita.. kelangan ko lang na mailabas yung nararamdaman ko kanina kaya nakapag text ako sayo nang ganun...

feeling ko kasi na ginagago mo na ko..

after all you have said, biglang sasabihin mong mahal mo ko, na sorry na...

im not saying na wag mo ko sabihan.. pero just think of what you told me.... na magkalimutan na tayo.. palagay mo, kinaya ko ba? hindi! dahil nagbakasakali pa rin ako.... nagmatigas ka .... nagpaka manhid ka.. pinairal mo na naman ang pride mo... kahit wala na sa lugar.. ako na lang ba lagi ang magpapaka baba?? nasaktan din ako... nasaktan mo ko.. pina asa mo rin ako.. pero sana okay na... okay na tayo ngayon...

kahit ano pa ang mga nasabi mo sa kin, tanggap ko na yun.. basta wala akong ibang sinabi sayo kundi SPACE lang.... SPACE para sa tin dalawa para makahinga ang isat isa.. dahil pareho na tayong nahihirapan... pero wala eh.. SPACE versus mga statements na sinabi mo sa kin......... wala kong mahanap na dahilan para pigilan ang iyak ko.... kanina sa jeep, while I was on my way going here in the office, hindi ko mapigilan ang iyak ko.... napaluha na ko sa sobrang depressed.... nalilito ako...

pero all that I texted you, na andito pa rin ako para sayo... na parte ka pa rin ng buhay ko.. totoo yun! kung ano mang mangyari sa buhay mo, apektado pa rin ako.. dahil nandito kana sa buhay ko eh..

basta! sorry rin sa lahat lahat... I think we really need space.. pero sana yung promise mo na na magwwork ka, please gawin mo! para sa kakabuti mo naman yun eh.. I gave you a lot of advices pano ang gagawin sa interviews! pero inuuna mo kasi ang kaba eh! kaya ayan, walang nanagyari! matalino ka alam ko! kaya please lang! wag mo sayangin! at ayokong magpaka bum ka sa Quezon! please lang! humanap ka nang way na hindi ka nagugutom dahil may sarili kang pinagkukunan nang income, hindi dahil sa may farm ang tito mo.... wag ka umasa sa iba.. gumawa ka nang paraan para sa sarili mo...

12:08 AM na sa relos dito sa PC.....

Happy Bday Mark Anthony Arieta Tesalona...

YOU!!!YEAH YOU!!!!!!

Do I have to write this all over again?? like writing the pain I feel for everything that had happened??... I just read almost all the blog entries I had before.. And I was dissapointed that its happening again.. Yeah.. like Lala said, the never ending dramatic entries...

I'm so full of this shit! I tried to be nice, cool and making myself strong.... pero this guy, texted me saying fucking shit and accusing me that i'm fooling him daw... hell you! i never did anything bad to you! you were mad because I sent you a blank page?? what the! I pitty you so much..

you know what, thanks for making me feel that FEELING again... sayang, wala na si PYAR.. haha!!! gusto mong magkasakitan tayo ha! sige, sakitan na to...

sayang! dahil minahal pa rin kita.. kahit magkasama kame ni joey, ikaw pa rin ang iniisip ko! dahil may feelings pa rin ako sayo... alam mo, siguro kung hindi ko hinayaang mahalin pa rin kita, malamang masaya pa rin ako.. hindi na ko nasaktan ulit. sabi nga niya, bakit pa ko bumalik sa past ko.. alam ko ganun din ang mga sinasabi nila sayo na bakit mo pa ko binalikan.. sana pinakinggan na lang natin sila noh.. pero wala eh.. nagpakatanga pa rin tayo.. hinayaan nating magsama na naman tayo knowing na magssuffer na naman tayo...

I hate the feeling of hating you, you know that?????..... but youre forcing me to....

after 3 years, still we ended badly.. I thought I can make friends with you.. I thought were okay.. but yeah, were not...

i dont know what will happen next...

thanks for ruining my day.. you just accused me without seeing the time when you received the text... mas nauna akong magtext sayo! we had a 10minute break non then nagyoyosi ako... nagpapansin lang ako sayo.. kaya I sent you a blankpage... and so what if you texted me a blank page then i replied you the same??.... does it matter?? huh?? wala namang masama dun ah! you know what, gumawa ka lang nang ikagagalit mo eh.. tama bang sabihin mo sa kin na tinatarantado lang kita dahil akala mo gumanti ako ng pagsend ko ng blank page?? eh mas nauna nga ako eh!!!! naintindihan mo ba yon????!!!!!!!!!!!!!ako ang naunang magtext! at wala ka namang dahilan para magalit eh! dahil walang kwentang issue if I texted you a blank page!

nakakurat ka! tangina talaga.. muntik na nga ako mamatay twice yesterday! first was the jeepney we were riding had a flat tire..... buti na lang nasa gilid kame ng road... kung hindi, malamang nabangga na kame.. at siguro nasa hospital na ko ngayon... suffering.... siguro if nangyari yun, hindi mo ko magaganto... hindi mo ko masasaktan.. wala ka sigurong magagawang dahilan para awayin ako ng walang kakwenta kwentang text! second was i was about to get off the jeepney then nasa gilid din kame ng road non dahil bababa nga ako... then this freakin fx, nakabuntot pa rin sa likod ng jeepney....pagkababa ko, as in ilang metro na lang ang natitira....eh mabilis pa naman ang pagpatakbo niya.. oh diba, what a day!!???!!!!!!!! shit happens... muntik na ko mamatay noh?? haha!!! 7 lives left.. (ano ko, pusa?) ^_^

geeezzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!what a nice day....

well.. to end this shit, i just wanna thank Lala, my bestfriend Maggie, Louie and Rey-my officemates, Jen, Kevin-my bestfriend's bf.... and to those people who cares about me...

I miss my old life... in IBM.. Jarvey was right.. what we have in eBay was the easiest job in all call centers........shit! I regret that I resigned there... But hopefully, i can still be with that company.. and I miss my previous wavemates....

~out~

LALA..

thanks for reading my entries... this is the only time that someone stranger reading my blog.. haha.. well, thanks for the advices.. this would be so hard for me facing my new life ALONE.... i know there are still people who loves me... like my friends and family... but the thing is... PILAY NA ANG BUHAY KO....

Nieko was a great help changing my life.. before, I feel that I am unwanted.. unpretty.. but when he came into my life, it started to change... pero siyempre, were not perfect... nagbabago rin lahat... maybe now, we are destined to separate muna.. magkaron ng space... i'm the one actually who asked him about it.. though its so hard for me to break up with him, i have to do it.. we both suffer from each others behavior... we both need some space.. to breathe new air... refresh.. unwind...

on July 28, 3rd anniversary na sana namen.. quite tough para iwan nalang basta yun diba??

kanina magkatext kame.. actually, una muna akong nagtext before I sleep.. umaga na ako nauwi from work eh.. I texted him like I was saying that I am still here for him.. that I still want him back.. or basta ayoko siyang mawala sa buhay ko.. kahit friends lang muna.. and then pagkagising ko, eto... bumungad sa kin ang napaka worst na text.. he said na we should break our communication at wala nang pakialamanan.. hindi niya alam yung sakit na nararamdaman ko everytime he says that stupid words! it makes me feel more na wala akong kwentang tao.. I cried... cried.. cried.. and cried.. at ngayon.. VWALA!!!!!! ang ganda ng eyes ko!!! namamaga!!!! pakshet...

pero in the end, naging maayos na rin... sa ngayon, though I still care for him, nandito na yung feeling na STOP MUNA TAYO AS FRIENDS.. DAHIL MAKAKATULONG SA TIN TO...

we have a lot of differences.. Cancer siya, ako Virgo.. which never been a COMPATIBLE partners in terms of relationship.. pero kahit ganun.. minahal pa rin namen ang isat isa... siyempre, love is ACCEPTING ONES FLAW....

Love... mahirap na masarap.... pero kapag kelangan na ni KUPIDO na magpahinga... kelangan na ring magpahinga ng puso namen... pakshet ang baduy ko! ......

but to tell you the truth, ayoko siyang mawala sa buhay ko... basta yun na yun.. maging kame man o hindi in the end, basta, ayokong mawala siya sa buhay ko..

~out~

nandito ako ngayon sa office.. napahatid ako sa bestfriend ko at sa bf niya..

nagpunta sila sa bahay dahil sa isang rason..

rason kung bakit ako umiiyak tuwing gabi..

rason kung bakit ako walang gana sa training..

rason kung bakit hindi na ko makapag isip ng tama sa lahat ng bagay..

rason kung bakit ang tingin ko sa sarili ko eh napaka walang kuwenta ko..

.......


hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko..

basta ang alam ko, nagmahal lang ako.
hindi mo naman ako kelangan pahirapan eh..
just tell me kung ano na ba ang gusto mo..
yung huling pagkikita natin nun, planado ko talagang magpunta sa inyo para lang makita kita.. napaiyak ako sa sobrang lungkot at pagka miss sayo.. tapos nakulitan ka lang sa kin sa text, ganun mo na lang ako kung murahin??..

ano na ba ang nangyari sayo?? ano na ba ang meron bakit mo ko ginaganito??

may nagtulak ba sayo para gawin lahat to??

sabihin mo lang, please naman..

kung sa tingin mo nahihirapan ka na,

eh ano pa kaya ang nararamdaman ko..

hindi ko na alam kung ano na ba tayo..

basta alam ko,

mahal kita kaya ganito ako..

pero please lang sabihin mo kung ano na ang gusto mo...

para alam ko kung ano na ang susunod kong gagawin..

mahal kita..

~out~

GUYS!!!! good news!! Im getting off MAKATI and moving to Alabang on Monday!! haha!! I got 86% as my final grade in CCT Training!! GOOD JOB!! ^_^

I gotta lot of things to say but.. I'll just summarize it..

First, I'm missing my Nieko... All the things I am doing is for him.. and also for my family.

ISOLATING MYSELF...

Guys.. hindi ko alam bakit ako nagiging ganito.. whenever I am in a group, at first, masaya ako... jolly, cheerful.. basta all happy!!!! pero kapag matagal na... wala na.. parang ina isolate ko ang sarili ko dahil parang na fee feel kong kakaiba ako sa kanila.... kaya nilalayo ko sarili ko.. parang ayokong masyadong mag stick at ma bond masyado ako sa kanila... Yeah, I am weird... pero ganun eh.. siguro nasanay lang kasi ako na kasama ko si Mark, my boyfriend na mas komportable akong kasama... na halos lahat na eh alam na namin anong meron sa isat isa...

I miss my Nieko... I love you asawa ko!!

~out~

TODAY IS NOT MY DAY!!!!

My gawd! Is it wrong to say that I was an agent before on that company when I contacted them??? I became irate because that agent just suddenly transferred me to her supervisor after saying that I should give her my contact information.

Then, Christian texted me telling "HEY, BAKIT KA NAGCHACHAT??".... Gawd.. eh I lost my password and username eh!!! Tsaka I was only proud to say that I am a former agent of that said account... F**K!

Then Christian said that I was the "topic" on the floor... WHAT THE HELL!!! I wasnt doing anything!! I just want to have my password and thats it!!! She dont have to transfer me!!??!!! RIGHT???!!!!!Thats why I became irate!! F**K!

Well, thanks Christian for informing me what happened....
I dont have any plans again of getting back to that company..

Anyways, lets change topic...

Im beginning to feel this illness everyday... I dont know why... I just dont feel fine as day goes by..

ewan ko....

Basta pipigilan ko na lang maging hot headed.. Im trying to be nice but i dont know why I am doing this to my life... Pero ewan ko...... PRANING........ sheesh!!!

We had this oral presentation a while ago and well, I can say that I wasnt prepared.. really... I have mistakes but not that much.. I had 3 pronunciation errors... Not bad.. but I have to improve it more...

I only had problems with the "at" and "on" making it sandwiched in one phrase... cant explain it here eh.. basta! the note is in my bag and kinda tired to get it... heheh...

out

GETTING USED TO IT...
You will often meet people who's friendly, frank, rude and ... "plastic".....
But me, being the baby of the family, I am more of pampering myself, making cracky jokes just to make papansin and all...
Here, in this profession, we should know how to mingle with other people who's as different as you are...
Yeah, I can be as friendly as you want..I can be frank and honest...But never.. NEVER WILL I BE RUDE with people whom I know that would make things worst...
Yeah, were not perfect...So to people whom I am not having the good vibes, "if you want to make my day rude, just dont say anything.... If you want to say things against me, tell it TO MY FACE"........
I am the pa tweetums...I love making myself being recognized as a jolly person..So dont ever, ever RUIN MY DAY!!!!!
If that's your "goal" each time we see each other, You may want to shit out of the room and be gone for decades!!!
I am so maldita.... Yeah, I can consider myself as a WAR FREAK...But hey, I am working on it..And trying to hide this urge of confronting people...
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I LOVE NIEKO....


N- never will I leave this man
I- I am deeply in love with him
E- Enough to tell everybody that I wanna spend the rest of my life with him
K- Kissable !! (yeah!)
O- Over protective... that makes me feel so secure... ^_^

I am listening to WILL YOU EVER LEARN by Typecast right now..

I can relate to this song..

"I did it all, all for you.. hoping you could see.."



"but you.. you think about yourself... only bout yourself..."


"unlonely nights, romantic moments... the love, the love, what about them.. throw it all away.."

I feel like crying...

I want to faint..

Im so cold...

I want him to show me how much he loves me..

how much he appreciates me..

---

Ang mahirap lang, Im still trying to give time for him though I am busy....

But he's not appreciating it....

What must I do??

Where else should I go???

Parang wala kang GF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lahat na ginagawa ko... pinipilit kong ma text ka kapag nakakatakas ng pag text mula dito sa kinauupuan ko! Pero ikaw?? May effort ka bang ginagawa???..........

Nahihirapan na ko sa ginagawa mo..

Im here in the office.. having our free time to surf other internet browser....

WHile listening to this song.. eto papatak na ang luha ko.....

hindi ko na kaya...

~Out~

falling in love

Falling in love is hard...
For love conquers all...
You have to give up on everything that you have
Just to be with the person you want/love..

It wont take you for like 1 day to realize
that he's the person you want
to be with for the rest of your life..

I, myself....
Honestly speaking,
Had a hard time to realize
that THIS PERSON IM WITH RIGHT NOW
Is worth having my heart..

Heartaches,
sleepless nights,
All of us of course have gone through with these..

But to tell you all,
I would sacrifice everything..
As in EVERYTHING
Just for my NIEKO...

I may not be the most beautiful girl,
I may not be the smartest,
but ....
I CAN BE HIS EVERYTHING for THE REST OF HIS LIFE......

My love for him is priceless...
His my PRECIOUS...

And I dont have to be bothered
because we're too far from each other..
Hey! We're still in the Philippines!
Its only 3 rides from his home getting to mine.

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I know this would be CHEESY for me to say but..............

I LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE...........

I love you NIEKO~

~out~

Why do these things have to happen.. Things happening so fast... same as before.....

Bakit may mga tao na hindi marunong makiramdam...

kahit lahat na ginagawa ko para sa kanya..

He's the center of my life...

But then, hindi niya ko mapahalagahan...

bakit sa dinami dami ng taong gagawa nito, yung mahal ko pa...

WHY??

Why do have to this to me?????
I have done everything,
I have given you everything..
But why cant you see me??
Why cant you focus on me??

Lagi ba magiging ganito??
Na ako lagi ang gumagawa ng effort for us to fix things???
Bakit ako lagi ang talo??
Bakit ako na lang lagi ang kailangang mahirapan??

I wanna be with you, not to make my life miserable..
I love you because I want to inspire my everyday life...
I wanted you, because I know you'll love me back..

I'd give up everything just for you..
I'd do anything just to make our relationship work...

Just show my worth...
Just give me signs that could make me feel that
you love me...
that you want me...
that you need me...

Its been 4 days since I started crying..
Started to finish this off..
BUT HELL NO!!!

I would not risk anything that could make us apart..
I love you so much Nieko....

Please show me how much you love me...

~out~

BEING MALDITA

I dont want to be like this...
I wasnt really like this... yah....really...
I didnt know what happened...


I might be like this.. puro hatred... Pero still... deep down inside of me, theres a bit LOVE growing..

alam ko, hindi naman lahat ng tao kaya akong pakibagayan... at para sabihin ko rin sa inyo, hindi lahat, kaya kong pakisamahan...

Oo, mabait ako kung sa mabait.. Pero pare, wag na wag mo ko pilitin na mag burst... dahil wala akong sinasanto.. wala akong pakialam ke anak ka nang presidente! Wala ko pakialam kung sino ka man basta paglalaban ko kung anong dapat meron akong ipaglaban!

At ikaw, akin ka lang! wag na wag ko nang malalaman na kinakausap mo ang kupal na yon dahil papatayin ko yon sa harap mo! tandaan mo yan!

Oo, ganito ako magsalita. bakit?eh sa galit ako eh! pakialam nila??

Cez, salamat pare ah!Hay nako.. salamat at nanjan ka para itext ako at icheck ako kung okay lang ako... hay! kakamiss ka.. ang mga IMC peeps... thanks for being there... grabe.. daming problems.. daming kakainis na mga tao.... daming daat banatan! hay! tara, isama kita...papatay tayo! wahaha!! ng daga! wahaha!!!!!!!!! just kidding...

Maane, pare! salamat sa lahat! sa mga hirit na walang kupas! sa mga payo mo.. hay nako.....alam mo ba na hindi lang ikaw ang nababaliw sa kakasabi na tigilan ko na ang pagiging ganito??.. wahaha!!! hay nako! basta salamat ha! alam ko naman na hindi nyo ko iiwan eh.. no matter what happen, andito lang din ako...

Jem, dude! hoy! hehe.. wala lang. pasensya na sa mga pag ddramang napaka tindi.. hay nako.. alam mo naman ako eh.. tsk... basta... alam ko naman na hindi niyo ko matitiis ni gela eh.. hehe.. kaya nga love na love ko kayo eh.. hay!

Micah, hey little sis ko..... salamat sa mga advices mo ah... hay! alam mo naman na ganto lang talaga ako eh... pero kahit nga ganito ang ugali ko, love ko naman ang kuya mo eh.. hay... kahit ilang beses pa kame mag away, hindi na ko papayag na maghiwalay pa kame.. hay!


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VOTE WISELY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Parang kelan lang nung hulingnakatapak ako ng public school sa may Bayan ng Sta. Rosa.... kung kelan kasama ko mga magulang ko... Na boboto kame sa mga pinili namen na mga politicians... Ngayon, panibago na naman.... Mas nakakatakot... Mas maraming panahon pa dapat ang pag ukulan....

Sa tingin niyo, lahat ba nang politicians at mga nagttrabaho sa gobyerno ay mga CORRUPT?? alam niyo ba na sa buong mundo ata or buong Asia, PILIPINAS NA ANG NUMBER ONE MOST CORRupT COUNtRY!!!!!!! asa!!!!!!! grabe nakakahiya! Tapos ang dami nilang ina advertise sa ibang bansa na parang napakaganda ng bansa natin... yah alam ko for tourism purposes yon.. Pero hinahayaan ng mga taong nakaupo sa gobyerno na ipahiya mismo ang bansa natin sa pagiging corrupt! Ang LUFEETTTTT NIYOOOOO GRABE!!!!

Sabihin na natin na maganda ang turismo sa bansa natin at madaming pera ang makakapasok dahil dito.... Mga peeps, maganda nga.. Pero tanawin mo ang lansangan sa bandang MAYNILA! ANG SIYUDAD, KAPITAL NG BUONG PILIPINAS!!!!!! ang daming nagkalat na mga taong nakatira sa kalsada!!!!! balikan natin ang napanood ko sa Iwitness kamakailan lang... yung mga taong galing Marinduque... yung mga tira tirang pagkain galing fast food chains na galing na sa basurahan ang kinukuha nila para gawing BATCHOY..... at eto pa, mas pinili nila dito manirahan... dahil sa probinsya nila, puro saging lang ang nahihita nila! Dahil sa siyudad, nakaka palimos sila at eto na ang hanap buhay nila... eh sa probinsya, wala!!!!

Eto na ang sinasabi ko na level ng turismo.. yung kung saan maraming dadayo, doon lang nag fofocus ang mga nakaupong OPISYAL! guys, naramdaman niyo na bang mamuhay ng matagal sa probinsya?? yung as in walang kuryente, wlang tv.... nag iigib lang sa poso.... naranasan ko na yun.. at alam ko kung gaano kahirap mamuhay sa ganitong sitwasyon...

Pero naisip ko na kung eto na naranasan ko eh mahirap, what more pa kaya sa lugar sa bundok na hindi na nadadayo ng mga politicians??.... na may nagiging bayani na doon para lang maging organize ang barangay nila??...maraming bayaning pare, madre at teacher sa mga liblib na bundok na tulad ng sinasabi ko.... na hindi man lang pinakikinggan ng mga OPISYALES.....

Madaming dada lang naman ang mga pulitiko eh.. hanggang sa umpisa lang may pinakikitang gilas.... pero saan ka!?!?!?! ...oo nga at napakaganda ng turismo sa Pinas... marami nman ang naghihirap dahil sa taas ng mga bilihin! marami pang namamalimos! mga walang matirhan! mga taong naghihirap at nagtitiis mamuhay sa kabundukan!... mga batang hindi alam ng gobyerno na sila ay kabilang pala sa dapat marehistro sa bansa!.......

Kaya mga peepz, vote wisely... sabi nga sa commercial.. "SISIGURADUHIN KONG MABIBILANG ANG ISA KONG BOTO...."

~OUT~

POta! nawalan ako nang gana mag post! Tang ina naman talaga!!! nanghihina ako! PUTANG INA TALAGA!!

STARTING A NEW LIFE

Marck 22, 2007- I have finished my degree of Broadcast Journalism at De La Salle University- Dasmariñas.... It was held in PICC at exactly 830am.. great that Abbie was there ^_^

Starting a new life...
New struggles..
New trials...
New people..
New environment..

This is not the end rather a beginning of my new chapter of life...

DREAMING.... the best armor of facing the reality.... Jot down your plans for the future.. And try to achieve it... but dont take things in rush... Just believe in yourself...

Also, I have learned that working and having your salary every 15th and 30th of the month doesnt mean that you are already successful... Money... a sinful thing..

For me, when we say that we are successful, you have your own family, in your own house, filled with love... raising your own career with your goals in life...

Today, I have finished my college life... By April 19- I'll be starting my training in Makati for 2 weeks.... Hope it would be as easy as I had with my former employer...

To all the graduates.. Congrats!!!

Thanks peepz!!!

love you nieko!

~out~

DAMING PROBLEMS PERO DAPAT SMILE PA RIN

Hi guys... ngayon lang ulit ako nakapag post. hmm.. dami akong dapat sabihin... madaming dapat ilagay na hinaing... pero hindi pa ko makapag focus alin ang dapat unahin...

Pero eto na lang....

Kahapon, mass na namen for graduation... I was with my mother, my 3 pamangkins and Mark.. But before that day, sobrang daming nangyari sa bahay.. nandyan na yung away namen ng parents ko dahil sa pagtatalo nang isusuot ko.. Nandyan na yung naisip ko na BAKIT BA KO PINANGANAK SA MAHIRAP NA BUHAY?? Pero later naisip ko, bakit ako magrereklamo eh lahat naman ng to eh pinaghirapan ng magulang ko at paghihirap kong makapagtapos. WIthout my parents, I wouldnt even be here... Kaya gusto ko ring magpasalamat sa kanila.. Though may sama pa rin ako ng loob sa tatay ko. Till now hindi ko pa rin ma feel yung excitement niya sa pag graduate ko. Let's just say na siguro wala lang siyang way para maparamdam yun.. Pero syempre nakakasama pa rin ng loob yun.. Dahil puro gastos, puro labas ng pera.. Alam niyo ba na yung susuutin ko na dress at yung suot ko kahapon eh luma na?? Well, okay lang sana yun.. Pero basta! Madami pang issue about that stuff... Nakakatuwa lang dahil sa pag ddiet ko, masusuot ko pa yung dress na ginamit ko when I had my Junior prom... oh diba COOL???? kasya pa rin sakin! hahah!! dahil sa pag diet....


Gusto ko lang magpasalamat sa mga taong naging part nang buhay ko... mga elementary classmates ko na until now eh may communication pa rin at friends forever pa rin. wahaha, baduy ko! Maane, pare! thanks sa mga advice! sobrang love kita! Two thums up ako sayo kasi youre so strong despite of all the trials youre having right now! Keep it cool man! ^_^


To my bestfriend Maggie, thanks sa lahat! Grabe, kung alam ng lahat yung mga napag daanan natin noh? haha!!! ang dami, as in ang dami! Masaya at hindi maganda... Pero ang mahalaga, nandito pa rin tayo, kahit minsan na lang tayo makapag usap, we still care about each other. Basta! No matter what happens, kaw lang bestfriend ever ko! Mga pare, mare, alam niyo ba na 16 years na kameng mag bestfriend ni Maggie! ^_^ Im so proud to tell that! ^_^

Nieko, malapit na tayong mag 3 years this July... sobrang thankful ako kasi nanjan ka pa rin kahit almost 7 months tayong wala... Thank you sobrang sobra dahil mahal na mahal mo pa rin ako! Mahal na mahal kita! ikaw ang buhay ko! Sobrang walang makakapantay ng love and dedication mo sa kin... as in! Thanks po NIEKO!!!!!!!!!! Lahat lahat gagawin ko para sa future natin! Magsstrive hard ako sobrang sobra para hindi tayo maghirap sa future natin! Im so lucky to have you Nieko! Mahal na mahal kita!

Okay guys... later na lang ako ulit magpopost...... nagtext si Nieko, punta daw kame sa UMC ni Joseph, papakilala kame sa mommy niya! waaaaa!!!!!!!!! kakatakot at the same time kaka excite! waa!! ^_^ mwah! love you all!

ABBIE!!!!! BEFORE I FORGOT!!!!!! HEY! IM SO HAPPY THAT YOU ARE HERE NA FOR OUR GRADUATION! YAHOO!!! BUHAY NA NAMAN ANG FP! I LOVE YOU FOCAL POINT!!!!! MWAH!!!!


~out~

Selfish

I cant explain how to tell you guys how I love Nieko so much.... That I will never let anyone get his attention.. as in no one could take his time, take his attention away from me.. UNDERSTOOD?? So what if you dont care about me you freak.. the hell I care for you, too anyway??!!!! You are just nobody! Got that?? NOBODY!

So dont shit on me coz I aint doing wrong! Dont ever tell me to shut up coz youre just a freak, got that??

3 years na kame ni Mark this July... So I was the first one to have him... NOT YOU! If you have any problems with me, well go ahead! Tell it to my face you dumb pig faced man! Euw!!!!!!!!!

Mark and I will be together in a few months! I swear we will earn money for our future.. This April, I will start my work in Convergys...... Hopefully Mark can get his own work, too...

Getting back with the topic.. Pig faced, dont ever ever tell me to shut up coz the hell I care with you?? Close tayo?? huh?? I was just asking if you were together that night! Dumbfacedpig! GRRR!!!!!!!!!!

~out~

That's LIFE!!!!!

How can we say that we are having a great life????

Have you asked yourself about it??

Bakit kelangan may mga taong hindi pa rin alam ang kahalagahan ng buhay?

Bakit lagi na lang may mga naghihirap?

Bakit may mga taong sagana sa saya.. sagana sa yaman..

Hanggang sa may makita kang mga tao na patuloy na naghihirap at nagdudusa...

I have watched I WITNESS last MondayFeb.19... Its about a family living with a weird kind of status in life. Basta.. ang weird dahil lahat sila, parang walang patutunguhan.... kawawa ang batang si EKANG... na isa sa pinaka bata sa pamilya..

Sana sa mga makakabasa neto, please see to it na pinapahalagahan niyo ang buhay niyo. gawin niyong makabuluhan....

wag niyong aksayahin ang bawat oras ...

gawin niyong masaya... dahil masarap mabuhay.. di natin alam kung hanggang saan na lang tayo..

~out~

THANKS!!!!!

Hey Im back guys! At last, all of my worries are gone now! I just finished my final requirement for my OJT yesterday. I would like to thank Mark for helping me with it! You're so great! I love you! ^_^

I wanna say thank you to all the people who inspired me getting all these things done. Mark, thank you for being there for me. I know you still doubt my love for you.. But I'm telling the truth. Yeah I have hurt you so many times but please forget those stupid things Ive done. Just please give me more time to freshen up and change my attitude.. Pero please, makibagay ka rin naman sa kin.. Dont tease me or anything that would hurt my feelings please!!!!! Yan, nabubugbog tuloy kita.

Weird reasons why I still wanna stay friends with you:
1. Weve been together for like 2 years
2. You know all about me
3. Youve been my bestfriend, brother and a father to me
4. You know how to make me laugh
5. You know how to make me feel sad and angry
6. You were the first guy I cried so hard when we broke up
7. You were the first guy I almost die whenever we fought
8. You know how to make me fall asleep while I sit on your lap and bend on your shoulder
9. We both know how much food we can eat
10. God knows how much I love you..................................................................


Mark, I know weve been through a lot of pain... But things change, so are we.. But my feelings for will never fade. Yup I know I am so selfish.. I only think for my own sake. Pero kahit nagkaron tayo ng gap, my feelings never fade. I swear! Hay! I do wish na maniwala ka sa kin. I miss you so much... And I am so happy that weve spent the whole night together making "lambing lambing"... Hay! Thanks sa lahat lahat ng sacrifice mo para sa kin. Lahat na napatunayan mo na sa kin.. Hay... Just give me space para maging maayos na ako.. I promise I'll marry you kapag wala ka ang girlfriend.

I love you....

OKAY BA????

formal shot ko of my graduation picture

pinanindigang Indian talaga

Partida, yung formal shot ko, umiyak pa ko bago nagpa picture. haha!!!!

Hi guys! Andito ako sa dasma. Nagbayad ako kahapon ng tuition fee ko eh.. heheh.. Tapos ngayon nagpasukat na ko ng toga! Nice! hehe.. astig! feel na feel ko nga eh.. hehehe!! ^_^ umm nagkita rin pala kame ni Joey sa Apt. nagpunta kasi ako dun, tapos sabay kame nag lunch din.. Takaw nga namen eh.. Medyo hindi kame nakapag usap kasi may "ilang" effect sa min. Ewan ko ba. Totoo lang, I still love him.. Hindi ko naman agad makakalimutan yung napagsamahan namen eh. Tska 10 months ko na siyang mahal. Waa! Pero eto, bigo pa rin.. wala naman ako magagawa kung hanggang dun na lang kame. Pero eto lang masasabi ko, Love ko pa rin si Pyar.. Yun lang. Hay!

Hirap nang ganito.. Pretending to be fine pero sa loob loob ko, wala na, bagsak na.. Hirap talaga...

At eto pa, namimiss ko rin si mark.. Pero wala na, hanggang dun na lang din talaga kame.. Mahirap kung pareho namen issacrifice yung relationship kasi lagi kameng nagaaway..

Buhay nga naman! Reality bites.. Hay nako...

~out~

KALOKOHAN

John joe's cap

Rb, tambay sa eskenita

New shades! Were going to

GAMEWORKS to have a shoot for IAGT

Hindi na ko pinauwi ni nanay dahil gabi na.. Ayun.. Ako lang pala ang babae na matitira dito sa office.. Akala ko naman, iinom kame.. Ehehe.. Sayang! Feel ko pa naman ang uminom.. Tsk tsk.. Hehehe.. ^_^

~out~

MAAGA AKO NGAYON


I just got here in the office.. Ang aga ko grabe! Buti kahit puyat, nakatulog naman ako sa byahe.. Hmm... Umuwi ako sa bahay namen kasi I had to bring new clothes for tonight but I think hindi ako makakapag sleep over here kasi pinapauwi ako ni nanay. Anyway, ayun.. Kahapon, our first stop was at Greenbelt 3 (People's Place) where AXE CLICK launching was held there. I saw Ate Mau there (sister of Ap, a Comm Arts tropa). Cool! Nagsama sama ang mga taga La Salle! Haha!! Then there were some discussion about Scents and Perfumes of a person ang how you could know that it is "bagay" to him/her.. Gets??.. Ang host for that event was DJ Mo Twister.. Hmmm.. what can I say about him..... Hmm.. he's simple.. Relax lang..

After that, I went ahead to IBM to have my resignation cleared.. Well, ayun, buti andun yung TL namen.. Andun dun si Jarvey! Tapos ngayon pa lang ako naka kuha ng clearance. POCHA! Akala ko pa naman naipasa na ng tao na yun sa HR yung letter of immediate resignation ko eh wala pa! Ayun.. Hay!

Sabay kame nakauwi na Jarvey. I missed that guy.. IMPERNEZZZZ... haha! Ayun, kwentuhan... Then nagpalibre pa ang bruho! Hahaha!!!I am excited to be cleared para makakuha ng BACK PAY! Wahaha!!!!! Its almost 10k daw sabi ni Jarvey. hehehe.. Nice!

Last night...

Marthy (my ex) went to our house.. wala lang.. tumawag kasi siya.. Eh gusto raw niya kong makita. hehe.. Ayus! Ayun, tamang yosi lang.. Tapos kwentuhan..

Ewan ko ba kung bakit ba lagi na lang yun bumabalik sa ki pag wala na siyang girlfriend.. Well, pareho kame ng status at ng months na wala nang girl/boyfriend.... 4 going on 5 months.. Ayun.. Hmmm.. my comment???....... Hmmm................. Actually, ayoko pa talagang mag boyfriend ulit. Now I realized what Pyar means about "not yet ready for a commitment"..... Well although I knew about it before pero alam mo yun??.... Basta! Parang natatakot akong pumasok na naman sa isang relasyon lalo na pag kilala mo yung sarili mo when it comes to LOVE..."is this love, is this love, is this love, is this love that I'm feeling"... haha!! May kanta pang kasama eh noh?.. Ahaha! ^_^

ENJOY KA LANG DAHIL SINGLE KA

For me, nag eenjoy ako sa pagiging Single... 5 months na nga diba.... Well, minsan lang talaga nakakaramdam ako ng pagkalungkot. lalo na kapag nababalewala ako ng taong mahal ko.. Mga taong importante sa kin pero parang hindi ako importante sa kanila. Pero naiintindihan ko naman yun eh. Wala naman ako magagawa kasi may kanya kanya kameng buhay.

Nagagawa ko mga bagay na gusto ko.. Walang kumokontra or nagagalit kapag nakikipag usap ako sa ibang lalake, may ka text akong ibang lalake.. Alam mo yun??.. Pero minsan, nakakamiss yung mga away na yun.. Kasi maiintindihan mo na nagseselos siya kasi HE DOESN'T WANT TO LOSE YOU.... That's it!

Hay.... pero nakakmiss din yung.. May ka text ka lage.. Alam mo yun??.. Yung laging may nag iinspire sayo..... Hay! Kaka inggit yung ibang tao na lage siyang naka smile whenever may nagttext sa kanya. heheh.. Ayoko namang gayahin na ngingiti sa cellphone ko ng wala naman akong natanggap na text, mukha kong sira ulo nun! Hahaha!!! =)

O siya siya...... Time to go now! Bubye!!!!

~out~

AT THE CUISINE

Call Time is 10 pm but we went to THE FORT at 11 pm. John Joe, Bubbles, Ketchup and Borgy with his girlfriend were all there already. We were there to have a shoot for John Joe' s segment which is GIRL TALK .

Well, we all had a San Mig Light ordered by Borgy. I got to see Sarah Chistoffer, the dancing model for MAXX candy and Richard Gutierrez.. Some people might be models in the place.

Well, very tiring coz we got here in the office at 3 am . Cool right??...

This is a great experience having my OJT at Ideal Minds... Haha.. Not to mention the celebrities that I could meet every production days! haha!!!

I wanna thank Ella and Kuya Jeff for taking care of me. hehehe.. Ako lang kasi ang practitioner tonight. Ayun..

Well.. This is what you call LIFE WITHOUT WORRYING....... hahaha!!!Yeah I'm enjoying my life right now. Unlike when I used to work in a call center.. NAME IT! Grrrrr..... lahat na ata nang depression naramdaman ko na! hahaha!!!!!!!

Cool John Joe.. Marunong siya talaga magdala ng segment... Yeah.. I am starting to like this guy.. hahah!! mwah!!! A VERY SWEET KISS FOR YOU JOHN JOE! hehehe.... mmmmwaaaaahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time to go to bed now. I am still here in the office. Got to wake up at 9 in the morning! ^_^ We have to prepare for our shoot at 11 am. Good luck! hahaha!!!

see yah guys! More stories after this.. hehehe.. ^_^ mwah!

PLANS:

• Gotta have a picture with Ketchup, Bubbles and Borgy
• Gotta go to IBM after the first production

~out~

WALANG TAYTOL

Eto ang madalas namin gawin pag walang production sa IMC.. Hay! Mga sunog baga! hahah!!

yosi pa tayo Dude! Astig!

With Jay and Arvie sa labas ng building

With Kuya Yong sa Conference Room

Where will I start??... Umm.. 6 am na kame nakatulog.. My phone alarmed at 8:30 am but Ella wake me up at 9 :30 am. Haha!! One hour ang na adjust para lang mapasarap ang tulog. Ayun.. Monday ngayon so may meeting ang staff with the Big Bosses.. Ang dami naming mga interns as in! Nagsama sama kame dito! Hahaha!!

Kagabe

"Len, maghanap ka naman ng magandang girl na pwedeng isama sa OBB naten".. Sabi ni Kuya Jeff..

"Ehem.. Ehem! "

"Ah, yun ba yon? Nagpaparinig?"..

Tinawagan ko si Sis.. Sabi ko sana siya na lang ang isama .. kaso may pasok siya eh! Sayang..

"O siya Len, ikaw na lang ang isasama." .....

"Talaga!?!... Sige ba!"..

KANINA

Natutulog ako.. zzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

"Len, halika na! Baba na tayo. Mag shoot na tayo para sa OBB"..

"Ha? Kasama ako?"

"Oo, kelangan ka na sa baba."

Haha!!! Ayus ba?.. Kulit noh!?! Actually, hindi yan talaga ang napag usapan namen, pero almost un na rin ang sinabi ni kuya Jeff nung nag uusap kame. heheh..

Ayun, pagdating ko sa baba, nag park si John Joe nang car ni Kuya Jay5.. Ayun. Bale para sa OBB ng Christmas Episode for 3rd Season ng Its a Guy Thing.

Pinaupo ako sa loob ng auto.. Tapos ayun, si Ketchup ang makakasama ko... Cool nga eh. Pagka pasok niya sa car...

KETCHUP: "Hi......Ketchup" (inabot niya ang kamay ko).. Totoo ba ito??..

"Sensya na ah, amoy pawis na ko.. nagbilad kame sa araw kanina eh".. pahabol niya.

Parang,.... owkhey.. si Ketchup, nakipag shake hands sa kin?.. Waa!!! hahaha! Astig!

Tapos ang sequence, nasa loob kame ng car. Tapos yung window nakasara.. Makikita dun yung reflection nila John Joe, Bubbles and Borgy. Tapos bababa yung window. Pagkababa, parang dudungaw si Ketchup tapos mayamaya after 4 seconds, I'll pull him paloob na naman. Ayun...

AFTER TAKE ONE.

BORGY: "Give him a kiss..."

ME: "Huh? Kiss?"

BORGY: "Come on, only on the cheek."

TAKE TWO...

DIREK: "Okay, after 3 seconds, hilahin mo si Ketchup but after that, kiss mo siya sa cheek."

No way! haha!!! Di ko ginawa noh. Tska sinabi ko kay Ketchup yun, sabi niya hilahin ko na lang raw siya..

Ang kulit nga eh.. Naka four takes kame ata.. Yung huli ang kulit ni Ketchup. mmm.... He almost hugged me pero lokohan lang.. then later after that take..

KETCHUP: "Uy, sensya na dun ah, lokohan lang yun.."

Like hello KETCHUP! OKAY LANG! hahaha!! Sana totoo na lang! wahaha.. ^_^ kidding..

Ayun.. mga kalokohan lang namen.. haha!!! At least, na expose ako! weheh.. Sayang nga lang, wala kame picture ni Ketchup inside the car. Sana na post ko dito. Tsk..... Pero madami pang times na makikita namen siya, si Borgy at si Bubbles. Si John Joe lage andito yun! Kakasawa! Hahaha!! Pero ayus lang, nagkaka usap na naman kame. Simple lang siya.. Tamang chill lang. Hehe.. Buti nga hindi siya yung tulad ng ibang celebrity na maarte.... May food budget kasi kame. Tapos sa McDo kame kumain last night.. wala siyang reklamo.. Hindi tulad ng iba na gusto pa sa mamahaling resto. . . .

The funny thing happened last night was when the coverage was done, we were walking na diba??.. pupunta na kame sa McDo nun.. May humabol na mga girls na magpapa picture sa kanya eh nasa Parking lot na kame tapat ng TEATRINO.. Kakatuwa lang kay John Joe na hindi siya suplado. Talagang hinintay namin yung mga girls then yung Segment Producer namen ang nag take pa ng picture! Haha! Nice noh??... Kulit! Ang dami nila kayang girls.. Parang mga nag celeb hunt ata yung mga yun dahil awards night nga sa Cinema 1..... Hahah!! Wala lang... share lang..

NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN

BITTER....

I have talked to Sir Gary, one of the head writers of IMC.. We are close now kaya we always talk and share things about life.. shitty stories of mine.. haha!!!

He told me to move on... Get another guy to love or to pay attention with.. Well, its easy to do .. But the thing is.. YOU ALL KNOW HOW I COMMIT MYSELF WHENEVER I FALL IN LOVE.

Wala naman talaga sa kin yun eh.

Yeah, time to move on.. Things have changed already.. Shitty things had happened while we did not see each other.. Dont get me wrong about the term I used. What I meant was shitty things.. like stupidity.... you know.... Ayun..

But I still wanna say THANK YOU.. you know who you are.. THANKS for being there with me whenever I needed someone.. lalo na nung mga times na sobrang depressed ako dahil sa metrics ko sa CSAT sa work. Tsk. Thanks talaga ah..

Thanks din to Arvie, Jay and Sir Gary dahil you opened my mind about those issues... You really helped me a lot guys! Haha!!

O siya, time to go now. Later na lang ako ulit mag bblog! hehehe.. ^_^

~out~

STAR STRUCK at the Awards Night of Cinema 1

OMG!!!!!

Eto ang pinaka unang pre production na nakasama ako.. Dito pa sa Awards Night! wahah!! I saw Iyah, Zanjo, Mark Gil, Jackylin Jose, Meryl Soriano, Miko Palanca with Bea Alonzo, Piolo Pascual, Bianca Gonzales, Geoff Eigennman and his mother, Empress and Denise, etc. And!!!!! OF COURSE! Si John Joe na kasama namen. haha!!! Sa labas lang kame nag shoot para sa 3rd season ng Its A Guy Thing.. Dun lang kame kasi yun lang ang part na kukuhanan namen, plus yung mga celebrity! OMG! Kasama pa kame sa extras.... Weh! Watch out for it on December. hehehehe.. Napa extra pa kame. That's why I love Ideal Minds. Hindi nila nalilimutan i-extra ang mga interns. hahaha!!!!!

Kinapalan ko na mukha ko!

Nilapitan ko si Iyah while she's outside talking with her colleagues. Tapos si Zanjo (correct ba spelling?).... Then I had this feeling na nainis talaga ako. When I saw Mylene Dizon with her hubby na papasok, kinausap pa nga kame eh, tapos ayun, sabi ko after "umm, pwede po picture??" Then she just nodded but never looked at my camera.. GEEZZ!!!!!!! I used to like her pa naman. FORGIVE ME! I hate her now.. She's pretty, yeah... But the fact na alam kong celeb ka nga pero youre snob pala.. THEN GO! sana hindi mo na lang ako totally pinansin. hahah!! I am so mean.. WTF!

~PICTURES~

With John Joe Joseph

With Iyah, so pretty...

Zanjo, my new boyfriend! haha!!

Na star struck sa kin.. haha!!

TAKE IT EASY

Reality Bites... yun lang ang masasabi ko.. Yeah, lahat naman tayo yun ang sinasabi..

Bakit?

-Dahil kahit anong pilit mong makuha ang isang bagay, may mga hindi maiiwasang pangyayari na hindi mo talaga makukuha.. Gets nyo?

-Dahil sa tuwing may gusto kayo, hindi mapa sa inyo..

-Dahil lagi na lang tayong nasasaktan dahil sa mga bagay na katangahan lang..

-Dahil hindi natin matanggap ang katotohanan....

Kaya eto, nagpapaka senti na lang lage.. Hay. Medyo tanga lang siguro ako..

Ah! Baka sabihin masyado lang kasi akong nagmamadali.. Hindi kaya! .... Kala niyo lang yun..

Ayoko pa rin naman ng commitment mga peepz... Ang sa kin lang, masyado lang akong nagmahal.. Alam naman ng lahat yun eh. Kaso di ko lang talaga ma control ang sarili ko .. Kaya eto, sakit.. hehehe.. Pero ayus lang.. Basta stay tropa naman kame eh.. Diba?? Yung friendship lang naman ang habol ko eh.... sa ngayon.. at sa darating na mga araw pa..

Nagpapaka busy na lang ako sa OJT ko para walang hassle.. heheh.. Pero wala pa rin naman kasing masyadong ginagawa eh.. Kaya ayun.. Mamaya may shoot daw kame.. Goodluck sa kin.. dito ako matutulog. Di ko pa alam kung sino mga kasama ko.. May dalawang dumating dito pero di ko sila kilala...

Isang Segment Producer ng Its A Guy Thing at yung isa eh sa La Salle din nag aaral.. Hmmm.. Mukhang suplada eh. Pero wa pake.. Maganda ako.. hahaha!!!

Eto na si Mike, nasa MRT na.. tunog ng tunog ang cellphone ko... ayoko na magreply.. nakakawala ng gana mag post pag ganun eh. hehehe.. sensya na friend.. Bilisan mo na! Para yosi bonding na tayo. heheh.. Kasi naman bakla ayaw mo pa mag overnight dito eh. Tsk..

Balik tayo sa aking kwento ng buhay..

Hay.. Lapit na ako maka graduate. Nampucha, di ko alam kung pano na naman ako magttrabaho.. Parang pag naiisip ko yung mga training namen sa previous work ko, ayoko na! Tsk.. nakakatamad.. Plus, very tiring.. heheh..

Do you like my blog, guys!

Hahah!! THANKS GEORGE SA "complement" mo.. hehe.. TEACHER ka dyan. heheh.. ^_^

Till here! I love MIGGY!!!!!Woohooo!!!!

~out~

Its a Guy Thing

I had my first OJT schedule for Ideal Minds Corporations last Monday and its not that tiring.. Actually, we had nothing to do but to sit and watch TV in the office.. hehehe.. Pero we saw Ketchup, Borgie Manotoc and John Joe.. I didnt see Bubbles eh.. Ayun..

I met Rb, Tony was also there, si Lory and Jhay.. They are all Comm students.. good thing eh puro taga la salle dasma kame.. we often see each other sa corridor.. heheh.. ayun..

Anyways, for my second day, eto medyo haggard sa paghithit ng yosi.. heheh.. may nagawa na rin ako for the first time!!!! aaaahhhh!!!! inutusan ako makipag coordinate sa mga schools for schedules sa mga interviews for MTV Homecoming.. ayun...

i miss you

I am missing this guy so much right now... Whenever I see our pictures on my phone, for sure, a tear will fall.. I really miss this guy so much that I wanted to hug him so tight when I'll see him again.. Ugh!!!!!

I know that you are not into commiting for a relationship right now.. Yeah, me too... But for now, I just hope that nothing will change.. Nothing will fade....

I still love you and I will always do..

~out~